SoSlys Self Improvement Journal
I decided to finally improve myself , and once I found this site I knew it could assist me on my way to self improvement.
So a little info about me. I'm 17 years old, going into my first year of college , and I live in Canada. Im Caucasian , and am a good looking guy although I am very white skin toned.
I am 6 foot 1 and about 170 pounds. For the past year I have been working out , but now its time to get more serious.
I played video games , not to often but I do use the computer in my free time and I will play when Diablo 3 comes out. Im a very athletic guy great at mosts sports and I enjoy playing them ; handball, basketball , soccer, and hockey.
Here is my story up to this point. Through most of elementary school I was fat , I had friends which were both boys and girls , I had my first real crush in grade 7 and that failed miserably , I told her I liked her over msn and she freaked out and didnt really look at me the same and she told everyone in school so it was a weird few months. I still a very social person , had no fear of girls , didnt care what anyone thought. So from grade 5-9 I was the fat kid, I was made fun of a lot , I actually cried once. When I got to highschool, I made friends with a lot of new people once again guys and girls , didnt really have an issue meeting people, but then a lot of them moved away , the next year in grade 9 I was fat and started getting horrible acne , I started being less and less social , made hardly any eye contact with people , my social life went down the drain. Only talking with my good good friends.
This is the year , the crush of my entire highschool career came to the school, HB A. I talked to her a tiny bit before my social downfall , but that was it until near the end of grade 12 , about 6 months ago but that comes later. Anyway , from grade 9 to the end of grade 11 I was literally one of the most anti social kids ever it was horrible , I didnt go out , only time I went out was when I played soccer. My friends invited me to parties , I didnt go of course because I was too scared of girls and meeting new people, those were the worst years of my life as I was fat and had HORRIBLE acne , but in grade 10 I started running a lot and lifting a small amount of weights , and I lost some fat and improved in soccer A LOT , so I tried out for a good team and made it.
Then in grade 11 I went on acne medication , and by the end of grade 11 my acne was gone
, I was no longer fat , so this brought my confidence up , and I finally started to improve my appearance by styling my hair. In the start of grade 12 I was still the same guy , just looked a bit better. In about December I started to really get into mens fashion and trying out new looks , and I started working out a lot , I bought colonge bought lots of great fitting clothes , and completely made over my appearance.
In January I went to literally , my first party , got drunk for my first time and kissed a girl for my first time (made out actually for quite sometime it felt like) she was a HB 7-8 and didnt have much to drink. Obviously my fake confidence assisted me on this. This gave me confidence but not enough to talk to girls that much outside of being drunk. Now back to HB A , exactly a month later from my first kiss , came my second this once again being a drunken kiss , although HB A was drunk. A few months prior to this she had complimented me on how I looked in a leather jacket, and this night while she was drunk she told me I was handsome and asked if I wanted to kiss her, I DIDNT even while I was buzzed , later on in the night on the way home I took her up on her offer and kissed her. The remaining 3 months of school she gave me tons of IOIs complimenting me on my looks , and clothing. BTW she is a HB10 , no questions to it. Hb10 imo. She started talking to me , and I AFCd big time , made no moves , rarely talked to her except facebook and then BOOM. She got a BF , a month went by I talked to her more , actually face to face quite a bit , she still lead me on complimenting me , telling me I had a nice body, I then pulled another AFC move and told her I liked her over facebook, she didnt freak out , didnt say lets just be friends , but she did say she would be with her BF for a long time. We started going on the friends path , she even asked me do you think we would have been good together we both agreed and left it as that , I found out about friendzone and PUA and started to distance contact with her oh and when I was with girls I never kinoed them or moved into sexual talk at all. 3 weeks ago she told me she gets jealous when I say other girls are good looking , I basically ignored it and moved on . She still texts me occasionally and facebooks me but I dont talk longer than 10 minutes. Now I am here, I have stumbled upon DJ and I now realize my mistakes I did with HB A , and now I want to improve myself. So here I am improving myself, I have already started and will improve everyday.
Thank you so much for reading this as it is a lot to take in.
Some of my goals. (I've written down a lot of them , but Ill just write down a few)
1.Socialize with more people (Girls and Guys)
2.Approach more girls
3.Kino a lot more frequently
4.Get A's in College
5.Improving my lifts and physique
6.Go Hiking
7.Take up new things , like golf.
8.Get a new job
9.Pass my drivers test
10.Respect myself and stand for my own views.
How will I complete these?
1. Just go out a lot more , talk to more people , and just be an overall more social person.
2. Go out and do it , simple as that. Ill start out slow , making eye contact saying hi and getting over my AA , then progressing into conversations and finally closing.
3. Kino as much as possible with any girl even family (non sexual of course) just get into the habit a lot more so its second nature.
4. Study hard , focus , and listen well in class.
5. Going to the gym , lifting heavy , and having a clean diet.
6. Go to different areas with my friends or a girl and go hiking , simple.
7. Go out and go golfing , bring my friends along with me
8. Once I do #9 this will follow , driving will give me more freedom and easier transportation, Ill go out apply hopefully something with sports that I can move up in.
9. Study , practice , pass . Simple.
10. Stay strong to my views and ideas , don't agree with people just to please them, go out and be my IMPROVED self.
I decided to finally improve myself , and once I found this site I knew it could assist me on my way to self improvement.
