This post I Read

[ssj245]

There was this post I read on this forum, and it was a great post, it taught me about self esteem and how it worked and how the human being thought about himself.

Basically you have your self Ideal and how closely you match that in real life is your self esteem.

My problem is, I feel kind of sh*ty about myself and I never find myself satisfied or happy with who I am, I always feel a insuffecency inside me.

I realized why.

What I want to be, and What I am, are completly two diffrent realities. In my head what I want to be is a bad ass alpha male, who beats up people, picks fights with those that deserve it, dominant, doesnt take sh*t from nobody, secure, confident, gets girls everywhere he goes and doesnt have a hard time talking to them. You know the marine or mafia type bad asses. Not saying I want to do that kind of thing but just the attitude like, the "I dont give a F8ck" And not because its cool, because thats what feels right, it feels good to feel like a man, the manly man.

I want that.

What I am is a really diffrent story. Im just a Moma's boy, who's never gotten into a fight, whose only been with one girl, and gets scared to talk to women and cant get invited to parties or with other alpha's or whatever you want to call them.

My masculinity takes a real beating, cuz subconsiously Im always comparing what I want, and who I am.

Anyone esle have this dilema, ever want to be something or someone your not and have to face it and still love yourself?

 

[ssj245]

bump

bump.

 

[ethnomethodologist]

I think we all get that way. We all want to be the best we can be, and we want to work hard for what we believe in.

The problem is procrastination, or efficiency in my view. We procrastinate, in ways that we believe to be efficient, or we don't want to do things we believe to be "boring".

Boring is something that just implies it's so inefficient and stupid, it's a waste for me to do this, "I am bored" is the word I hear coming from so many people's mouth's. The more intelligent the person, the smarter, the wittier, the more I hear it, well among the ones with your mentality.

Take a look at shezzler, friend. He promotes sarging on a regular basis, and appyling yourself in new directions. Nothing new, but he promotes the subject, so he is essentialy a leader in the field(no pun intended).

I have read every one of your posts, and every one of them you see yourself as a loser. Something you have got to stop doing is to stop insulting people. Stop lying. Stop stealing. Stop being so proud of nothing.

 

[ssj245]

hmm..

Im lost..
I dont get what you mean.

I sort of do, but the last paragraph.

Im saying I want to be an alpha and not being one can make you feel inferior, just curious how all the other non alphas feel about themselves?

 

[ethnomethodologist]

Oh, well just work on yourself than... if you want to be alpha, don't work on looks or anything you can so easily "show" a person.

You have to be glorious, have good inner game, you must strive for self improvement.

In my last paragraph I was trying to give you ways to not, avoid being the alpha. Not defending yourself, to know what your problem areas are, and to get alpha information exactly about YOU. "Straight from the horses mouth" the old people used to say, that is how I deal, that is my mindset, for now in life.

You can't become alpha by being quiet and studying, if you have that much greatness inside of you... use it. The words you've been telling us say something about your life, that you think people around you are less than you, you are condescending, a patronizing fool.

Simple terms... grow up, everybody else around you is waiting for somebody to teach them. I guess not, I'm no good at breaking it down yet

Well what you've got to do is be yourself, don't compensate for anything. If you have to compensate, than that is a problem, that is non-alpha. Alpha's are who they are, and they let everybody see their weaknesses, their strengths make up for it.