Mr. Cardio
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Okay guys, let me be real to you guys on here. I am 22 now, but at 17, I came to the lord. I am very connected to him, and he was the one that gave me all of my ideas on acting and sales and everything.
I left God and my devotion to him when I was around 19 or 20, because I had supposed FALLEN in love with this girl at church, and she turned out to not have liked me like that, but really just wanted sex.
I thought that God had done me wrong, so I left my devotion to him and began trying to figure out how to get people and women in particular to like me.
I have never been accepted by any of my peers, well some, but since I want to be in the popular group, they just wasnt good enough I guess.
I began drinking, stealing, sleeping with hookers and *****s, and everything under the sun, there was this voice inside of me that really promoted all this stuff, I believe he is the devil.
While this may sound strange to some people here, I left my devotion to God because of women. I am afraid, that women will not be atrracted to the REAL ME. Not the don juan guy I created, and even he doesnt get the girls I want, anddddd he is a true, real, breathing, don juan...its like the girls are scared of him or whatever.
But, I dunno, if anybody can please help me. I am going back to God, and I am leaving my life of sin, the only problem is, and it was the same last time, I just want some peer friends and some peer girls by my side, and not all older people and everything, which is all I had before. Can anybody give me some advice, I mean, I know its wrong to lust and everything, but, anybody know anything about what I am going through...anybody
I left God and my devotion to him when I was around 19 or 20, because I had supposed FALLEN in love with this girl at church, and she turned out to not have liked me like that, but really just wanted sex.
I thought that God had done me wrong, so I left my devotion to him and began trying to figure out how to get people and women in particular to like me.
I have never been accepted by any of my peers, well some, but since I want to be in the popular group, they just wasnt good enough I guess.
I began drinking, stealing, sleeping with hookers and *****s, and everything under the sun, there was this voice inside of me that really promoted all this stuff, I believe he is the devil.
While this may sound strange to some people here, I left my devotion to God because of women. I am afraid, that women will not be atrracted to the REAL ME. Not the don juan guy I created, and even he doesnt get the girls I want, anddddd he is a true, real, breathing, don juan...its like the girls are scared of him or whatever.
But, I dunno, if anybody can please help me. I am going back to God, and I am leaving my life of sin, the only problem is, and it was the same last time, I just want some peer friends and some peer girls by my side, and not all older people and everything, which is all I had before. Can anybody give me some advice, I mean, I know its wrong to lust and everything, but, anybody know anything about what I am going through...anybody