this_dude_55
Don Juan
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BACKGROUND: To sum up a long story, I graduated in 2006. I wanted to change myself from high school. Was doing great. Was becoming a real don juan. Was confident, outgoing, happy, and finally was becoming the man I always wanted to be. But then my world fell apart, my father was diagnosed with cancer. This was right after last Thanksgiving. It was declared terminal. He was given a few months to live. Ended up taking care of him. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t blame my dad for getting sick. I always considered the man to be superman. I was really close to my father, and it greatly hurt me knowing that my father was going to die. Though it costing me everything. Ended cutting my self off from those close to me, turning destructive inward, and just pessimistic attitude to an extreme. Basically a real ******* and lost everything I gained. Well my father passed away in late August, and I miss him greatly. But if there is anything I’ve learned from the whole thing is that life is too short. I want to go to being that man I was becoming and more. Though I know it’s a tough road to get there. Especially since I spent since last Thanksgiving feeling like a failure. Feel like a failure because I pushed away everyone I cared about and lost all I had. Used to be really athletic and was starting to actually gain mass. Wanted to get up to 210. Was starting to do that, but stopped doing it. Would like to accomplish that goal. Anyway I would to become the man I’ve always wanted to be by July 22, 2008. That’s the deadline I’ve given myself. This journal is mostly for myself to help motivate myself to get there. If it helps inspire others then that will be an added bonus. So let’s get going…
Here's a brief outline of what I want by that date.
PHYSICAL:
Goal/How:
*Become bigger, want to reach 210 lbs.
-Going to bulk from now till Jan.1st, cut Jan.2nd till March 1st, bulk again from March 2nd till May 1st, and then a final cut from May 1st till June 15th. Lift 3x a week, keep online journal of how's it going w/ the bulking/cutting
*Improve posture, good body language
-do through lifting, practice, stretch
*Increase flexibility
-stretch 3x a week minimium
MENTAL:
Goal/How
*Develop the characteristics I want and implement them till they become a part of me (example - being bold)
-Make a list, start doing it
*Get over fears such as approaching, what others think, feeing of failure
-Confront them and get through them
*GREATLY expand my confort level
-Just do it, take action, set weekly task for me to do, maybe eventuallly do the bootcamp or something like it.
I'm going to have this journal to help me track my progress. Going to start slow then hopefully keep it going. See how it goes I guess. :rockon:
Here's a brief outline of what I want by that date.
PHYSICAL:
Goal/How:
*Become bigger, want to reach 210 lbs.
-Going to bulk from now till Jan.1st, cut Jan.2nd till March 1st, bulk again from March 2nd till May 1st, and then a final cut from May 1st till June 15th. Lift 3x a week, keep online journal of how's it going w/ the bulking/cutting
*Improve posture, good body language
-do through lifting, practice, stretch
*Increase flexibility
-stretch 3x a week minimium
MENTAL:
Goal/How
*Develop the characteristics I want and implement them till they become a part of me (example - being bold)
-Make a list, start doing it
*Get over fears such as approaching, what others think, feeing of failure
-Confront them and get through them
*GREATLY expand my confort level
-Just do it, take action, set weekly task for me to do, maybe eventuallly do the bootcamp or something like it.
I'm going to have this journal to help me track my progress. Going to start slow then hopefully keep it going. See how it goes I guess. :rockon: