The Life and Times of a Philly College Kid

[LearningSlowly]

I like this journal (especially the 3 grateful facts). Simple and positive. I bet it makes you happier to write this every day.

 

[PrettyBoyAJ]

This is interesting, Making me want to do a little journal. Make me get my game up.

Good stuff.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

March 4, 2012

Me: Very interesting past 24 hours to say the least.. We'll start off with late last night. Went into my buddies room down the hall and chatted with him, some friends and this chick whose on the school's cheerleading squad. Her face is very average but shes got a great body and ive seen her use her flexibility at the basketball games. I havent really talked to her much before hand but we all talked (they were getting drunk) and i was just being happy and joined in the convo. She then invited me to her birthday at the bar on penn's campus but i dont have a fake id so i couldnt come. I continued talking and i told her that shes gotta teach me how to do a back handspring and shes like sure and i grabbed her number. So thats one goal complete BUT what ive noticed was today that i felt less motivated to talk to chicks. Had oppurtunities to say hi or something and didnt do anything. So what ive decided to do is try to grab a new number each day but my goal is still to get atleast one each week. Every other successful # grabbed is just a confidence boost. So after i left my friends and ran into a friend of mine (hb6) who was very drunk in the lobby. She was going upstairs to her dorm but once she got off the elevator she told me to hold it and wanted to go to the top floor with me. I knew right away she wanted to do something sexual (she has low self-esteem, probably wanted to feel better about herself if she could bang me) by her acting very clingy around me. I however disapproved of taking advantage of this extremely intoxicated girl so i was indifferent and led her to my buddies room again. After talking for a bit i said "so this is where i make my leave" and headed out. She looked at me fiercely and said "No, TBS where are you going?" she looked back at everyone and i split to the bathroom quickly to avoid her. She wast even my type (looked and acted JUST like my mom. ****ing weird ) and she was super drunk so i refused to touch her.

Girls- Today as i finished up my run I ran into Melissa (hb8) who was the only girl i took on a date last term. She went no contact on me (story for another day) and i figured i should be spinning more plates so i did the same. She smiled widely as i approached but i didnt really stop, just slowed down (maybe i should have stopped) but we exchanged some brief sentences regarding spring break and how each other were before i was off again as i headed off i thought i heard her say something about contacting me tomorrow. Tbh i kinda hope she does. She isnt the average drunk college hoe and has determination like me to go far in life. She is serious about her work and gets **** ton and I need to surround myself with like minded people if i not only want to complete all my goals but grow and develop as a person. Only issue with her is very is very assertive and i do NOT want to be taking orders from a potential prospect, but besides that shes cool. Not gonna contact her over technology only when i change upon her cause that way is more effective. Gonna revamp thing by saying 'still owe you some Venezuelan,huh?' (i promised her last term to take her out to get some) but like i said this will only be done face to face. Also, the girl who is gonna make me cookies hasnt stopped by nor have i seen her on campus. Tomorrow im gonna hit her on her facebook (something along the lines of 'Today's wednesday...where are my cookies sarah?.." and tease her once she comes up. BEst sceneriao she DOES have them and i do what i just mentioned. Worse sceneriao she lied and i tease her HARD. i honeslty dont care either way but this girl is real cute so if i neg her pretty well and not forgiving her, i think it displays me valuing myself over her pretty self even tho i still couldnt give a rat's ass lmao.

School- forgot about this tab lol. So as of today ive had all my classes for this term. So far i can tell my international studies and english classes are gonna be a lot of work. Dont know if theyll be as difficult as the seemed.LEts hope they are not. I had econ also today. Long class in a lecture hall. Spoke up twice displaying confidence to everyone in the room (hot chick i met first week, but ive since forgot her name:crackup: sits on other side, i know what i need to do). Forgot to study my chinese characters today at the expensive of doing a lot of english homework. damn it!!

Hobbies Great run today, found a new route through the city. Went to the dining center sweatin like hell showing everyone there i dont give a fvck. The swipe in ladies were impressed and i chatted them a bit. Was gonna play soccer in the evening but ended up staying in the library just doing homework

Goals Reached:
1. soccer season not started yet
2. got a new job application for working in the library. MAKING MOVES!
3. N/A
4. GOT IT! now lets try to get one new # everyday:box: MAKING MOVES! (gonna text her tomorrow to remind)
5. N/A
6. N/A
7. N/A
8. Almost completed...Fresh off the boat chinese girl took elevator up one floor (no common courtesory to take stairs) half remembered i need to talk everytime im on the elevator. didnt bother cuz i honestly didnt even know if she talked english. but next time ill try. Also, im thinkin about a new goal..talk to one person everytime i stand on line?

"Live, travel, adventure, bless, and don't be sorry"

Today I'm grateful for:
A. getting the number. Let's see how my text game goes with her. Will update y'all on that tomorrow.
B. Amazon.com, girl in econ told class she bought the book in the store for $120. then the prof asked if anyone got it online and i told him i got it for $6 including shipping and handling:rockon: . Felt sorry for the chick though, made her kinda look like a dumbass........:kick:
C. Running into the kids who invited me to their intramurual soccer team. rarely ever see them and they were thinking about playing today but i couldnt make it. Dont know if they played or not.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

@PrettyboyAJ & LearningSlowly

Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Having a journal is helping me a lot if i must say. It helps me concentrate on my goals, stay motivated, organize activities and allows me to free up space in my memory. I am also the type of person who is self-critical and tends to usually remember the bad things and forget the good so by writing down positive stuff, it reminds me that things arent as bad as i usually make them out to be. Here's an article i ran across a few days after i started my journal. Turns out writing it down is more helpful than i thought

http://www.positivityblog.com/index.php/2007/09/12/why-you-should-write-things-down/

