I have reached a point. I dont know what to call it, but tonight was just the last straw. iam sick, mentally, and iam ready to break out of my skin. im ready for a revolution, but i dont have time for people to rip me up and call me out on my wants and needs. heres the deal:
Im pretty sure of myself, confident is what you would call it. im good looking, easy to converse with. girls have been a like a rollercoaster for me since i was young, full of ups and downs. unfortunatley i have caught alot of bad luck in the last 4 years regarding girls and how things worked out. im really sick of everything honestly. i need a girl. no, i WANT a girl as most of you out there will say. i have everything in life that i want, except for a girl. so to me i have this mentality that a girl will complete me. dont try to tell me otherwise because its not worth it.
anyway the girls at my school, well i just overlook them for various reasons. either because their taken, ugly, or been there done that. in high school game doesnt really translate like it does in the real world. in high school you need status, something i dont have. im not gonna waste my time with high school girls because i will be done with them soon. SO that leaves me with my friends from other schools. but they havent been cutting it. they know what i want, and some even say that things will get better. but i think they are a bad influence in terms of girls because they always come up with excuses NOT to approach groups of girls like 1. shes my ex girlfriends friends, which isnt really a legitimate excuse. 2. shes a slut and you wouldnt like that, which is judging me once again. 3. "dude shes too young for me" (cause hes over 18 so its illegal for him 4. dude theres better girls over there, another false statement. 5. dude trust me she has a bf, all stupid excuses. so i really. and this has probably happend 12 times. the worst time was when he had a party and we had to pick these girls up to bring them there. then they ended up leaving the party to go smoke weed with some fags and the girls didnt respond to my facebook message to them.
anyway i have had alot of bad luck, that is true. i cannot focus on the past, im better than that. but im stuck in a rut and its all over me. i dont know what to do, where to go, but i DO know what to say. the opprotunity hasnt found me yet, or maybe i havent found the opprotunity. im at the point now where a girlfriend is too much to ask for, i just need to bust a **** open. and the thing is tomorrow hell be back at it again, calling me trying to get me to come down. and i get optomistic like this will be the time, just keep telling myself things will get better. but i dont know what to do tomorrow
Im pretty sure of myself, confident is what you would call it. im good looking, easy to converse with. girls have been a like a rollercoaster for me since i was young, full of ups and downs. unfortunatley i have caught alot of bad luck in the last 4 years regarding girls and how things worked out. im really sick of everything honestly. i need a girl. no, i WANT a girl as most of you out there will say. i have everything in life that i want, except for a girl. so to me i have this mentality that a girl will complete me. dont try to tell me otherwise because its not worth it.
anyway the girls at my school, well i just overlook them for various reasons. either because their taken, ugly, or been there done that. in high school game doesnt really translate like it does in the real world. in high school you need status, something i dont have. im not gonna waste my time with high school girls because i will be done with them soon. SO that leaves me with my friends from other schools. but they havent been cutting it. they know what i want, and some even say that things will get better. but i think they are a bad influence in terms of girls because they always come up with excuses NOT to approach groups of girls like 1. shes my ex girlfriends friends, which isnt really a legitimate excuse. 2. shes a slut and you wouldnt like that, which is judging me once again. 3. "dude shes too young for me" (cause hes over 18 so its illegal for him 4. dude theres better girls over there, another false statement. 5. dude trust me she has a bf, all stupid excuses. so i really. and this has probably happend 12 times. the worst time was when he had a party and we had to pick these girls up to bring them there. then they ended up leaving the party to go smoke weed with some fags and the girls didnt respond to my facebook message to them.
anyway i have had alot of bad luck, that is true. i cannot focus on the past, im better than that. but im stuck in a rut and its all over me. i dont know what to do, where to go, but i DO know what to say. the opprotunity hasnt found me yet, or maybe i havent found the opprotunity. im at the point now where a girlfriend is too much to ask for, i just need to bust a **** open. and the thing is tomorrow hell be back at it again, calling me trying to get me to come down. and i get optomistic like this will be the time, just keep telling myself things will get better. but i dont know what to do tomorrow
