Starving for girls?

[Maxtro]

Wow, today was just weired for me. It's just another school day. The girl who I sit next to has started coming in 10-15 minutes late to class every day for the past month so I haven't really been able to her like I used to. She didn't show up to class last Friday. By the time it's 9:45 I know she isn't coming and I fall into a state of depression. The class is boring as hell and all I do is think of her. I'm certain she has no interest in me and yet I have no idea why I felt that way.

Finally math ends and I move on to the next class. There are two girls I talk to there. One I don't really have any interest in and one I would strongly consider doing. Of course the girl that I want doesn't show up. I don't like her that much so I'm only mildly annoyed. She's a drunk so an LTR is out of the question. The fcken teacher lets us out late.

Onward to the next class. I rush over to my next class to try and grab the seat next to the girl that I want. I haven't been able get it for a couple of sessions because some other girl has been taking MY spot next to her. So I rush over and I find out that the class is meeting in the library. I'm no longer in a hurry so I'm walking behind this dude to the library. We get to the room in the library and there she is. There is one empty seat next to her and then the dude fvcking takes it :cuss: :cuss: :cuss: :cuss: :cuss: :cuss: :cuss: :cuss:
If I was walking ahead of him that would have been MY seat, he didn't even talk to her. I'm the only person in class who actually talks to her. The class goes on and on with some stupid learn to use Powerpoint thing and all I can do is glance over at her every now and then. This whole time I am totally pissed. Finally the class ends. I end up walking behind her for 30 seconds to the parking lot but I"m just too pissed to talk to her and I know that there isn't any thing I could really say to her in that limited amount of time. I really wanted to talk to her today. As I'm walking to my car she drives in front of me and waves. On my way home all I wanted to do was go fast. I briefly hit 100 on the freeway.

Now I'm at home and I have no idea why I feel this way. I'm extremely disappointed that I wasn't able to talk to any of the girls I wanted to. But I know that I shouldn't be feeling this way over girls that I only talk to in class. I think I am starving for female attention. Could it be caused the general shortage of girls in my life? I only see girls in class, outside of class I'm generally alone. I've never had a girlfriend and I just haven't really spent any alone time with a girl. Or maybe I have one-itis for two girls, is that possible?

On Saturday I went on a first date with a different girl that I haven't mentioned. I haven't spoken to her since the date and I don't feel like calling because I much rather prefer face to face. I know that I'll most likely run into her at the gym on Tuesday. Now that we've had our date just a couple of days ago it seems awkward for me to call and see her again. I don't like her as much as the other girls. Maybe it's because I haven't known her as long as the other two and she's not as cute but she is definitely doable. A LTR won't be possible because she is moving away in two months. I wonder that if I have sex with her, if my thoughts on the other girls will change. Or maybe I only want to get with her to try and sedate me until I can get at least one of the other girls that I really want. Or maybe I won't be happy until I get both of the girls that I really want. I must sound like I"m insane.

 

[marinetti]

She waved to you on the way out. She's not upset at you. Therefore, every negative emotion you are feeling is 100% your own creation.

Re-frame the entire thing. It's a shame she didn't get to take part in the great, meaningful conversations you guys usually have, isn't it?

Go out tonight, and talk to a girl at a bar, or somewhere.

You: Hi. How are you?
HB: Fine.
You: My day was a little disappointing. I didn't get to sit next to my friend that I usually do in class, and I guess I'm a little bit of a socializer, so it just made me feel a little depressed. But you look like a cool person. In fact, just sitting here next to you is making me feel better. What's your name?
HB: {who is now focused on you and committed to talking} Jessica.
You: Hi, I'm Roger. What was your day like?

 

[Hero]

don't worry about it, since you will see her @ the next class, you have a whole semester to sit next to her and talk to her.

 

[Maxtro]

I know that the emotions I'm feeling are all my own making and that I'll see them again next time. I'm just really confused on why I freaked out so much. I can't really figure out why I want to talk to these girls so much and that when I don't I feel like I got cheated. Ok I think I had a realization. I feel that my whole life I've been cheated out of being with girls. And now that I"m actually interacting with them I feel more at peace or more happy. But when I don't get to talk to them, I feel like those feelings are being kept from me.

I guess it also boils down to the fact that I got "attached" to them. Because I did it so often, it got comfortable talking to them. And now I feel that I'm at the stage where it's time to progress and it's not happening. A part of me is telling me that I should now be hanging out with them and moving towards the path of sex. LOL maybe I need therapy.

 

[st_99]

You might be right in terms of being 26 and never having a girlfriend might be making you feel this way..

