Distant Light
Master Don Juan
So I thought my first day of school would be so much fun, that I'd be with all my friends, I'll be gaming girls, etc. But when I got their it was the complete opposite I was feeling like **** and I was just pissed. So the day ends and I'm thinking "Fuvk I barely talked to any girls (maybe 2 or 3) and I was not in state at all" So I was so bored/pissed that I went to sleep super early.
Then when I was lieing in bed I woke up and was thinking what is possibly wrong with me, and then something clicked "Identity" it might not be as strong as I thought it was. So I go on my comp 4:30 in the morning and I'm reading about identity.
After reading I was like "This is it all this time my identity was fuvking weak" I depended on friends, girls, etc to get into state and I would give up my role when certain people come into play. (Damn it was a number of things) Then I'm thinking this is what I have to do NOBODY can break my state, I was 100% serious because at the time I was pissed.
So how did it go?
It was on everyone I thought that was cooler than me and that I reacted, it was no more. I was the king of the venue everytime, even when the friends that I hang with that I usually give the lead role too. As soon as I got out the house a guy I thought of as cooler than me had a fun time with me because of how my state was. (It was literally unbreakable)
I get into class and everyone is so happy to see me its like I was a hero of a village and my wife came up to hug me and everyone was so happy to see me. I sit down next to another girl and she is so into me, We leave that class and me and her are walking arm in arm. (There were like 4 people that I considered high value back in the day but not anymore they were no where near the state I was in)
First time in forever I didn't react to no one I was dead locked on what the teacher was saying, I'm going up to next class and a girl grabs me its another girl and I lead her to her class on a whole different route I had such a strong frame it couldn't be shattered. Then while walking another girl comes out of no where joking on me saying "You think you're fly now" I respond with some C&F (I think I said "Youuuu Knowwww It") then her and the other girl is talking about how laid back I am and some other stuff.
Go to lunch I take some of this girls water that I barely even talked too and then same girl who was busting on me sits next to me so now I have 2 girls beside me and there legs all on me.
After school I go out and you can just feel the aura. I'm looking with strong Eye contact and everyone is looking away. (Even tough looking men)
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All in all I realize that it was my identity that needed the most work out of everything. I was basically using state builders to get me in state before but when you actually have a strong identity you don't need to build up your state that you're in. Before I had to depend on friends for fun, or girls, if I was caught waiting somewhere by myself or in a classroom with no one I knew I used to be discouraged, But now Its like the matrix.
It litterally looked like everyone was in a trance state and I was Neo walking around doing what I want everyone came to me for the fun, and to hang. It was way different than anything I ever felt. The funniest part was that I was so far into my reality that some teacher comes up to me in lunch and I didn't notice her and she thought I had my hat on. Usually if its a teacher most people would say "no" in a soft voice or whatever, but for some reason I said "No" with so much congruence and so backed up behind it that I didn't realize until after that I had kind of yelled at her and she said "Ok I'm sorry" after she left I'm thinking WTF? I'm used to that lady cursing and yelling at people and then my friend pointed it out that I kind of yelled at her.
For all you guys you should really build a strong identity and keep building it forever, if you have a very strong identity you can do anything.
Edit - Ya it is kind of confusing at first, but I also forgot to add that the Security even wanted a hug and I was joking on 2 other female securities. Also another girl walked by when we didn't even say nothing we just kinoed each other. She seemd so happy too see me and was alot of sexual tension.
Then when I was lieing in bed I woke up and was thinking what is possibly wrong with me, and then something clicked "Identity" it might not be as strong as I thought it was. So I go on my comp 4:30 in the morning and I'm reading about identity.
After reading I was like "This is it all this time my identity was fuvking weak" I depended on friends, girls, etc to get into state and I would give up my role when certain people come into play. (Damn it was a number of things) Then I'm thinking this is what I have to do NOBODY can break my state, I was 100% serious because at the time I was pissed.
So how did it go?
It was on everyone I thought that was cooler than me and that I reacted, it was no more. I was the king of the venue everytime, even when the friends that I hang with that I usually give the lead role too. As soon as I got out the house a guy I thought of as cooler than me had a fun time with me because of how my state was. (It was literally unbreakable)
I get into class and everyone is so happy to see me its like I was a hero of a village and my wife came up to hug me and everyone was so happy to see me. I sit down next to another girl and she is so into me, We leave that class and me and her are walking arm in arm. (There were like 4 people that I considered high value back in the day but not anymore they were no where near the state I was in)
First time in forever I didn't react to no one I was dead locked on what the teacher was saying, I'm going up to next class and a girl grabs me its another girl and I lead her to her class on a whole different route I had such a strong frame it couldn't be shattered. Then while walking another girl comes out of no where joking on me saying "You think you're fly now" I respond with some C&F (I think I said "Youuuu Knowwww It") then her and the other girl is talking about how laid back I am and some other stuff.
Go to lunch I take some of this girls water that I barely even talked too and then same girl who was busting on me sits next to me so now I have 2 girls beside me and there legs all on me.
After school I go out and you can just feel the aura. I'm looking with strong Eye contact and everyone is looking away. (Even tough looking men)
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All in all I realize that it was my identity that needed the most work out of everything. I was basically using state builders to get me in state before but when you actually have a strong identity you don't need to build up your state that you're in. Before I had to depend on friends for fun, or girls, if I was caught waiting somewhere by myself or in a classroom with no one I knew I used to be discouraged, But now Its like the matrix.
It litterally looked like everyone was in a trance state and I was Neo walking around doing what I want everyone came to me for the fun, and to hang. It was way different than anything I ever felt. The funniest part was that I was so far into my reality that some teacher comes up to me in lunch and I didn't notice her and she thought I had my hat on. Usually if its a teacher most people would say "no" in a soft voice or whatever, but for some reason I said "No" with so much congruence and so backed up behind it that I didn't realize until after that I had kind of yelled at her and she said "Ok I'm sorry" after she left I'm thinking WTF? I'm used to that lady cursing and yelling at people and then my friend pointed it out that I kind of yelled at her.
For all you guys you should really build a strong identity and keep building it forever, if you have a very strong identity you can do anything.
Edit - Ya it is kind of confusing at first, but I also forgot to add that the Security even wanted a hug and I was joking on 2 other female securities. Also another girl walked by when we didn't even say nothing we just kinoed each other. She seemd so happy too see me and was alot of sexual tension.
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