Crazy Asian
Master Don Juan
- Joined
- Jan 29, 2007
- Messages
- 1,063
- Reaction score
- 9
- Age
- 32
I think I'm on the edge of changing my personality.
Right now, i'm sort of mean to people, and I don't want to be like that anymore.
When I first started changing myself, I wanted to be a guy that was nice to people, and gave compliments, but also stood his own ground. A guy with a purpose in life, and goals.
But I've really admired this guy on my swim team for a while. Although he's a freshmen, he's more muscular than most people on the team. He looks like a junior. He draws **** on his arms, wears weird clothes, and is just what I would call raw power. He doesn't give a ****, and yells at whatever the f*ck he wants. He does stuff like jack vacum(sp?) cleaners for no reason, and has a mohawk. He is what my definition of a masculine guy is. and without a doubt, his gf is smokin hot.
Now usually, I would avoid people like this, but there is also a likable side to him. I can't explain it. He is just so raw, but yet he is awesome to be around.
But, I don't know who I should be.
I guess i'm kinda of both right now.
I'm the guy that aims for good grades and has very important passions in my life. But I can also be unpredictable and wild. Like today, I just walked around with my sweat pants half way down (i had shorts on), and when people would look at me, i'd just be like "what the F*CK are you lookin at?" if it's a guy , or "don't act like this doesn't turn you on!" if it's a girl.
It's really fun doing stuff like this and not giving a sh1t about what anyone thinks of you. But I also have goals like becoming state champ in the 100 breast, or making 1st violin in all state.
But i feel like I don't get any respect.
EDIT: i shouldn't say i don't get respect, but i want to be the person that people go out of their way to help, or to be nice to. You know, that guy that everyone knows and admires. I only have a few b1tches at my command right now.
I act like the sh1t, but i don't truly believe it.
I know i'm still doing this stuff to try to impress people deep down.
Can I be both?
ps, I'm not good at writing thread over a paragraph long, so you might not be able to understand a part of it
Right now, i'm sort of mean to people, and I don't want to be like that anymore.
When I first started changing myself, I wanted to be a guy that was nice to people, and gave compliments, but also stood his own ground. A guy with a purpose in life, and goals.
But I've really admired this guy on my swim team for a while. Although he's a freshmen, he's more muscular than most people on the team. He looks like a junior. He draws **** on his arms, wears weird clothes, and is just what I would call raw power. He doesn't give a ****, and yells at whatever the f*ck he wants. He does stuff like jack vacum(sp?) cleaners for no reason, and has a mohawk. He is what my definition of a masculine guy is. and without a doubt, his gf is smokin hot.
Now usually, I would avoid people like this, but there is also a likable side to him. I can't explain it. He is just so raw, but yet he is awesome to be around.
But, I don't know who I should be.
I guess i'm kinda of both right now.
I'm the guy that aims for good grades and has very important passions in my life. But I can also be unpredictable and wild. Like today, I just walked around with my sweat pants half way down (i had shorts on), and when people would look at me, i'd just be like "what the F*CK are you lookin at?" if it's a guy , or "don't act like this doesn't turn you on!" if it's a girl.
It's really fun doing stuff like this and not giving a sh1t about what anyone thinks of you. But I also have goals like becoming state champ in the 100 breast, or making 1st violin in all state.
But i feel like I don't get any respect.
EDIT: i shouldn't say i don't get respect, but i want to be the person that people go out of their way to help, or to be nice to. You know, that guy that everyone knows and admires. I only have a few b1tches at my command right now.
I act like the sh1t, but i don't truly believe it.
I know i'm still doing this stuff to try to impress people deep down.
Can I be both?
ps, I'm not good at writing thread over a paragraph long, so you might not be able to understand a part of it