So a little info about me. I'm 17 years old, going into my first year of college , and I live in Canada. Im Caucasian , and am a good looking guy although I am very white skin toned.
I am 6 foot 1 and about 170 pounds. For the past year I have been working out , but now its time to get more serious.
I played video games , not to often but I do use the computer in my free time and I will play when Diablo 3 comes out. Im a very athletic guy great at mosts sports and I enjoy playing them ; handball, basketball , soccer, and hockey.
Here is my story up to this point. Through most of elementary school I was fat , I had friends which were both boys and girls , I had my first real crush in grade 7 and that failed miserably , I told her I liked her over msn and she freaked out and didnt really look at me the same and she told everyone in school so it was a weird few months. I still a very social person , had no fear of girls , didnt care what anyone thought. So from grade 5-9 I was the fat kid, I was made fun of a lot , I actually cried once. When I got to highschool, I made friends with a lot of new people once again guys and girls , didnt really have an issue meeting people, but then a lot of them moved away , the next year in grade 9 I was fat and started getting horrible acne , I started being less and less social , made hardly any eye contact with people , my social life went down the drain. Only talking with my good good friends.
This is the year , the crush of my entire highschool career came to the school, HB A. I talked to her a tiny bit before my social downfall , but that was it until near the end of grade 12 , about 6 months ago but that comes later. Anyway , from grade 9 to the end of grade 11 I was literally one of the most anti social kids ever it was horrible , I didnt go out , only time I went out was when I played soccer. My friends invited me to parties , I didnt go of course because I was too scared of girls and meeting new people, those were the worst years of my life as I was fat and had HORRIBLE acne , but in grade 10 I started running a lot and lifting a small amount of weights , and I lost some fat and improved in soccer A LOT , so I tried out for a good team and made it.
Then in grade 11 I went on acne medication , and by the end of grade 11 my acne was gone
, I was no longer fat , so this brought my confidence up , and I finally started to improve my appearance by styling my hair. In the start of grade 12 I was still the same guy , just looked a bit better. In about December I started to really get into mens fashion and trying out new looks , and I started working out a lot , I bought colonge bought lots of great fitting clothes , and completely made over my appearance.In January I went to literally , my first party , got drunk for my first time and kissed a girl for my first time (made out actually for quite sometime it felt like) she was a HB 7-8 and didnt have much to drink. Obviously my fake confidence assisted me on this. This gave me confidence but not enough to talk to girls that much outside of being drunk. Now back to HB A , exactly a month later from my first kiss , came my second this once again being a drunken kiss , although HB A was drunk. A few months prior to this she had complimented me on how I looked in a leather jacket, and this night while she was drunk she told me I was handsome and asked if I wanted to kiss her, I DIDNT even while I was buzzed , later on in the night on the way home I took her up on her offer and kissed her. The remaining 3 months of school she gave me tons of IOIs complimenting me on my looks , and clothing. BTW she is a HB10 , no questions to it. Hb10 imo. She started talking to me , and I AFCd big time , made no moves , rarely talked to her except facebook and then BOOM. She got a BF , a month went by I talked to her more , actually face to face quite a bit , she still lead me on complimenting me , telling me I had a nice body, I then pulled another AFC move and told her I liked her over facebook, she didnt freak out , didnt say lets just be friends , but she did say she would be with her BF for a long time. We started going on the friends path , she even asked me do you think we would have been good together we both agreed and left it as that , I found out about friendzone and PUA and started to distance contact with her oh and when I was with girls I never kinoed them or moved into sexual talk at all. 3 weeks ago she told me she gets jealous when I say other girls are good looking , I basically ignored it and moved on . She still texts me occasionally and facebooks me but I dont talk longer than 10 minutes. Now I am here, I have stumbled upon DJ and I now realize my mistakes I did with HB A , and now I want to improve myself. So here I am improving myself, I have already started and will improve everyday.
Thank you so much for reading this as it is a lot to take in.
Some of my goals. (I've written down a lot of them , but Ill just write down a few)
1.Socialize with more people (Girls and Guys)
2.Approach more girls
3.Kino a lot more frequently
4.Get A's in College
5.Improving my lifts and physique
6.Go Hiking
7.Take up new things , like golf.
8.Get a new job
9.Pass my drivers test
10.Respect myself and stand for my own views.
How will I complete these?
1. Just go out a lot more , talk to more people , and just be an overall more social person.
2. Go out and do it , simple as that. Ill start out slow , making eye contact saying hi and getting over my AA , then progressing into conversations and finally closing.
3. Kino as much as possible with any girl even family (non sexual of course) just get into the habit a lot more so its second nature.
4. Study hard , focus , and listen well in class.
5. Going to the gym , lifting heavy , and having a clean diet.
6. Go to different areas with my friends or a girl and go hiking , simple.
7. Go out and go golfing , bring my friends along with me
8. Once I do #9 this will follow , driving will give me more freedom and easier transportation, Ill go out apply hopefully something with sports that I can move up in.
9. Study , practice , pass . Simple.
10. Stay strong to my views and ideas , don't agree with people just to please them, go out and be my IMPROVED self.
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