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

March 4, 2012

Me: What can I say? I ****ing LOVE this journal! Not even a week has passed and i have made HUUUUGE progress.. So today I woke up really early 3 hours before my first class (12:00) to make up for the lack of chinese studying i did yesterday. Had two classes and did a ton of activities today (date included)

Girls: I saw Melissa afar from the corner of my eye and i think i saw her facing me but we both carried on our merry ways. Don't think she's worth the effort of getting back unless she proves me wrong by contacting me. Otherwise I dont really care tbh. Then i had my next class and a hb8.5 from my last term english class was in there. We made super brief eye contact but i freaked and looked away. Then I realized who I was so i made a point that im going to talk to her after class. I did and we chatted about english and stuff and i told her id talk to her later. Im gonna get this one's number some point this term. Then an hb7 followed me out of class and approached ME and struck up a convo. Was caught by surprise and had no idea what to say but we managed to have not too much of an awkward convo lol. She seemed like she was either a private school chick or homeschooled cuz she didnt play the normal social roles given to women at all (she came to me, she led a lot of the convo, and she seemed to lack the normal girl mentality). I dont mind because i find that to be super cool. I then talked to a lacrosse chick at the elevator of my dorm but she seemed weirded out so the conversation went no where. I then texted cheerleader girl and she was sooooooo into me. I spit game hard on her and she ate it up . went to the gym and talked a bit with the rental equipment chick and she also was weired out but no worries, these things happen. Then when i came back to the dorm i DID make a mistake. (saw lauren, friends with girl in english class) but couldnt get myself to talk to her even though she looked at me from the corner of her eye. I just continued talking to my friend and acted like i didnt she her. Then however, I went on facebook and a chick i semi-know posted about going to the rock wall and i told her id come. Got her number(YES!) and we met up and had a good time. Got to know her and got the full hug embrace and the end :rockon: . Then i spit mad game on the girl who makes cookies thats really cute on facebook.............got her number too:box:

School-kinda neglected my homework at the expense of socializing a ton today. will catch up tomorrow.

Hobbies- Basketball and the gym early in the afternoon, then rock-climbing with the girl later and soccer at night.

workout-same as above.

food intake- didnt eat a salad like i wanted but i still refrained from greasy food.

Goals Reached:
1. N/A
2. Gonna hand in my application tomorrow
3. N/A
4. 3 numbers in two days:box: :box: :box:
5. N/A
6. N/A
7. Got back into my rock climbing ****.
8. Talked or said at least one thing to anyone in the elevator atleast once.

"As you think, so shall you become"

Today I'm grateful for
A. the luck and confidence boost i had today in terms of girls
B. my studying over the chinese characters so i was ahead of the game in class
C. being able to showcast my stuff to the other soccer players so they know im good and pick me to play with them next time we play.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 5, 2012

Me:Odd day for me here. Day started off well but later on things happened and I got this really weird feeling inside of me that i couldn't shake for a bit. I woke up said wussup to the cute RA and the other front desk ppl then left for the library to drop off my application. Saw cheeleaser chick and gave her a high five (kinda odd but i felt like it) and dropped off the app. Hopefully they reach out to me for an interview. Then I went to the dining hall to eat.As i left i saw potential all girl schooler/homeshooled chick from yesterday walk by and we said hi to each other. Went to my econ class and told myself i was gonna be productive and say hi to the hot girl in it that i know. Had a small opportunity at the end while i was walking with friends but i backed out last minute cuz i was afraid of rejection in front of my friends . Went to the library afterwards tho and got a **** ton of hw outta the way. Then went to my next class where most of the kids in my smal major is in and where i know almost everyone. I talked with a few but im not interested in any of the girls in there. Went to go eat dinner afterwards and ran into my friend who i like to **** around with and a whorish hb8.5 who he was with and i know. They invite me and my friend to eat dinner with them and this is where the weird feeling came up. I felt like i was being tested or something, weird **** ya kno? like in my gut i had a knot and it was buggin me out. I did flirt decently though, AMOG with my buddy but not the one who came with me. That one turned to be AFC and the girl and my friend teased him for it. NExt thing i know i was joking along with him and i felt like a sellout. How ****ty of a friend am i? Luckily he seemed to not care cuz he joked about himself and them also so i HOPE his feelings didnt get hurt. As i left with all of them, i turn around and i see the kids from my major at another table (some told me they werent going to eat) and the awkward feeling intensified. I tried to talk to them but it was weird going from serious flirting to small talk and the convo was a dull. Luckily i got some excitement by talking about about the Europa League soccer games but that was about it. Then i made my awkward exit and i felt weirder even more. We continued flirting, joking, making fun of each other until halfway back i saw a hb9 from my last term mathclass. left the friends (two at this point cuz the AFC friend left) and went to talk to her. as i did, my phone rang and i answered it. she walked slightly ahead but purposely not enough for me to not be able to catch up to. i did catch up and a weird conversation (my game was off here), after a bit i told her i had to leave and catch up with my friends who went another way. i did that and the other whorish chick left and me and my friend went to his room to play fifa. as the game was finishig. two SUPER hot hb's(tbh the best blondes ive seen at drexel) came into the room. I couldnt give a **** cuz i was playing fifa but my friend (whose friendzoned with them) showered them with attention. I ended winning and lavashly celebrating showing the girls and my friend i dont give a ****. But afterwards i still had the weird feeling all this time and i had another odd conversation with these two girls. They also seemed uninterested and i didnt really car so i didnt bother to proceed. Im not the most handsome or build guy (although ive been working on it) but once you get to know me, THATS the hook, line, and sinker. I just met these chicks and judging from just meeting me, they thought i was probably just another AFC. Anways i left the three cuz they were going somewhere and i needed to pick up beers i bought from my other friend, who was waiting for me since i played fifa. I met up with him and his bud and we walked to his offcampus house. I felt like i was gonna get jumped. This super weird weeling just wouldnt quit it! i know i was thinking stupid **** but i felt fear in my gut along with the weirdness although i couldnt identify where it came from. We got back to his place and loaded my bag and his duffle bag with the brews (left him two as courtesy) and went to my dorm. Unloaded them and the two dudes peaced. Then i did laundry and went to the library. Felt weird all this time till i focused on what im appreciative for and updated my fb status to 'learn to enjoy the little things'. Afterwards the pressure in my stomach gradually was lifted. Bunch of guys liked the status tho, no chicks but whatever. Did some more hw and went back to finish my laundry. Ran into my other friends on the first floor and we had taco bell

