The Book of Vagrant

[vagrant]

I believe that we are all here on this website because there are a lot of things in our lives that we would like to change. In a simpler Pook terms, we are here to correct ourselves. This thread, I dedicate to myself and to all of us aspiring DJs....................

There is a thread somewhere around this forum about what was your breaking point to becoming a DJ. While I never added my own reasoning, that very same question was brought back to me at this very moment. Yes, ladies and gentlemen. Today....................

I reached my breaking point.

I turned twenty four last month. I'll never forget it. These past three years that I went through is more than enough for me to say no more. Please...no more.

I am not a virgin for those who are wondering. I got lucky when I was eighteen when I met my very first girlfriend. We had a great relationship that lasted three years. Pook tells the truth that when there is more than one picture of a woman hanging inside a man's heart, you cannot act married. By no means am I saying that I cared about the girl that I cheated my ex girlfriend with. I honestly don't care one bit at all.

Not to get away from the topic here, to make long story short...at the age of twenty one, I have lost what to me is really THE ONE! We can make an argument here that I've never dated anybody so I wouldn't know for sure. All I know is, she gave me everything she had and I gave her everything I had. I'm not going to bore everyone so much with this story. I'm just trying to make a point that this is the type that breaks down a lot of men to the point that some either drinks alcohol for the rest of their lives or they pick up a gun and shoot the girl and whoever she's with and then on to their own precious gift.

I'm glad to say that I have climbed up away from that hole that I had dug myself in...I have a lot of work to do...Today, I begin my first step to towards the life I've always dreamed of....................

 

[vagrant]

"You cannot be yourself without truthfully seeing yourself."

I'm twenty four years old. I've been single for the last three years. I have one good friend that I can hang out with from time to time. I can honestly say that I don't have a lot of friends. I usually go out on my own. While I sound like your typical weirdo I'm actually a cool guy to a lot of people. You can say that I'm depressed, but then again, who wouldn't. Months of constantly thinking about your ex that you actually care about getting f*cked by different guys can do it to just about anyone. Now I can go on and on and on and on about how much my life suck. The truth is my life isn't so bad.

I have a decent paying job. I have a car. I have a motorcycle. I'm a good looking guy. I'm not tall. I'm only 5'6", 5'7" but I don't look short for some reason and most girls I like are somewhere between 5'0", 5'5" anyways. My body isn't perfect but I try to work hard everyday. A lot of girls like me. I know you guys are thinking...what the F is the problem then?

Like a lot of guys out there I spent most of my time alone. I was a loner in high school and I was a loner in college. I was always happy on my own. Skateboarding took most of my time to the point that my social skill level is at a zero. Well, not really...BUT...like everyone else I sh*t my pants every single time I think of approaching a girl.

What bothers me too is that I feel that girls would judge me based on what kind of job I have. I mean, to get a f*ck buddy maybe girls won't care but if she wants to start a family with you...does it become an issue that you're not making a lot of money? That's the weird thing about me too. I feel like I have to be a nurse or a doctor or to be Manny Pacquiao in order to get the girls.

In terms of Manny Pacquiao, I also have that feeling than I'm worthless if I don't become a boxing world champion. I feel that if I don't achieve that dream, I would be a broken man forever....GARRRGH I just want a simple happy life like everyone else.

By the way this thread is open to any member to comment on. I have a lot of knowledge that I will share from my own experiences, stories etc...but please if you think there is something that you can help me with let me know.

I will also be adding all my approaches, dates here etc...So far I've dated only my ex and approached my neighbors dog so basically I'm starting at ground zero.

Actually I approached two girls today. The first one was just a major fail at some small Asian supermarket. I was about to approach the girl when my sweatshirt got caught on a piece of wood by the vegetable aisle and I did some kind of 360 spin around move that just creeped the girl away.

Anyways, that's my current situation right now. A guy who has basically zero friends, you know, lonely, sad and everything else. I'm looking to change all of that in a few days, months, little by little everyday...

 

[IamJosan]

You go bro!

 

[Doctrine Dark]

Good luck on your path of self-improvement, dude. I'm also trying to find a starting point (Inexperienced AFC here) so I can begin improving myself. I'm aware that it's going to take a ton of work to get to where I want to get to, but I'm ready to put in the effort, since doing nothing will get me nothing.

