Man'sThirdEye
Don Juan
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This is a very personal story but I want to share it with some guys who might not have realized it.
When I was a kid I was always soft and not very confrontational. I'm still a little soft and I'm still slightly nonconfrontational but not near as bad as I was in my childhood. As a result, I would always keep to myself and comfort those who were just in fights or those who felt bad about themselves or did my best to make my mother feel better when I thought my father wasn't giving her much attention.
As a result, my mother deemed me "the hugger" of the family. She always said how amazing my hugs were and how they made her feel better because I would always give her a hug and ask her how her day was when she came home from her job (She's a school teacher so she would always be home shortly after I got home in the late afternoon). She always encouraged me in this behavior telling me how much of a good guy I was and how amazing of a partner I would become. This and she always sorta flaunted that she was getting hugs from me and not my father. She would always say that I would make a girl really happy one day with my sentimentality and showing that I cared through physical touch and being the one who shows affection and asking how her day was and putting in effort to make sure that she felt like she was special.
When I was a kid, I never understood why my father didn't really show his affection through hugging much or asking my mother how her day was. I became almost cynical of how my father treated my mother and thought almost that my father should've been more of a sentimental lover since that was obviously what my mom wanted and how she felt better about herself. I never understood my father or how he showed his love until I was redpilled. I actually didn't like how my father operated in my family until I was redpilled and that's when I began to understand why he did the things that he did and why he was telling me to seek ou multiple women and why he was telling me to have fun with women while I could, while I was still young and in college.
Now I see more and more that my father was right. Not only was he right, but that was his way of showing me that he loved me. He wanted me to be free from any type of manipulation from a woman. He wanted me to be confident and he wanted me to be a free man while I figured things out.
When my first serious relationship went awry and I had to call my parents and tell them that I felt I had become mentally sick due to my girlfriend being manipulative, deceitful, and a liar, he broke down. He knew what had happened to me. He knew that he had failed as a father to show me the reality that was within the world and the reality of the feminine hypergamy. He thought he failed to protect his son. I think about that every day. But where he failed to convince me I realize it was my own feminization and my own misunderstanding of the world that drove me to choose women who didn't really care about me. I thought I was doing the right thing by being compassionate, loving, touching and showing that I cared by putting all of my effort and time into that person. I was very very wrong, and my latest catastrophe is the one that truly woke me up and sent me down the path of the redpill.
I understand my father now more than I ever have. I follow his advice without fail now and almost without question on my part. He is my inspiration for how I want to function in the future. I am still a recovering AFC, but I have awoken, and I am on my way to making something of myself and being a true redpill.
In this lesson, I learned almost not to trust women and what they say. Sometimes even my mother says things that will set off my alarm bells. That advice she gives me I ignore almost completely, especially if it's against the teachings that I have learned from my father.
My advice, listen to the debate that we have here. Stop listening to the feminized men who tell you what to do. The moralist feminized men don't have your interest in mind. They tell you that because they want you to be powerless like them. They want you on their level because they don't want you succeeding and taking away all their prospects from them, if they even have any. Don't listen to women either. Most of what women say they want is not what they want. My mother and father are a living testament of what a woman really wants and what a man is supposed to provide.
I just wanted to post this to make a point that you can look back and trace the lines of where your conditioning started and how it manifested itself. Don't give into the bull**** anymore. Choose life, choose YOU.
When I was a kid I was always soft and not very confrontational. I'm still a little soft and I'm still slightly nonconfrontational but not near as bad as I was in my childhood. As a result, I would always keep to myself and comfort those who were just in fights or those who felt bad about themselves or did my best to make my mother feel better when I thought my father wasn't giving her much attention.
As a result, my mother deemed me "the hugger" of the family. She always said how amazing my hugs were and how they made her feel better because I would always give her a hug and ask her how her day was when she came home from her job (She's a school teacher so she would always be home shortly after I got home in the late afternoon). She always encouraged me in this behavior telling me how much of a good guy I was and how amazing of a partner I would become. This and she always sorta flaunted that she was getting hugs from me and not my father. She would always say that I would make a girl really happy one day with my sentimentality and showing that I cared through physical touch and being the one who shows affection and asking how her day was and putting in effort to make sure that she felt like she was special.
When I was a kid, I never understood why my father didn't really show his affection through hugging much or asking my mother how her day was. I became almost cynical of how my father treated my mother and thought almost that my father should've been more of a sentimental lover since that was obviously what my mom wanted and how she felt better about herself. I never understood my father or how he showed his love until I was redpilled. I actually didn't like how my father operated in my family until I was redpilled and that's when I began to understand why he did the things that he did and why he was telling me to seek ou multiple women and why he was telling me to have fun with women while I could, while I was still young and in college.
Now I see more and more that my father was right. Not only was he right, but that was his way of showing me that he loved me. He wanted me to be free from any type of manipulation from a woman. He wanted me to be confident and he wanted me to be a free man while I figured things out.
When my first serious relationship went awry and I had to call my parents and tell them that I felt I had become mentally sick due to my girlfriend being manipulative, deceitful, and a liar, he broke down. He knew what had happened to me. He knew that he had failed as a father to show me the reality that was within the world and the reality of the feminine hypergamy. He thought he failed to protect his son. I think about that every day. But where he failed to convince me I realize it was my own feminization and my own misunderstanding of the world that drove me to choose women who didn't really care about me. I thought I was doing the right thing by being compassionate, loving, touching and showing that I cared by putting all of my effort and time into that person. I was very very wrong, and my latest catastrophe is the one that truly woke me up and sent me down the path of the redpill.
I understand my father now more than I ever have. I follow his advice without fail now and almost without question on my part. He is my inspiration for how I want to function in the future. I am still a recovering AFC, but I have awoken, and I am on my way to making something of myself and being a true redpill.
In this lesson, I learned almost not to trust women and what they say. Sometimes even my mother says things that will set off my alarm bells. That advice she gives me I ignore almost completely, especially if it's against the teachings that I have learned from my father.
My advice, listen to the debate that we have here. Stop listening to the feminized men who tell you what to do. The moralist feminized men don't have your interest in mind. They tell you that because they want you to be powerless like them. They want you on their level because they don't want you succeeding and taking away all their prospects from them, if they even have any. Don't listen to women either. Most of what women say they want is not what they want. My mother and father are a living testament of what a woman really wants and what a man is supposed to provide.
I just wanted to post this to make a point that you can look back and trace the lines of where your conditioning started and how it manifested itself. Don't give into the bull**** anymore. Choose life, choose YOU.