Girls: listed in the rant above

Hobbies: Ran into my intramurual soccer team and got weird vibes from them (during that whole weird stomach knot thing) and they seemed less than impressed at me. I havent paid my dues (doing that today) and i havent met up with them to play. Ill make amends. My word.

School-got some hw done. Still waiting for my textbooks to get in.

Workout-absolutely nothing

Food intake-had 3 taco bell dorrito tacos and a donut. Opposite of progress

Goals Reached-
1.N/A met up with soccer team though
2. Handed in my application
3.Still a virgin so N/A
4.No numbers today (im still scared of cold approaching. the girls i got numbers from already were ppl i somehow knew. i need to start cold approaching more)
5. No
6. No
7. No
8. Yes

"A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval"

Today I'm grateful for
A. Library lady helping me with my application before i handed it in
B. My friend for getting the beers
C. My other friend who i drank some with and he showed me cool songs.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

March 6, 2012

Me: I'm writing this post a day late so I forget some minor details. I woke up late today, handed in my intramural soccer jersey $$, and signed up for my civic engagement volunteering. Went on a run and went into a floral store to break a $20. Hot 20 something kick in there buying stuff. Attempted to initiate but she either ignored or didnt hear me. Did not really mind and had a good convo with the store owner instead. Was gonna meet up with cheerleader chick to teach me how to backhand spring but she flaked. Likewise, i dont even mind lol. Before i used to feel hurt or down whenever these things happened, then i would think that the chick was missing out and it sucked to be her. Now i dont even mind. Its cool, i have zero emotion. Night time came around and i decided it was time for me to go party. Last term i didnt do much party wise, only first term. We had three cases of brews to pregame and we all got pretty ****ed up before heading out. My chick friend who is in my major (automatically red flag for me) came by expecting to be showered with attention, especially from me. But i just treated her the same as everyone else and displayed my alpha status by being the center of attention. We all broke off into groups and headed to the party.

Girls: At the lawn of the party we were trying to figure out how we were gonna pay to get in. There was a group of girls conveniently around and i went to talk to them about the party. Generally went well and i sent my friends in with them. I stayed out with my friend who didnt have cash and tried to figure out what was gonna happen with him. THe whorish hb from earlier in the week came by and i gamed her tellin her to pay for me to get in. She ate it up and eventually a buddy came by to pay for my friend who was broke. Party was cool, i knew so many people in it. Now in hindsight, i could have easily been the life of the party if i was feeling a little more confident. I kept flirtin with whorish hb and she wanted my **** HARD. i planned to have her as my pong partner then game her slowly there and afterwards take her to the dance-floor and then back to my place but the downfall of my method is that it is a long process and other guys just immediately jump. Some drunk and desperate douchebag came by saying shes the hottest asian hes ever seen and he kept throwing his abs in his face. I should have just lifted my shirt and put him in his place but i was just shocked at how desperate he was . I somehow lost her and found my chick friend from the pregame. We went to the dance floor and danced for a bit (no grinding, off limits) and we found another chick friend from our major. Lots of hugs and dancing ensued and my method FINALLY paid off. With two very cute girls as my wingwomen, i got the other fellow major girl's friend to dance with me. She was borderline but the approval of the other girls let her know that im cool so we grinded the night away. it felt good to dirty dance with a chick. I missed that. I should have hooked up but i got scared to. I got all the right signals while it was most hot but i over thought and it took me a while and i asked her twice but by then she knew i was scared and wasnt receptive to take it further. Got her number tho at the end of the party and we went to hunt more wiling girls. We found a bunch, hung out back at their dorm, but by then the beer goggles were coming off and we peaced before anyhing could happen. This other dude their was serious inspiration. He was about 5'4 and was not the least handsome but his personality captured everyone in the room. A born-natural:rockon: , I talked to him and he gave me advice and i went from being shy to ****ing around with him and i got invited to come back tomorrow by the girls but i dont find them that attracive so i dont think i will go.

School: Was gonna work on my paper but never got to it.

Work-out: Went on a kickass run. Ran in a huge oval into the city and back to campus. The vertex of the run must have been around 8th or 9th street.