I hope things get better for you.

 

[vagrant]

You go bro!

Thanks bro!

 

[vagrant]

Good luck on your path of self-improvement, dude. I'm also trying to find a starting point (Inexperienced AFC here) so I can begin improving myself. I'm aware that it's going to take a ton of work to get to where I want to get to, but I'm ready to put in the effort, since doing nothing will get me nothing.

I hope things get better for you.

Thank you...

I hope it all goes well with you too!

 

[vagrant]

Wooooow...today was just unbelievable.


I was at work in a hospital and there were two volunteers today. They're there to help if patients are needed to be brought to ulatrasound, ctscan, or to bring urine sample to lab from other medical units etc...

Anyways the other one was a smoking hot Vietnamese. I fell in love as soon as I saw her. I'm talking about those really good looking asian with a really nice as$. Just pure sexy! Her face, absolute 10!

As afc as I was I didn't talk to them. Lucky me though they were there until 8pm. I started my shift 3pm. But yeah, I would see them walking around and they would smile and giggle every time we saw each other. I never made my move. I was starting to hate myself each minute because I really like that Vietnamese chick. I was cursing myself for all the opportunities I had and wasted!

But then, just as I thought this chick was gone forever like the other pretty chicks that I never talked to in the mall, when I went to he break room they were there!

So I had to opened them up!

Vagrant: Break already? (they were just all smiles and giggle).

Both responded how tired they were and how much they did blah blah blah. It was a long conversation about me working there, me doing boxing and how the hot asian girl works at six flags. I asked her to hook me up with free rides blah blah blah. It was all fun conversation and I could tell that the hot Vietnamese chick was kind of into me. And then, I sensed that they were about to leave so I said...

Vagrant: So who over here is single? (they both laughed).
Viet chick: I'm single. (smiling)
Vagrant: Let me get your number so we can hang out sometime.
Viet chick: I don't give out my number to someone I don't know.
Vagrant: Alright, well, my name is Vagrant. ( I extend my hand and she grabbed it while I looked in her eyes like I wanted to f*ck her).
Viet chick: My name is Michelle. (I made that up)

I wasn't taking no for an answer because in a way I felt that she wanted me and at the same time I wanted to eat her pretty lips one day. Even bring her to a hotel or something like D@MN!!!

So I started talking some more and I forgot exactly what we talked about. Then her friends said she had t go. So in my mind I was like F#CK! Do something Vagrant! So I said...

Vagrant: You guys are going? Let me get your number so we can hang out sometime.
Viet chick: I don't give out my number to someone I don't know.
Vagrant: That's why I'm asking for your number so we can hang out and get to know each other more...

It might seem like the interest is not there and I'm forcing her to give me her number but the whole situation was just awesome. It was just all fun and game. She was falling for me just as much as I was falling for her.

I took the pen I had and I asked her to write her number on my hand. She grabbed my hand and she started writing her number while the back of my hand was touching her breast!!! I was like F#CK!!!!!

Then I said it might get erased so I asked her to write her number on a piece of paper towel...

And that was it...

I didn't call or text her yet.

Everything is good except she's 17. I don't know why that bothers me. Maybe it's beause I met my ex when she was 15 and it never worked out. I don't know...

But yeah, I just checked the legal age in my state and it says lower than 16 is illegal so I'm guessing she's all good to go. Man, I'm telling you her P@ssy's going to taste so good! I haven't had sex for 3 years and I watched so many porn and I'm needing sex bad!

Anyways, I haven't called her yet so I don't really know what's up. I guess I won't expect too much...but them, absolutely gorgeous! I love being single. I'm going to approach more girls like her asap!

 

[vagrant]

Ok I checked again...she has to be 18! Grrrr...

Alright who cares. I can't focus on this chick even though she's HOT! There's plenty more out there Vagrant! Focus you're thoughts somewhere else....unite dream and day.

This week I'll focus on boxing. But I'll call her up sometime this week to see if this weekend would be alright. I'm off Saturday until Tuesday. They said intercourse...so eating her p*ssy is probably alright?!?!?!...and getting a bj right?!?!?! I can tell she loves all these things. MAN!, I hope she gave a right number...if she did I know it's on!

