Smooth Resurrection: Wakeup

[Smooth as Anything]

Wakeup -

I have something to admit... For the longest of times I was delusional. Why was I delusional? The things taught to me by this board. I don't blame you guys, however I think it is my duty to wake you all up.

My confidence exceeded my abilities. It was the hardest thing for me to accept, but it finally hit me. The confidence I possessed (taught to me by this board) exceeded my abilities to attract women...

No, my traits were down. It seemed like I had everything under control, I was blinded by my own confidence. Confidence is a beautiful and horrible thing. I decided to do something after this realization, take months off from being confident. Take time to reflect, acknowledge my problems and begin to self-improve yet again.

In the beginning I was a wee depressed lad who wondered why girl's didn't like him. I was unconfident and unhappy with the way things were going. Now, when I was confident (only months ago) I was happy. I was satisfied with myself; I thought good things were coming. I was confident because I taught myself to be.

Now I am not happy. I am not unhappy, but nor am I happy. I'm stuck in limbo, so to speak. Why am I unconfident and unhappy with myself now?

My physical appearance. Despite an extensive time spent learning the "DJ Method", developing my own practices and thought patterns, I never acknowledged the realistic fact that my physical appearance was undesirable. I was confident and happy with myself, and didn't think negatively -- I didn't ask myself "What's wrong with me?".

So as I said before, I've taken some time off and I'm realizing what’s "wrong with me". It's not as weary as it appears however, because I am improving on it. I take what I am unhappy with and make myself happy with it. Not acceptance, but excellence.

I hope you all realize that being excessively confident can make you very complacent... I don't know how to say this any other way then that.

 

[Oxide]

THIS is what im going through. FVCK. who knew we are still in matrix

 

[Smooth as Anything]

Originally posted by Oxide
THIS is what im going through. FVCK. who knew we are still in matrix

Woah, digging up old posts

 

[Bjon]

Ya, i kinda feel the same way. I don't know though. I think that this is definately something to think about.

 

[Eternal]

Due to the chance of this being deleted due to time, Matrix has requested me to bump this for it to stay in the High School bible. Thank you.