Hobbies: dancing with girls:box:

Food keep finding myself eating pizza. Im restricting myself now unlss its the absolutely delicious flatbread

Goals Reached:
1. Handed in intramurual soccer money. LETS GET THE SEASON STARTED
2. Wating to hear back about the app
3. N/A
4. Got the girl i danced with. First REAL cold approach number ive gotten in college. Al other ive known some how (from class, mutual friend, etc..)
5. N/A
6. N/A
7. N/A
8. Almost everyone. One dude had headphones on so i couldnt talk to him.

"Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself, do not go out and look for a successful personality and duplicate it.”

Today im grateful for
A. Having a good Drexel party for once so far in 2012
B. My awesome run into center city. Really frees the mind
C. My girl friends as social proof

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 7, 2012

Me: keep forgetting its April now .Kept putting march into the last entries. So today was very simple. Skipped homework again for pursuit of fun things. Now tomorrow i am overloaded with a ton of stuff to do. Went to the gym, and played soccer. Came back to the dorm with friends playing king cup but i was exhausted so i went to go chill in my room.Was about to pass out but chick friend (same from party) wanted to drink so i went back to the room i was in before and invited her over. SImple drinking and talking then i passed out in my room.

Girls: not much girl wise today

Hobbies: soccer for almost the entire day. I dont know how i can still walk after all that running.

Workout: Abs, chest, and triceps. then soccer

Foodretty good. Ate my salad and stayed away from pizza.

Goals Reached:
1. Gonna write all things soccer related here cuz the season hasnt started yet but im playing a ton anyway. Started off great. I had nothing to prove so i felt calm and confident in myself. had some sweet nutmegs and scored a couple. Then the kid they all call 'messi' and his friend came by and instantly i felt nervous/threatened. Thats when i started to play normal. He does everything that i can do but he is so controlled and gets a ton of praise so i feel less confident in myself. I go to play defense when hes on my team and let him shine even though i know i can go up and do the same stuff but i get scared. Its really weird cuz i started off AMAZING when he wasnt around but when he came just like that i dropped my level of play. I pass the ball when its at my feet even though my main attribute is being a dribbler. I feel like a cage bird whenever this happens. So what i need to do is change my mindset and focus like i did before he comes around. Before 'messi' came, he was controlling the field. I dictated everything that happened and was not a passerbyer like when he plays. So i need to realize that 1. its not a competition 2. have fun and have nothing to prove 3. remember the magic you can produce when you have the ball at your feet. Dont just pass it off when you get it. 4. Believe in yourself and your abilities
2. Still haven heard back from the library
3. Still a virgin
4. Finishing the week off with 4 numbers. :cheer: (Dani, Sarah, Mica, Shawna):cheer: :cheer:
5. Term hasnt ended. GPA=3.2
6. Havent checked out any new clubs. Just intramural soccer
7. Went rock cimbing once this week. Now this new week im gonna go swim some point during the week.
8. Talked to everyone. Also im including line waiting. Really puts me out there and builds confidence

"You must be the change you want to see in the world.”

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Roomate going home. Very peaceful
B. Friends for giving me free drinks
C. This journal again for giving me oppurtunity to analyize myself. This time my self confidence issues in soccer

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 8, 2012

Me: Woke up via phone call from my college makeshift coach (old guy. Hilarious. Long story) telling me to get my ass to the field. Played undefeated in my tourny until the final where we lost to our friends. Messi was playing with us again so i let him have the spotlight while i played defence. I just need to remember that its ok if i shine too. Will do next time i play, regardless if hes around or not. Then did tons of homework. Did break my spreak though...not the drug one but too much time on the internet can lead to bad things lmao. Speaking of drugs, this whole weekend i was offered **** to hit like blunts, pieces, crushed addy, nitrous, among other junk and i refused them ALL!!! **** YOU DRUGS!

School: making up on that hw. Still on my school grind as we speak.

Hobbies: soccer of course. Its like an addiction.

Girls: Hung out with a chick friend and did hw. Feel more comfortable with her than a lot of guy friends even though shes not much of a looker/in my major so off limits for me. Why do i get along with this chick (now that im thinkin of it, a bunch more) but when it comes to girls i like, i **** the bed? hummm........

Workout: soccer. soccer. soccer. soccer. soccer. Maybe playing with other really good players like 'messi' (aka sebastian), dos santos, juan, jonathan, lucas, and all the other foreigners is EXACTLY what i need. Im moving forward. Back home i ran train against anyone i played against. I was too comfortable and played like a God. Now my ego is being put in its place and in order to be the best again i gotta play with the best. Im excited to see how well i play once i graduate college. God save all those who come against me

Food: stuffed my face deservedly. My body needs as much calories in it after allthe running and kicking ive been doing as of late.

Goals Reached:
1. Won $10 bucks in the tournament today for second. But got my penalty saved in the shootout. Mixed emotions.
2. No job
3.No sex
4. New week. New numbers.. LETS GET SOME ###'s
5. GPA still the same
6. This is an easy goal, writing in my agenda and planning to make time to meet potential chicks at a cool new club or group. But ofcourse, getting the girls is just a bonus to doing whatever i want to do.
7. Also making time to go swimming.
8. Talked to everyone. IM FEELING CONFIDENT:box:
Broke my five finger massage streak but only the weak allows that to break their determination with real girls. STILL goin at it. LEts get laid son!

"The significance is hiding in the insignificant. Appreciate everything."