 

[vagrant]

Today I was at barnes and noble reading a book. There was this beautiful woman who keeps coming back to the nursing aisle. I swear she was my type but I couldn't seem to force myself to approach.

I kept thinking about Pook's first lesson..."Rejection is better than regret". And that play time is over and that I'm a man now.

My hands were shaking, my heart was beating hard and fast. I felt like throwing up. I told myself I had to do it. I'm tired of being alone and that I needed to keep pushing myself everyday if I want to change. So I pulled the trigger...

Vagrant: Excuse me, are you a student nurse or something?
Chick: Oh no I'm just looking around. I'm with my boyfriend he's just right next aisle.
Vagrant: Oh alright...and I said something how she was being a distraction to me but I guess she didn't hear me.

Man...I didn't expect that at all. I thought she was alone. I thought with her staying at the aisle for a long time was an indication that she wanted to talk to me or something. She was pretty nervous though when I talked to her. I could tell her voice was shaking bad...

Anyways...rejection is better than regret...hehehe what is regret again?!?!?!?!

Yup...tired of regrets. I'm taking over. Thanks pook!

 

[vagrant]

So I called that hot Vietnamese chick today. I texted her first and then when she replied I called her right away.

Everything went smooth except for the fact that I was so busy at work I had to tell her that I would call her back.

I did call her after 10 minutes and she answered right away. It was 9pm and I could tell she was in bed ready to go to sleep.

Another thing was that I couldn't set up a date. I'm off this weekend but she was working. The conversation went pretty awkward because I wasn't prepared for her saying she can't. I told her I'd call her again.

Overall I can tell she has some interest. First of all she gave me her actual phone number. Then she texted me back. She answered my call right away. She even answered my call right away when I told her I was going to call back. She also told me to let her know when I'm available to see if she can hang out. I remember my ex doing the same thing. I had to beg her for us to go out. That was the old me though. I'm not begging this time. I actually have a lot of things to do this weekend.

But yeah, our conversation went pretty well but I just met her so I thought I'd save getting to know each other when we meet in person.

 

[vagrant]

To call or to text...

This is a big debate and I think this debate is right over at the mature section. My opinion from my own experience is to never ever ever text a girl. Of course that is very hard to avoid. But as soon as you let her know that texting isn't your thing, she will understand.

About the Vietnamese chick I told her that I called because texting isn't my thing. And she said, where have I been it's a new technology blah blah blah. But since I'm smooth when I talk and girls love the way I talk, her interest level went up to the sky where texting can only do so much. I could tell she was dreaming I was next to her in bed. Seriously! With that said the ground had been set and she knows I'll call and not text.

Another thing that texting will do too is put you at that spot where she's too comfortable. With texting she feels that you are always available because when she text it doesn't matter if you reply tomorrow or the next day, she knows you have read it and that you will reply sooner or later.

But if you're the type who only talks and not text you can actually keep your mystery going. To her you are not always available because you can try not to pick up the phone when she calls and say you're busy.

Calling is done only when you have time. Texting can be done whenever so you have no excuse not to text or whatever. This puts you at the spot where she can always reach you. That's a big no no.

But if she knows she can only talk to you on the phone when you call or when she calls then there's a lot of time to get away from each other. Plus you can actually tell how much a girl is having fun with you when you guys are talking because you can tell her voice sounds like her panty's all wet already. You can tell how much she's enjoying your jokes. How she's laughing and giggling and how much happy she is to hear your voice.

Talking on the phone is a must for every DJ. In my opinion only guys who have real balls talk on the phone. Most guys who are scared will text. No argument here.

A lot of guys will say, well I text and blah blah blah and my result is this and that. The truth is...number one you have no balls. Number two...she is always on your mind that's why you text her all the time. Even if she was your girlfriend that will still put you in a bad spot. Very bad spot actually because now she's bored of you and she needs a real guy who...number three...has a LIFE other than texting all the time.

Seriously, you don't want to waste your time thinking about when she's going to reply to your long as$ text messages or whatever. Call her. If she likes you she will stop in the middle of her thing messaging a loser on the other end and answer the goddamn phone.

