The Decay of Meaning
Don Juan
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I broke up with my girlfriend in June. So far I still haven't found a decent girl. Well maybe, if things turn well with the last one I am currently dating. We'll see.
17th of July: First girl had sex with me but was dating a guy and just used me for sex. We met each other about four or five times, until she was discovering and her game of ****ing me and dating that guy failed.
I really liked her, and I know she liked me, and because I was dissapointed with her, leads us to the next thing:
18th of July: I met a girl I was dating the next day this happened. But the girl I was dating left the house, and her friend wanted to stay over. I had sex with the friend of a girl I was dating (but the girl I was originally dating wasn't that interested and her friend was cool).
Beginning of August. Next girl. Met her at a bar. Spent the night over. Met her again at a bar.
Fourth girl. Random chick on the dancefloor.
Sixth girl (August-late October): We have been dating for about 3 months but then she turned sour and because she has a lot of very serious issues to deal with, she wants us to be friends for now until she can sort out her problems, which are pretty grave problems. I really like her, but she has too much baggage. I don't mind baggage but if it's to the extent you sometimes cannot be romantically involved and shut me out, I'm out. We were pretty much together though for those months, and it was a few very good months.
October 9th: Seventh girl: The other was a sexy single mom 28 year old girl, but she wanted it from the start to just be for that night because things were complicated, and maybe it was a good thing.
24th of October: Meets Ms. M and fool around with her, damn she is lovely.
4th of November: The other was a stupid girl who I found out later was ****ed up on amphetamine and had no life, and she liked to cuddle with me in bed. I mean not to be shallow, but it is a plus. Do I regret it? Yeah, kinda. Would I have skipped it? Not sure. I don't want contact with her again though.
Ms. M. The last one I really like. She just broke up though with her boyfriend, and I don't know how strong her feelings are, but she is a very kind, cool, and funny person. I could see myself in a relationship with this girl. We visited a friend of hers yesterday (she insisted I go with her because we cannot meet until Saturday because I am busy and so is she I guess), she drove me back home, and we made out, hugged each other and looked into each others eyes.
However, I sent her a message today and she hasn't responded. This has happened once before, but we are anyways about to meet saturday. Her not answering the message though, I find rude and gives me bad vibes that she might not be that serious.
So I've been with about 8 girls now, and I've been dating a few on the side but no physical intimacy. How many girls must you go through to get a decent chick with: Decent looks, decent morals, easygoing, thrustworthy (I'm sorry I meant trustworthy), and great sense of humor?
I am getting a bit tired of this. The thing is I can connect emotionally with someone pretty fast. I'm not clingy, but I connect emotionally quite quickly. So when that person leaves my life, I feel a bit teared apart. I don't mean for one night stands, I'm talking about girls you are dating, fooling around with, having a great time with, be romantic with, etc.
Right now I am mostly just having sex with girl B to get over girl C, and then I fool around with girl D to get over girl C. It's a never-ending, very restless cycle.
Is this normal or is it just stupid?
17th of July: First girl had sex with me but was dating a guy and just used me for sex. We met each other about four or five times, until she was discovering and her game of ****ing me and dating that guy failed.
I really liked her, and I know she liked me, and because I was dissapointed with her, leads us to the next thing:
18th of July: I met a girl I was dating the next day this happened. But the girl I was dating left the house, and her friend wanted to stay over. I had sex with the friend of a girl I was dating (but the girl I was originally dating wasn't that interested and her friend was cool).
Beginning of August. Next girl. Met her at a bar. Spent the night over. Met her again at a bar.
Fourth girl. Random chick on the dancefloor.
Sixth girl (August-late October): We have been dating for about 3 months but then she turned sour and because she has a lot of very serious issues to deal with, she wants us to be friends for now until she can sort out her problems, which are pretty grave problems. I really like her, but she has too much baggage. I don't mind baggage but if it's to the extent you sometimes cannot be romantically involved and shut me out, I'm out. We were pretty much together though for those months, and it was a few very good months.
October 9th: Seventh girl: The other was a sexy single mom 28 year old girl, but she wanted it from the start to just be for that night because things were complicated, and maybe it was a good thing.
24th of October: Meets Ms. M and fool around with her, damn she is lovely.
4th of November: The other was a stupid girl who I found out later was ****ed up on amphetamine and had no life, and she liked to cuddle with me in bed. I mean not to be shallow, but it is a plus. Do I regret it? Yeah, kinda. Would I have skipped it? Not sure. I don't want contact with her again though.
Ms. M. The last one I really like. She just broke up though with her boyfriend, and I don't know how strong her feelings are, but she is a very kind, cool, and funny person. I could see myself in a relationship with this girl. We visited a friend of hers yesterday (she insisted I go with her because we cannot meet until Saturday because I am busy and so is she I guess), she drove me back home, and we made out, hugged each other and looked into each others eyes.
However, I sent her a message today and she hasn't responded. This has happened once before, but we are anyways about to meet saturday. Her not answering the message though, I find rude and gives me bad vibes that she might not be that serious.
So I've been with about 8 girls now, and I've been dating a few on the side but no physical intimacy. How many girls must you go through to get a decent chick with: Decent looks, decent morals, easygoing, thrustworthy (I'm sorry I meant trustworthy), and great sense of humor?
I am getting a bit tired of this. The thing is I can connect emotionally with someone pretty fast. I'm not clingy, but I connect emotionally quite quickly. So when that person leaves my life, I feel a bit teared apart. I don't mean for one night stands, I'm talking about girls you are dating, fooling around with, having a great time with, be romantic with, etc.
Right now I am mostly just having sex with girl B to get over girl C, and then I fool around with girl D to get over girl C. It's a never-ending, very restless cycle.
Is this normal or is it just stupid?