Today I'm grateful for
A. Getting $10 for playing soccer
B. Having my friend practically do my chinese/ias homework
C. Having all my dining dollars back so i can stuff my face in food/drinks. Blew over $75....woops:rock:

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 9, 2012

Me: Easy day in school. Went to co-op class. Had small talk with the cute girl i was scoopin last week. Not much went into it sadly, such is the issue of hybrid classes. English was cool. Pretty sure Jaclyn (hottest girl in my dorm building that ive seen) was scoopin me but i was not sure. I made the classic me mistake by overthinking everything instead of just going and talking to her. She ran off again before i could talk to her, emerging herself with her phone/calling god knows who. I checked her fb profile and she's in a relationship. damn. Chinese was cool but i almost feel asleep due to the warm temp and small cozy room. .

Girls: Sarah aka cookie girl came to my room to give me my cookies today. i was MAJOR afc and acted really stupid, tried to be funny but didnt work. She had a bf anyway. I feel like today i am having my options sort themselves out. Sadly my two favs or taken or i might have messed my chances with one.

Hobbies/Workout: soccer today again. Did pretty great at first. Then was very average. then did decent at the end. I ran past the whole team, goalie included, but missed the open shot!!!!!!!!!!!!:crackup: :crackup: :crackup: i wanted to shoot myself

Food: ate chinese with half of my winnings from sunday's soccer tournament. Ate typical (salad, no bad ****) at the dining center.

Goals Reached:
1. Scored a goal and had some good plays
2. STILL HAVENT BEEN CONTACTED FOR MY JOB
3. Virgin still
4. 0 numbers this week. (i feel a lil unmotivated/ less ambitious as last week, idk why but i plan to read some inspiration stuff to get me pumped tomorrow morning)
5. N/A
6. Checked out a huge list of clubs. Still finding what i am interested in. Co-op teach told class to do exactly this by going out of our way and join clubs this term if we havent already
7. Gonna check pool times tomorrow. Missing a nice swim
8. did it

"Don't look for a sanctuary in anyone else except yourself"

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Scoring a goal
B. Getting the cookies
C. Grabbing my balls and confronting my roomate about the excessive sex he has with the troll from the 9th floor. They do it in the morning and i wake up to the bunk bed shaking. Before i was scared to break the peace but i realized that was very feminine of me and real men just do what they have to do and say what they have to say. It took me a few breathes and reinforcements but i laid down the law. He apologized and he tried to be extra friendly today. I was receptive but i plan to flip if i catch him again. I'm not being disrespected like that ANYMORE:trouble:

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 10, 2012

Me: Good day. Woke up late and did everything needed of me today more or less. Had econ and hot girl was in it but she, like English chick, disappeared at the first sign of class ending. I answer a lot of questions to make myself known and i'm purposely going to sit closer to make this happen. I want it.

Girls: Same as above. Very little girl interaction today.

Hobbies: soccer today just like every other day. Kinda worried cuz i neglect the gym now because i don't have enough gym shorts to do both activities. Gonna wake up early tomorrow and hit the gym:box: . Then wash clothes throughout the day and play soccer again in the night

Workout: Soccer

Food: Ate pizza but only one slice. Not gonna b1tch over one slice of pizza, im a man.

School: Didnt do all i wanted but their are only x amount of hours in the day. Did clean the room today though which is a plus. Nothing like an organized and clean room..

Goals Reached:
1. Had some sick plays and scored a decent amount of goals. Played really well.
2. N/A
3. N/A
4. N/A
5. N/A
6. N/A
7. Checking the pool times tomorrow
8. Yep. This goal is too easy. Now that i do lines too, im gonna think of more things that put me out of my comfort zone. I thought of something really silly . What if i put my hand out and attempt to high five strangers on the street? It will help me get over my fears of rejection and what others think of me. Its funny too. Hmmmmm

"Some people dream of success, others make it happen."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Playing well in soccer
B. Getting to sleep in
C. My econ text book finally coming in

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 11, 2012

Me: Cool day. Still only 8:30 but i wanna write this now before i forget anything. Woke up early, did some hw, went to classes today, went to gym. Maybe going to soccer in a bit if i finish my econ homework quick enough. Need to be more proactive in the day, not reactive.

Girls: Here's what i want. I had THREE different girls i could have gotten numbers from....but i had a revival of afc anxiety.Maybe it was when i spunked out over the weekend? I don't really wanna blame anything but my state of mind but coincidentally enough this week i have been less charged when it comes to girls. Ran into the different-like chick (turns out shes ROTC, thats why) and could have grabbed her number as we chatted. Then ran into this girl i know who crushed me 2nd term a lot but i was not interested really until she got over me kinda and now im intrigued (people are weird) and lastly whorish hb who REALLY wanted me but idk what was up with me. Sat with her and three of her friends at dinner and i SHOULD have become the center of attention and display my value but i acted disinterested (kinda was) and i noticed my atitude wasnt linear. When close friends came by i broke out of my cool stupor and was instantly involved in good convo. With them right there, maybe she felt hurt cuz i wasnt paying attention. I still did some good though but saying goodbye was awkward. Some people have issues making good first impressions..I struggle at last impressions. I KNEW by then that its been since saturday since i got a number but i ****ed up by overthinking (which was my fortune cookie at dinner) and i just didnt do it. I kept rationalizing that shes a hoe and that i dont want her but i realize that just means she wants to fvck which is EXACTLY what i want. AND shes smoking hot (chick friends say she's 'gorgous' and are jealous of her. Guy friends, with a select few who already fvck her, view her as a queen) but me.. i just don't care. Until its too late. Story of my life when it comes to girls. NExt time i see her i'm getting her NUMBER. i dont care if i get rejected. Also, i realize that writing about my issues won't solve them. Action solves them. This journal is good but i viewed it as the center of my approach life. From now on, this is just gonna be a little something that tracks my progress. I'M the center of my approach life NOT any girl, pua technique, or this journal. On the plus side, i organized another rock climbing date for saturday.