That is the truth. If a woman LOVES you. When you call she'll pick up right away and say...baby I'm in the middle of something I'll call you back right away and she will. If a woman HATES you. When you call and she doesn't pick up. By the end of the day and she never calls back. You gotta admit it man. The truth will set you free.

With that said. CALLING is a DJs way. You are a DJ aren't you?...alriiiiiiiight! :rockon:

 

[vagrant]

A hero and a DJ...

Yesterday I rode my motorcycle 20 miles away from where I live through a very isolated area. The road is awesome, the view and everything. I like to go there because there's a rainbow shape bridge there that is a very peaceful place to hang out at. A real great place to stay and relax and think about your life, past, present, future etc...It's rare that you'll see anyone drive by.

Anyways, I parked my motorcycle and I forgot that the key was still at the ON position. Needless to say after one hour of looking out to the river and watching birds fly...when I got back on the bike to try to start it...no response.

I tried to fix the battery and I lost the bolt holding the negative clamp. I was going nowhere, so I called for a tow truck. I was alone and I wouldn't be able to explain my family where I was. I'm glad the guy knew though.

Anyways the guy came with his tow truck. Got out and asked me what was wrong with the bike. I explained what happened.

He said to tow the motorcycle I would have to pay 110 bucks. He recommended that he jump starts the motorcycle which would only cost 65 bucks.

Since I lost the bolt he took a metal wire and held the negative clamp onto the battery. It took him about 30 minutes to drive all the way to where I was and another 25 minutes to jump start the bike.

When I was ready to pay. Guess what? He said "Don't worry about it."

I was very THANKFUL! For the first time in my life I finally saw what a real hero looks like. At first I felt bad because the way he walks you would judge him as a guy who never finished high school and just ended up working as a tow truck driver. He reminded me a lot of Forrest Gump. But his simple act of kindness almost brought tears to my eyes. He saved me that day and to me he's a hero and a DJ in my book.

After that I went to the mall. When I got there I saw a bunch of thugs chasing each other and just brawling inside the mall. You can see by their faces that some were on crack and some were just plain bored with their lives. Everyone was looking for attention.

And then I remember the guy that helped me jump start my bike. What a different CLASS! He was out there working, helping other people, making money, and living his life.

That day, I was a change man. Now I always look for ways to help other people in need.

I forgot to offer him at least 20 bucks. But the 65 bucks that I was supposed to pay him, I made sure it went to someone in need. So I gave 3 homeless 20 dollars each.

Talk about confidence and living a happy life. It just went up. :yes:

 

[vagrant]

No more masturbating...

I started masturbating at the age of 12. It's funny I'm telling this story but anyways. I was sleeping at our couch and on the couch we had these really nice huge pillows. One day I just came while trying to sleep giving it a hug. I felt like I was being electrically shocked. I loved the feeling and from then on I got addicted to masturbating.

Britney Spears on a bicycle, Ashanti and J Lo's music video. You name it. Then on to Sailormoon X all the way to the real hardcore stuff.

The only time I stopped masturbating was when I would go over to my relative's houses and I had to sleep next to my mom and dad or whatever. Other than that. Man, 12 years non stop.

I never really felt anything bad about it. Aside from falling asleep or feeling like falling asleep afterwards. Even almost got caught naked back when I was 14 years old because I fell asleep. Good thing I heard them coming.

Anyways, I never sleep without masturbating. It became a habit of mine. Every night a new movie. Man those girls are just f*cking awesome. But I want the real thing and this masturbating is not helping!

I feel TIRED as heck when I get up in the morning. Instead of sleeping 8 hours I sometimes sleep 12 hours straight. AND I'M STLL TIRED LIKE A Motherffff!!!!!!

When I go out I see these hot chicks but I have no energy at all to approach. Like today I went to the mall and I saw a lot of hot chicks but thinking of approaching won't even go in my head even if I tried. And I feel that these chicks can somehow sense me. A guy who has no energy, who's probably at the mall only to look for a chick. Aka the desperate guy!

So, today I said you know what, I gotta stop masturbating. It kills me with women and even with boxing it's not helping!

