The things that hold me back

[Malcontent]

I end up getting latched on a chick if I put my d!ck in her. I think I used to mistake it for love, but I think it's really about taking care of my d!ck. And I try to lock in a secure setup to take care of my lil' bud.

However, even my awareness of this doesn't change anything. It's like I've been given a drug and once I get a hold I don't want to let go of the supply.

If there weren't such a thing as STDs and babies, I'd have much less restraint (as we probably all would).

I've probably had sex about 1200-1400 times but with about ~10 women. Of those times, I think I've worn a rubber about 3 or 4 times (and usually removed it partway through).

I just can't do it. To me it's like eating food with no taste buds. It defeats the purpose.

This leads me to oneitis over and over again.

I want to raw bang a confirmed clean woman.

I guess I can just say "F-- it all" and start playing roulette. I reckon that's what I've been doing to some degree anyway.

Any advice?
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Other issues to follow or in another thread.

 

[Scaramouche]

Dear Malcontent,
You are going well,banging new Women is always fraught with danger,wearing French Letters is like having a shower in a raincoat...but that first fortnight after the first is always a little anxious as you watch for symptoms...When I lived in The Northern Territory I started a long distance relationship with an English Nurse we had a weekend of torrid Svex and a few days after,sure enough my Old Fellah started weeping and was soo sore....I was so cranky I drove two and a half hours to give her a piece of my mind...then a week later again The Doctor told me,my test results had been negative, it was a false alarm caused by too much strenuous activity...Though I laugh now,my stupid impetuosity cost me a beautiful relationship in an area where there were not many Western Ladies!

 

[Zunder]

Dear Malcontent,
You are going well,banging new Women is always fraught with danger,wearing French Letters is like having a shower in a raincoat...but that first fortnight after the first is always a little anxious as you watch for symptoms...When I lived in The Northern Territory I started a long distance relationship with an English Nurse we had a weekend of torrid Svex and a few days after,sure enough my Old Fellah started weeping and was soo sore....I was so cranky I drove two and a half hours to give her a piece of my mind...then a week later again The Doctor told me,my test results had been negative, it was a false alarm caused by too much strenuous activity...Though I laugh now,my stupid impetuosity cost me a beautiful relationship in an area where there were not many Western Ladies!

How old was the nurse...you dirty old aussie basterd! :rockon:

 

[Malcontent]

1. Assuming all chicks are already taken
2. Feeling disdain for women's wh0rish, manipulative, lying, nature
3. Territoriality -- wanting to lock a chick in as my own (not wanting sloppy seconds) -- oneitis and jealousy result
4. Being an introvert/loner and not wanting to party/club/drink -- just want to chill with a chick at home once I get her around -- probably leads to boredom for wh0res. Also limits my likelihood of meeting anyone to begin with.
5. Now that I am red-pilled somewhat, I'm not as attracted to them as I once was due to their nature. I think part of what gave me a b0ner for women was a delicate/innocent illusion I maintained. Now that they all look like lying cvm buckets I feel more like puking on them than j!zzing into their mouths.
6. Relationships seem pointless, but so do ONSs. Can't trust the B for a relationships and ONS = fear of STD/kid/false rape charge.
7. I am only attracted to younger chicks (25 y.o is about the max -- unless it's like a Naomi Watts looking older woman) which is a whole slew of other problems.


Perhaps I am just a negative, bitter ba$tard.

 

[Jules_Winfield]

Malcontent, we're around the same age and I felt the exact same way. I decided to embrace my sleaziness which has made me happy.