School: working on working on

Hobbies: Set rock climbing date. Going swimming tomorrow, found the times i need

Food: Healthy

Workout: Biceps and Chest

Goals Reached:
Besides swimming and rock climbing, I'm just focusing on getting numbers. Theres too much on my plate. The experienced poster was right, should have listened right away

"Neither in this world or anywhere is there any happiness in store for him who always doubts"

Today I'm grateful for:
A. This new kick-in-the-ass feeling i have for wasting many precious chances. I feel like each chance i pass is like losing $20. I'm forcing myself to get numbers. These three girls are going to be in my contacts list by this weekend
B. Being able to go to the gym
C. Tasting lunch at the dinning hall

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 12, 2012

Me: Making moves in my life. Just facebook stalked myself and i see so much transition in myself as a person over the time i first started coming to this site. I really feel like i am living my life to the fullest . Today I had two classes and in econ, i totally bombed a quiz. I bought the wrong textbook and studyed the wrong things. Besides this minor blimp, I had a chill day. meeting with my english teacher right afterwards which went great and i complimented her Om symbol on the entrance door. I hinted to my own spirituality and we will see where that leads me. Chilled with a few buddies and had lunch before my only other class. After that finished i headed back to the area in front of the dorms with my one new friend who i slowly am getting to become good friends with. We met up with two other friends of ours and we talked, hollered at peeps and chicks we knew, and told stories. I had a weird moment then with the sun out and the 4 of us being the center of the campus..a bit transcendental and profound moment. I truly realized that I am a different person. 5 years ago I would be terrified to be anywhere near a large crowd of people and today we were the center of everything. I still have my old shy/nervous moments, of course, but they are slowly and steadly becoming far and few in between. I helped my friend scout a kid he wanted for his own intramural soccer team and we decided he was more than good enough.Then i met up with my chick friend and we went to a Muslim meeting on campus. Neither of us are Muslim but we both love halal so we ate the free food offered there. Turns out the meeting was really interesting so we stayed longer than anticipated. Then i played soccer for the rest of the night.

Girls: The super hot girl in English class? got her number:cheer: :box: Had a brief convo in the elevator, turns out we're both dicussion leaders in class next week so i grabbed her digits. Not a straight forward digit pick up but i plan to swing the text focus from school stuff to play stuff over time. But for now..we wait:yes: . ALSO, super hot 6th floor chick (same girl i ditched whorish hb to talk to this one) was lookin at me from afar while i walked down the street with my new bud. I shot her the look and she smiled widely. Now for these two girls they BOTH have BF's but i plan to continue my pursuit because at least for one of them, i know its a long distance old high school relationship but they still are dating whoever simply because lack of options of guys who are ready to take life by the balls. I'm striving to be one of those guys.

Hobbies/workout: soccer is my hobbie and my hobbie is my workout. Surely running so much everyday cant be good for my calfs/quads/etc..

School: messed up on this econ quiz. No worries, life goes on

food: Ate pretty well. Had a pizza moment ofdesire but i shut THAT ****ER DOWN!

Goals Reached:
I decided to trim the list but come back to the other goals once i reach them. Torrow morning (in about 6hours) im going swimming and i have a rock climbing date organized for saturday. . I got the really cute 9th floor chicks number and my other chick friend potentially got me a job catering.:woo:

"A successful life is all about balance"

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Good convo with fellow SS member
B. Chance to chill with the new friend
C. Chick giving me her #

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 13, 2012

Me: Chill day. No class on fridays so I mostly hung out. Went swimming at the pool for the first time and it was pretty cool. Then i went longboarding with the crew before going to UPenn spring fling with my older brother who came down for the weekend. Got pretty wasted and i still feel hungover and my damn ears are still ringing from Tiesto. I pulled a badass stunt too where i bide my time, slowly got my way to the fence of general admission after being pushed back mutliple times by other people/security, waited for security to be occupied, and scaled and jumped that **** like spiderman before disappearing into the exclusive Floor Level crowd.

Girls: Danced with like 3 or 4 girls at the concert, don't really remember. Whenever I got nervous, I waited for the kick in the song to really get me going and approach. However, I realized that i'm expecting something external to make me do something rather than something internal so my mantra throughout the night was simply saying 'I'm triniboysmooth b*tch!' (similar to the infamous, 'i'm rick james b*tch) and realized how awesome i was. It sounds super egotistical but i needed that motivation to push me forward.

Hobbies: Good day for hobbies! Went swimming, something that i have been meaning to do since day one, and also went longboarding. I realized that i have improved in longboarding greatly. I have also conquered my fear of extreme speeds because i found myself pushing while going down the steep hill to go even faster. My technique also improved and i had very few wobbles.

Workout: Swam 20 laps in the pool before back and biceps at the gym. Then went longboarding.

School: More or less neglected today. Gonna makeup for it though

Food: Drank a ton of beers While its fun being drunk, its not fun having to work off all that junk the next day..gonna go on a long run:rockon:

Goals reached:
Went swimming (finally!) among other things. My longboarding skills are increasing and im failry happy with everything. Life's good

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. the opportunity to go swimming
B. Meeting up with my big brother
C. Chilling and having fun with his friends

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 14, 2012

Me: Woke up with a light hangover and such but it went away fairly soon. Went on a long run wherever my feet took me. I love adventuring around the city like that. Running aimlessly with yourself, your thoughts, and your music is a great way to relax and appreciate the smaller details of the day. Afterwards i studied a lot of chinese with a chick friend from class. she's hb5 but she is an easy person to get a long with and helps me understand that women are more than just sex objects. Then went hunting for parties at Penn but the night was shot.