I remember I got that cute Vietnamese's chick number because I was too f#cking horny!!! Not only was she hot but at the same time I felt like I wanted to f#ck. In my head I said, man if I could just f#ck her in the break room without going to jail I would've done it! No question! I was that f#cking turned on!

I want to be at that state again! I feel in that state I have a lot of energy. I play around a lot. Joke around a lot. And girls love it! Above all I go in the garage and fix my car, clean up my room and overall I feel how much I love life specially when the sun is shining real bright and the sky is real blue. Man I just love to ride my bike go to Starbucks and chill.

So starting tonight no more masturbating. I will get a real p*ssy and I will pound it like I just got out of prison and all I had was d*ck all day, everyday!

 

[vagrant]

Always asks for their name, say your name, shake their hands and smile...

THEY F#CKING LOVE IT!!!

I was at the mall. I went inside Tilly's. I saw a shirt that I really like but it was extra large and I was looking for medium. So I went up to the chick that works there. Gorgeous chick man. I love girls with perfect as$. And she was just BEAUTIFUL!

But of course I'm still working on my inner game and for some reason my stupid mind is telling me she's out of my league. Gagh! I'm working on it. Anyways, I approached...

Vagrant: Excuse me. I uh really like this shirt if you can help me find one in medium.
Chick: Oh sure. Is that the 15 dollar ones?
Vagrant: Yeah, I think so...

She went over to where I got the shirt and started looking around. I didn't expect she'd find one because I looked around but she did.

Chick: Here you go.
Vagrant: Wow, you're good. I should have looked around a little harder I guess.
Vagrant: What's your name?
Chick: Stephanie.
Chick: What's your name?
Vagrant: My name's Vagrant.

And then I reached for her hand and I squeezed it and smiled. She couldn't help herself. She loved it!

There's something about kino and smiling and flirting that makes it somehow like you two are having sex but not. This is definitely a DJ weapon trying to attract a chick.

I didn't ask for the number though. It slipped my mind for some reason. I guess subconsciously I was thinking she should have a boyfriend already.

It's alright. I see my mistakes. I'm learning. We'll get there. Hehehe =p

 

[vagrant]

Don't forget to introduce yourself...

I went inside a store. I forgot the name. I went and looked around and I saw two gorgeous chicks. Probably in their 18s or something. I didn't approach because I love masturbating. Yes, for some reason I didn't have the energy to approach. Not only that I wasn't horny enough to start something. When I'm horny girls love it. Why? Pook told you why. Because when I am, I'm very sexual. And only the sexual ones get the girls.

Anyhow as I was about to leave. The chick that works there was standing by the door. For some reason this world is full of good looking women. She's one of em. But yeah anyways, I saw 2 piercings on her cheek bone. First time I've seen one so I pointed that out to her...

Vagrant: Are those piercings on your cheek?
Chick: Yeah they are.
Vagrant: Is it real?
Vagrant: How do they stay on?

She explained how...

Vagrant: That's cool I've never seen anyone with those.
Chick: Oh really? A lot of people are starting to get one now.
Vagrant: You'll probably start getting tattoos' soon huh?

She said she wasn't because you can't erase it if you don't like it anymore blah blah blah.

Then I said I had to go and left. I forgot to asks for her name and introduce myself. Gagh! Gotta make that into a habit!

 

[vagrant]

Don't forget to go for the DIGITS!...

Again, for some reason with those two chicks getting the phone number slipped my mind. BAD HABIT! I need to start getting numbers and setting up dates.

I guess the next thing is to ask if they have a boyfriend? It worked with that Vietnamese chick. When I asked who was single she gladly said she was. Then go for the number? Or just go for the number without asking for her status? I don't know we'll see...I'm glad I'm off tomorrow. I'll clean my room and my car. Then I'll go and practice some more.

If I can just get one number tomorrow I'm sure this will get easier and easier. If I can get one that means if I just do it again I can get another one. And another one and another one!

First thing first. I have to get into the habit of asking for their number. So far I haven't been rejected because I never asked. Time to put our pride and glory to the test. I gotta get rejected. Only those who fail succeeds!

 

[Atom Smasher]

This is the most interesting sh!t I've read on this forum in a while. Keep up the good work.

You might be fearful of closing, hence the forgetfulness. I can tell by the way you write that you're about to handle that, though.