BUT, I wouldn't worry about it, the fact that you are making an effort to talk to girls is great! Thats what its all about, communicating.

 

[Analytic]

I know how it is, being 26 and never had a gf either. I'll tell you this though, you're in school, it is a freakin gold mind! don't make the same mistake I did by having oneitits for the girls in your class, I did it and it messed up my grade bad. You should start talking to girls outside of class, join some school clubs also.

 

[Maxtro]

Yeah my age and that I've always been single is a big factor in why I'm so messed up.

I do know that getting oneitis for a girl thats in a class is a very dangerous thing. I have an F on my transcripts because of it, even though I can't remember her name But I'm not even sure it is oneitis this time because I'm after two girls. My problem is that if she is cute, friendly and I talk to her, I will fall for her. I think it comes down to me starving for girls.

The girl that I got angry over is basically my ideal woman. 20, 5'7, long blond hair, great body, really pretty, blue eyes. Physically she is my 10. Then when I look at her personality we are also very similar. We are the only people who talk in class. When we converse the conversation flows so smoothly. Our interests overlap, she likes to work out, surf and hike. There is still a lot I don't know about her. If she wasn't in an LDR I would have asked her out a long time ago. I'm still considering it. My problem is that I'm seeing her as a potential long term girlfriend not a girl I just want to screw, like the others. Well the first girl I mentioned I would like to have as a GF but those feelings are slowly fading because I don't get to talk to her as much as I used to.

I'm in Jr. College so the amount of interesting groups and clubs is very limited. The only girls I can talk to are in class. One thing I just now realized is that I was blinded by anger when I walked into the library and I didn't notice the other cute girls that had empty seats next to them. I was completely focused on my target.

But the most important thing is that I am actually talking to girls. Last year I simply didn't. I've progressed so far and I still have a long way to go.

 

[marinetti]

i think there's such thing as 'twoitis' as well.

a lot of this is inner game work. i think you should work on developing more platonic relationships with women, instead of fixating on just a few.

you're in friend zone territory anyway, so try to change your perception a little bit.

 

[Maxtro]

LOL twoitis. It shall be linked to Maxtro as the source

Most definitely it is all inner game and boy oh boy do I need to work on it. As I said I have progressed but I'm still far from where I want to be.

Platonic relationships with women...

purely spiritual; free from sensual desire, esp. in a relationship between two persons of the opposite sex.

The only way that it is even remotely possible for me is if I already was in a committed relationship, which I obviously am not. Or if the girl repulsed me and the thought of having sex with her disgusted me. But I simply wouldn't even bother even trying to talk to a girl like that. I have had platonic relationships with women and they all ended badly because I wanted to have sex with them and they didn't return the thought. I am always in the friendzone. It's why I've been single my whole life and why I've had to get hookers or go to swingers clubs to get laid. I haven't had real sex yet.

The only thing I can do is keep talking to girls and try and fight to stay out of the friendzone and maybe one day I'll get lucky and find a girl that is attracted to me.

 

[Canadien]

Is this post Deja vu

LOL twoitis. It shall be linked to Maxtro as the source

Most definitely it is all inner game and boy oh boy do I need to work on it. As I said I have progressed but I'm still far from where I want to be.

Platonic relationships with women...

The only way that it is even remotely possible for me is if I already was in a committed relationship, which I obviously am not. Or if the girl repulsed me and the thought of having sex with her disgusted me. But I simply wouldn't even bother even trying to talk to a girl like that. I have had platonic relationships with women and they all ended badly because I wanted to have sex with them and they didn't return the thought. I am always in the friendzone. It's why I've been single my whole life and why I've had to get hookers or go to swingers clubs to get laid. I haven't had real sex yet.

The only thing I can do is keep talking to girls and try and fight to stay out of the friendzone and maybe one day I'll get lucky and find a girl that is attracted to me.

For my life? I can't believe how much resemblance the OP and I share, and to give advice I'd say keep at it, You really deserve a great girl, its bound to go your way, as there are very few guys focused and dedicated as you you are.

Just like you, I'm going through similar hardships, but I've joined 5 different dance lessons from two universities, along with swimming lessons, so I'm able to keep the desperate feelings out, by almost always putting myself out there, however, I still find myself in a similar occurred position when ever I'm by myself, where I start hating and devaluating everything going for me, but I know deep down that I'm finally doing what I ought to have been doing long time ago, and I am no longer resisting change from my part.

I say, pat yourself on your back for the progress you've made so far, and look at the big picture, and how you're changing world around you by taking new more proactive approach to how things should go.