Girls: saw whorish hb at penn and hugged her before i continued on my way. I wait for very few. More importantly, before we left for penn i was with some friends who were toking on an L in front of the dorms waiting for chicks to accompany them to come out. The chicks never showed for them and i did not enjoy being in the company of the circle smokers. Anyway they finished and a fire drill went on in the dorm in front of us. We chilled and next thing I know hot girl (Joana) from Econ is in front of me. I catch her eye and shoot her the wassup acknologment. She looked nervous. It was here where i knew that i'm in the money. I just did me and acted the same and she slowly made her way next to me. Just before i left i strike a convo with her and have small talk. She was very receptive. We talked about little **** like the econ quiz and such and i really should have grabbed #'s but my AFC friends were not gonna wait for me while i flirt up a dime, so they dipped and i needed to catch up. I need a new MAIN crew with similar levels of self-confidence and motivation but everyone i know so far has failed to have the same life improving goals as i go. I tell everyone how i quit drugs and i display my self improvement thru my actions. Maybe i can inspire my friends to make the leap and transform for the better?

School: Studied Chinese and did some other lil stuff

Hobbies: Ran today, went party hopping.

Workout: My runs are great. Only issue is that i hurt my knee from soccer last week so i think im gonna give my legs a rest. Theyve been nothing but faithful.

Food: Good

Goals Reached:Talked to the hot econ girl. As of this weekend i talked to the two girls from different classes that are smokin in my opinion. Very . Also, my rock climbing date for today was cancelled cuz there girl was going home early for her birthday. not an issue at all. And i FINALLY begin intramural soccer this week.

"Just do it"

Today I'm grateful for:
A. My nice run
B. Being able to talk to Econ girl
C. Getting free alcohol this whole weekend so far.

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 15, 2012

Me: Had lunch with my dad today and spent a large chunk of the day discussing what I was planning to do in the near future. At the hotel where he is staying for business, there was a cute 20 something year old in the elevator. Approaching was the last thing i wanted to do so i cowarded out , my first serious mess up of starting a convo in an elevator so thats bad. However, luck was on my side cuz her and some other older person were going to the same conference as my dad so he opened up to her and in the cab ride over, i talked to her some there. She graduated back in 09 with a degree in econ from villnova. She was very easy to talk to once i got down to it.

Girls: main girl interaction this day^^. Talked to my one friend who i might live with next year, HUGE afc..I'm friends with girls because they have advantages in terms in being wingmen/wingwomen. He's the emotional tampon of a huge group of girls..In fact, im afraid he was scouting for them about me because one of the girls (hb4) was crushing hard on me earlier in this year. Its that bad with him...hopefully i can help/inspire him to realize whats happening and become a man.

Workout: Walked from center city around 12th street(cab got off there and i didnt want to pay. stingy college kid problems) to my dorm.

School: I'm having some major concentration issues right now in my life. I also have a ton of hw this week too so both of these combined are NOT helping me. Im freaking out

Food Ate like a king with my father. Always a plus when family is in town

Goals Reached: simple day but goals wise i didnt do well. if anything, i went backwards. didnt talk to the hot older lady in the elevator and not much else happened.

"Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement." This quote applies to me today


Today I'm grateful for:
A. My dad buying me delicious food
B. My afc friend for letting me stay over as long as i wanted
C. Chelsea FC for beating tottenham

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 16, 2012

Me: Cool day for the most part. Went to English, hot girl said hi. I referenced her when talking to the teach about a project were group leaders on and we talked together at the end with the third group leader. HOWEVER, i am afraid im on the fast track into the friedzone. THIS girl i am not ok with being ljbf.... . I need to become more sexual around her for sure:rockon: Then in chinese, i passed out and drolled on myself. BIG problem hahahahha. I felt horrible because i disrespected the chinese teacher SO much . I dont really care about me embarrasing myself but its ALWAYS good to be on good terms with professors (who knows, maybe if i was a better student he'd write me a reccomendation) and i FVCKING passed out for like an hour in the 6 person classroom..............Then i went to a catering job working 16$ an hour. This part was both cool and not cool.. I got the job from a chick friend who herself got it thru er sorority, and she proceeds to talk about the guys she finds attractive in the frats that work at the same spot. She also talked about her boyfriend problems but i give absolutly no **** about either so i didnt discuss those with her. I know purposely friendzoning yourself can be considered less manly but when ur girl friend whines to you/talks about her romance problems like you give a damn is WAY to emasculating. I'm still a guy, why would you tell me about the frat guys and try to 'point them out to me?'. She wasnt ****testing me, im good on picking those up, she just viewed me like a 'girlfriend' and i do NOT accept that. Maybe you cant just be friends with girls?....Also went on a rock climbing date with Mica (hb7). Dont know what im gonna do with her.Her ass is beyond awesome but she acts like a japanese teenage girl.

Girls:Also cold approached cute hispanic girl at the dining center. I'm gonna start cold approaching more than anything, they are my achilles heel and my biggest fear so far. Friggin strangers man.

