Hey guys, I'm back! Didn't mean to pull a disappearing act - my PC broke down and with all honesty, I wasn't exactly in a hurry to get it fixed. I used to need this thing like I need air, but I've forced myself to just go on without it for some weeks, which was a pretty awesome experience I must say. I ended up spending a LOT more time outside and meeting a lot of new people, so I'm definitely gonna keep my PC time down to an absolute MINIMUM!
JUNE 25 - JUL 19
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These are the days I missed - this space is reserved for write-ups of whatever approaches I can remember.
FRIDAY, JULY 20 2007
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Hit up the beach for a few games of volleyball after work. One of the girls on the team I ended up joining had as close to a perfect body as I've ever seen - tiny waist and arms, beautiful, full hips, ass and tits plus a sexy face. What a great combination! I gotta admit that I was kinda nervous, but towards the end of the last game, I walked up to her mid-game and:
Me: Hey, after the game, give me your number.
Her: Haha umm, I dunnoo...
Me (kinda thrown off): Well... consider it... *shrug*
So after the game, her and her gf were laying down on a beach towel and the rest of us were packing up. I walked up and kneeled next to them:
Me: Hey, come help me pack that thing. We can talk while we're at it.
Her: Umm.. what thing?
Me: That over there.
Her: Oh... I dunno..
Me: Cmon, we'll talk and get to know eachother too.
Her: Oh.. well, I have a boyfriend.
Me: Listen, I don't really care. I have no interest in your boyfriend. I have interest in you.
Her: You do?
Me: Yea.. well, I think so. Ideally, I'd like to take a walk and get to know you better, but it's getting kinda dark so I'll call you instead.
Her: I don't think this is a good idea..
Me: Trust me, it is.
Her: I don't think so...
Me: I do.
Her: No.. I'm sorry. I can't. But it was really nice to meet you..
*stretches out hand*
Me: *give her a semi-mean look and walk off without shaking her hand*
So yea, that's that. Man, that sucked, that really sucked! And this chick liked me too - I thought so during the game and even my friend noticed her staring at me. This always happens to me - chicks get to like me for my leadership/looks/sense of humour/whatever during the game and then afterwards, I open my mouth and fvck it all up. Dammit, I was soo angry afterwards. It seemed like a sure thing before I approached and I fvcked it all up. As usual. I didn't qualify her, came on too strong, sold myself short, probably seemed desperate or like a complete player. All the usual newbie mistakes that I shoulda stopped making years ago. Rawr. Dammit. We saw them again a few days later - she ended up being a friend of a friend of mine. Needless to say, the bf thing was utter bs.
Sh1t, how do I fix this? How do I get rid of the nervousness? I was soo nervous, and I don't even know why - I've done this so many times. I must have been afraid of screwing up and 'losing' her? How do I change this 'poor-man' way of thinking? How do I stop selling myself short and start making girls want to qualify themselves to me?
SATURDAY, JULY 21 2007
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Went out to a club with a buncha friends. One of them brought his sister, whom I met a few weeks prior. I knew she liked me from before. I never really got a chance to be alone with / talk to her before, but I did get one immediately that night because when we all met at my place, her bro told her to hop in my car and drive together with me to the club, with the rest of them in their other car. This was perfect - we got to spend like 45mins all alone, connect and have some laughs. When we got to the club district, it took us awhile to find parking and people kept calling and asking where the hell we are - she picked up and told them we were having sex, with me doing a fake moan symphony in the background. LMAO, it was hilarious!! When we finally parked, I had to pick her up and carry her for a bit (hot!!) since she couldn't walk in heels on the steel mesh surface outside the parking lot. This was awesome because she has really great legs and a toned 95lb body, and I'm nearly 200lbs. Pure hotness - me in a suit, carrying her in her black low-cut dress in my arms. I even gave her a nice smack on the ass "as a way of her thanking me." Anyway, so we got to the club and all of us started drinking. A lot. We must have ordered 40-50 shorts inbetween the 6-7 of us. Me and her were gooonee. I actually came there to meet other chicks (I didn't even know she was coming), but she was really into me, put her arms around me and all that. I loved it. I ended up kissing her on the forhead and pulling her close to me, which resulted in her grinding her firm asian a$$ against me, obviously giving me a pretty good hard-on.
We pretty much spent the entire evening together - eventually making our way to the rooftop patio and making out like crazy. This was really hot - she was really soft and warm, and felt really great in my arms - she's only 5' and I'm well over 6. Once again, pure hotness. I wanted to take her home and fvck her brains out, but people kept getting in the way. Another dude in our group, who's dating her cousin, started telling the two of us that we're too drunk and have no idea wtf we're doing, then tried pulling her away. This really made me want to kill him, and I guess I made that fairly clear because he got the hell out of our sight. She started kissing me even harder after that. Yumm. If I was smart - I would have gotten the hell out of there then and there. We were at our peak, both of drunkedness and horniness, and this would have been THE time to close the deal. Problem is, I didn't have a plan and didn't extract because I couldn't imagine drinking back home that drunk. Why I didn't think of just taking a cab is still utterly beyond me - it seems so obvious now but I honestly didn't think of it at the time. So we stayed and the whole group decided to go to another club, where a big-name DJ was spinning, pop some E and have a great time. I thought this was perfect because 1) I'd get to take her back to my car, where we'd have time alone (heh heh) for me to sober up before driving 2) because a hot girl, E and a great DJ is as close to heaven on earth as you get and 3) because the other club was huuuugee and it'd be absolutely impossible for us NOT to lose the rest of the group, including her protective brother and that other guy I mentioned. Perfect? I think so! Only problem is, when we got out of the club and me and her started walking to the car, the other ppl started calling - apparently they changed their mind and decided to head home. One of them was her ride home - a ride she'd need unless she'd spend the night with me, which obviously couldn't happen if she had to explain it to her brother. So? I got owned. Lessons learned: 1) Always have a plan, 2) Strike when the iron is hot, 3) Don't be afraid to escalate to the max and push the envelope. MORE LESSONS HERE GUYS? HELP PLS!!
I'm definitely gonna see her again - we'll see how that goes. Perhaps I'll get a chance to learn from my mistakes, LMAO!
