Chosen1
Master Don Juan
I'm just wondering, OP, what in the world made you want to MARRY THAT?
I'm not even joking, I REALLY want to know, because I am sure that underneath it all, there is some moral to this story that can be learned for other posters. You said you have always liked smaller women, but what about THIS one captured your eye?
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One of you guys Kailex asked me my mindset for marrying a girl that is twice my weight not that good looking and (my mom says) evil. I've been doing a lot of soul searching being hard on myself. Listening to guys at work very few people like her. I realized how much of a chump not in love I was. I prayed to god for my tears to stop and they did. I was at times disgusted in my own wife. Look at my previous post.http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=176836&highlight=chosen1.
When I met my ex wife I knew she like black dudes by the way she talked I thought she was ho. A friend of hers came to me and told me she liked me. I was low on confidence anyways so I talked to her. I was scared at first and I was a 21 year old virgin. She became obsessed I was thinking cool finally someone that loved me. Ha Ha Ha, the attention was cool but yeah I was just to desperate to let her alone. I actually let her pick me and not the other way around. I wondered why would anyone love me at all. I'm a good guy but I was never the best I could be. You guys would actually say I'm a nice guy. But in truth I am very passive aggressive.
I'm not abusive but my fuse is getting shorter I'm a nice guy through and through.So not getting any sex years of masturbation led me to get with a chick as one person Put it is free willys big sister. When we first got together I couldn't even *** because I had masturbated to much. I'm being brutally honest with you guys now this is my mindset. She would say you need to hurry up and get my pregnant (yes that is my kid). I recently read the book of pook and realized he is right on so many levels. I let her dominate did most things I could for her and was sometimes mean (Nice guy) Then I become free again and want to become a caged bird.
To be honest my exwife has a lot a lot lot lot of flaws. I have just as many mabye a litle less
Why would I want to be caged again the reasoning is because I felt important that way. I haven't done any of my dreams I'm an bright young man that has done nothing why no money and afraid of failures. Pook put it best the greatest risk you can take in life is not to risk at all. I used her to fall back on instead of realizing my dreams and my goals. Then I ask why did she leave me blah blah blah why am I now alone why this why that. Its because I wasn't a man to begin with. I let her control what I did and how I did it. Then she still made me look like I was the abusive one.
funny and ironic huh.My goals have be redifined since being with her. I want to do my brazillian jiujitsu go to the casinos more often meet people enjoy life. I actually have more money (despite child support) now then I did while married. I now have the means to complete my dreams. The scary thing is knowing all this I still might not become the best person I can be. I might fall into the same trap of just being instead of becoming. I want to spread my wings but I'm still afraid. That is my mindset of why I married a 300lb gorilla women who pretended just to get what she wanted. The moral of this story is never settle never forget what made you happy and a kid be the best person you can if she brings out the worst let her go. Thank you and good night
I'm not even joking, I REALLY want to know, because I am sure that underneath it all, there is some moral to this story that can be learned for other posters. You said you have always liked smaller women, but what about THIS one captured your eye?
__________________
One of you guys Kailex asked me my mindset for marrying a girl that is twice my weight not that good looking and (my mom says) evil. I've been doing a lot of soul searching being hard on myself. Listening to guys at work very few people like her. I realized how much of a chump not in love I was. I prayed to god for my tears to stop and they did. I was at times disgusted in my own wife. Look at my previous post.http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=176836&highlight=chosen1.
When I met my ex wife I knew she like black dudes by the way she talked I thought she was ho. A friend of hers came to me and told me she liked me. I was low on confidence anyways so I talked to her. I was scared at first and I was a 21 year old virgin. She became obsessed I was thinking cool finally someone that loved me. Ha Ha Ha, the attention was cool but yeah I was just to desperate to let her alone. I actually let her pick me and not the other way around. I wondered why would anyone love me at all. I'm a good guy but I was never the best I could be. You guys would actually say I'm a nice guy. But in truth I am very passive aggressive.
I'm not abusive but my fuse is getting shorter I'm a nice guy through and through.So not getting any sex years of masturbation led me to get with a chick as one person Put it is free willys big sister. When we first got together I couldn't even *** because I had masturbated to much. I'm being brutally honest with you guys now this is my mindset. She would say you need to hurry up and get my pregnant (yes that is my kid). I recently read the book of pook and realized he is right on so many levels. I let her dominate did most things I could for her and was sometimes mean (Nice guy) Then I become free again and want to become a caged bird.
To be honest my exwife has a lot a lot lot lot of flaws. I have just as many mabye a litle less
Why would I want to be caged again the reasoning is because I felt important that way. I haven't done any of my dreams I'm an bright young man that has done nothing why no money and afraid of failures. Pook put it best the greatest risk you can take in life is not to risk at all. I used her to fall back on instead of realizing my dreams and my goals. Then I ask why did she leave me blah blah blah why am I now alone why this why that. Its because I wasn't a man to begin with. I let her control what I did and how I did it. Then she still made me look like I was the abusive one. funny and ironic huh.My goals have be redifined since being with her. I want to do my brazillian jiujitsu go to the casinos more often meet people enjoy life. I actually have more money (despite child support) now then I did while married. I now have the means to complete my dreams. The scary thing is knowing all this I still might not become the best person I can be. I might fall into the same trap of just being instead of becoming. I want to spread my wings but I'm still afraid. That is my mindset of why I married a 300lb gorilla women who pretended just to get what she wanted. The moral of this story is never settle never forget what made you happy and a kid be the best person you can if she brings out the worst let her go. Thank you and good night