How old are you?

 

[vagrant]

This is the most interesting sh!t I've read on this forum in a while. Keep up the good work.

You might be fearful of closing, hence the forgetfulness. I can tell by the way you write that you're about to handle that, though.

How old are you?

Thank you. I just turned 24. For a minute I thought my life was going to end. I guess it's natural to feel old when you're really not. Then later on when you're 10 years older, you'd think...man I didn't know 24 was YOUNG! All the things I could have done. All the things I've missed!

So right not I'm doing my best to be 10 to 20 years ahead of my time. I think I'm doing a pretty good job regardless of my past. 24 and being with only one chick. But my knowledge is beyond my age. Thanks to sosuave.com!!!

You're right though. I am a little fearful of closing. But, I'm very close though, because now I'm having conversations with women, and getting their number is just a matter of me saying, "Hey what's your number? I'll call you up so we can hang out sometime".

But yeah, I'll keep it up. Thanks!

 

[vagrant]

Never chase women...

Last month I turned 24. That day I swore myself that this year will be the year when girls will be chasing after me. That this year is the year when I'll be f#cking chicks left and right. And that my friend is when my addiction of chasing after women began.

I have to tell you how bad this is for you as a human being.

It wasn't long ago when I was able to chill in the garage and change the oil of my car. It wasn't long ago when I had time to go to the skate park and ride my skateboard for fun. It wasn't long ago when I was able to hang out with my family and relax under the sun. It wasn't long ago when I would actually go to the mall and buy a pair of shoes from Pacsun. It wasn't long ago when I would wake up and do my morning run. It wasn't long ago when...okay I'm going to stop.

Seriously though...I feel like all the time I have, I want to spend looking for a woman. I go to the mall for the sole purpose of finding a woman. I go to Sears, Target, Barnes and Noble, BestBuy, WalMart, and just about everywhere in hope to meet a wonderful woman.

I can't tell you enough how loser I feel like this month for living my life based on getting a g*dang woman!!!!!!

It's weird and stupid in a way that when I go to the mall, I don't even see the shoes, shirts, cellphones, dvds, posters, or whatever is in there that these people are selling! I'm just walking like a dead zombie, looking left and right for some pretty face with a tight body and all that. And the worst thing is...I always get disappointed!!!!!

For some reason when you're looking for women, it's like you wake up and in your a town full of ugly women! It's like a f*cking bad dream. And then when you don't think about them, you see one next to you, and you don't even know sh*t what to do!!!!!

With that said, do not chase after women! I'm not saying don't ever get a girlfriend or anything like that. I'm just saying, go to the mall because you want to buy a brand new ipod. Go to Safeway because you need to buy a gallon of milk, soda and some popcorn or something. And while you're doing your thing, and some cute chick walks pass you, then you apply your DJ skills.

The worst thing you can do is to tell your kids that you met your mom when you were at Walmart looking for some tight as$!

Seriously though, I remember for 3 years women wasn't so much in my mind and I can remember all the opportunities I had that I never even thought of going after. I was just out doing my own thing and they pop out of nowhere and I didn't even care.

Now I have the presence of mind that when I see a girl I like, I will go and approach. But I will never go out again with the hope of getting a girl's number. It's not worth it. It's just not the right mindset to have.

Go about your day. Live your life as a DJ and sooner or later a cute girl will walk by and that's when you go Oooo La La as Pook would say and go after her...

Alright, I think I learned my lesson and I've expressed myself enough on how important this is. Tsk, man...never chase women!!!

 

[vagrant]

I love not masturbating...

Yup! I did it. It took me about 4 hours of twisting and turning, suffocating my head with a pillow and just banging myself against the wall but I finally got some sleep.

It was tough because I was f*cking horny too, but I had to remind my self that all great things started with a single step. I'm just really motivated in turning my life around. To live the life that I want.

I was curious to see the result, because I felt that if I stop masturbating and I'd feel like nothing really happened then I'd be masturbating every single night until they put me in my coffin.

Needless to say though I was happy with the result. I felt stronger. I didn't feel like I needed to get some more sleep or anything. I cleaned my room, bought a brand new skateboard and went for a ride. I love not masturbating!!!!!