Workout: Abs today, not full tho just light. Conditioning them more then working them out. Also did full body workout with the rock climbing

Food: Good at school and then wined and dined at the catering event (although not allowed to ). Ate delicious snacks when no one was looking, and left overs when the event finished. Had a glass of red wine and the gay bartender made me a cosmo (he said he thought i'd like it .....wtf is that supposed to mean?). I think he was hitting on me for being good looking OR he might have thought i was gay too . As a college kid, i couldnt refuse a free drink tho (no matter how girly it was) so i threw it back

School: need to find my motivation.. Put too much stuff off. And prioritize too much on other things.

Goals reached: Got paid 16$ an hour. WHAT UP. Trying to make this job permanent

"If you fell down yesterday, stand up today."

Grateful for:
A. Friend hooking me up with job
B. Free drinks (although they werent my frist choice beverages)
C. Friend paying for the cab both ways

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 17, 2012

Me: I am writing this entry a day late so I do not remember much. First thing of the day was econ and the hot girl i talked to was there but she was on opposite sides. I purposely timed our exits to be exact so I can talk to her but she was with some big indian dude and they were walking away at a quick pace while I was waiting for a friend. I do not know who that Indian guy is but unless I physically see them holding hands/kissing, I will continue my pursuit. Hung out and did homework before IAS class. Dont remember what happened for the rest of the day until night where I went to the gym. I am realizing that writing this journal is very hectic with all these papers flying at me, so I am going to make this easier on myself by combining the Me and Girls categories into one named Field Report, where I stop writing about my whole day and only interactions with girls and the highlights of my day (like going to the gym and kicking ass)

Girls: Noticed I was lacking my confidence when I went to the athletic center to play ball. I went thru the wrong entrance to see when the specific gymnasium would open up and i got great vibes from a cute blonde. She was cool when I went back the right way once the gym was free but it DID take a lot to get me to approach EVEN tho i got good signals from before. Its this damn strangers thing man ..... Its so hard to approach girls i never met before but thats what i know i need to do, ESPECIALLY if i continue not fvcking the girls in my major (who are the ones i mostly know). and the chicks i know in my major really want to drink with me this weekend. I am hoping they have friends around because I am in need of some sort of sexual activity:trouble:

Workout: Shot a basketball around for a bit. Cute blond girl working at the door saw the nasty handle , then did biceps and chest at the gym

Food: No junk. Since this journal began I stopped eating desert and french fries :rockon: :yes:

School: Did work today. Both inclass and out

Goals Reached:
Had issues approaching but I forced myself to. Too afraid to ask number after the decent convo

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

Today I'm grateful for:
A. Being able to have a basketball between my hands again
B. Finding the time to do hw
C. Knowing that I did not have class the next day till 4:00 so i could sleep in

 

[TriniBoySmooth]

April 18, 2012

Field Report: Big failure today. Real big. Atleast I thought it was..I went to the dining center to grab a bite to start my day off and what do i spy but three major hot foreign chicks. Sexy spanish/hispanic girls, JUST my type. Better yet, I approached one of them the other day. And the one I approached had a Barca jersey on.. The outcome was already set if I approached. IF i approached. I had the convo set, the jokes set, EVERYTHING was good for the approach but I felt like a deer in headlight. THESE WOMEN WERE EVERYTHING I FOUND ATTRACTIVE and I basically had my foot in the door. But I couldnt find my inner confidence and strength to do it. I kept hearing in my head 'im scared so this is what i need to do' but i kept heading towards the exit. THEN they put their trays away and headed to the exit too. And i still could not do anything. They passed me on the way out and i STILL could not do anything. To think I have been so successful for the past few weeks, I would not have thought twice about approaching but I felt like I was some dork and they were too good to be true and too good for me.. WTF! I know everyone fails, no one is perfect but atleast I should have approached. Im regretting this one big time. I'm gonna look back to this point in time where I failed to do something with the girls i found stunning and use it as inspiration to never fail at approaching again. Even if its over stupid convo, I AM DOING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Workout: Rest day. Soccer season begans tomorrow. AWWWWWW YEEEEAH!

Food: No crap all good

School: Should be studying econ right now but i am typing this instead. Only some many hours in a day huh? That's called the opportunity cost

Goals Reached:
Soccer starts tomorrow.My tactic is to start it off simple. Play smart and key passes around the field before exploding and utilizing my ball control and skill once I get a feel of the opponent players. For today tho, I failed in my goal to approach girls

“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”

Today I am grateful for:
A. Getting my soccer jersey tomorrow
B. No morning class today so I slept in
C. Not getting b*tched at my the Chinese prof for sleeping during last class:cheer: . Never again

 

[loveshogun]

I had the convo set, the jokes set, EVERYTHING was good for the approach but I felt like a deer in headlight.

When I was younger and more nervous/less confident, having something in my head to talk about (canned lines) used to help a lot, at least to get the conversation started.

But, there's a balance. It sounds to me like the whole time you could have just been talking to the girls, you were thinking of ways you could try to impress them, what to say if they respond a certain way, and all these factors outside of your control.

Sometimes, it's better not to think and just talk. I'm not saying tell a girl to her face that she has some nice titties (but I'm also not saying to NOT do that... sometimes it works... haha), but, you know, just go with it.

For me, canned lines worked best as an opener (when I was younger). After that, you just have to be an interesting person. You seem to have a lot going on, so you should be set on that front. Just stop trying to predict everything because that's what's putting the pressure on you.

I think you froze because you were thinking too much about possibilities, instead of thinking about actions. Don't worry so much, dude. Worst thing that happens is they don't dig you. I doubt you'd fail so spectacularly that they'd talk to every girl on campus about it. And even if you did, whatever. You cool, brotha.