Hello guys. I'm new here and what I am about to describe may disgust you and turn your stomach, so I'm giving you fair warning to back out if you do not want to read this. I'm posting my intro here because I am in my 50's and hope that other older gentlemen with a good heart will accept me.
I am a sissy boy. Not going to lie to you. I've been feminine most of my life and wonder if I even should have been born a male. No I'm not gay, I love women. Ever since I was a little child I had feminine traits about myself. The way I walked, gestured and even talked you would have thought I was a girl. Was always a follower whenever playing with my male friends. They made the decsions and I followed. Did not play with dolls or anything like that, I still played boy stuff, you know all army men, cowboys and indians, cops and robbers. My passive nature was a big henderence in meeting girls or even talking with them for that matter. A very quiet person. Always was teased by girls and boys for being so quiet.
When I was a teen my passive nature increased and all throughout high school I did not have even one girlfriend at all. Yeah I had friends but even they did not want much to do with me since I was so quiet. This is the time when I started really questioning about my gender and if I really was suppose to be a boy or a girl. Grew my hair long at this time and many people would think I was a girl. They would come up to me and say "excuse miss". All through my high school years I was Mr. Nice guy with people I met. Always agreeing with whatever they said. I was brought up to be nice to everyone. There was not a bad bone in me. I even babysat the neighbors kids because I had no social life.
I managed to get through high school and attended college. In college I met one girl and ended up blowing it with her. I was too nice to her and she said we could be friends. During college I kept to myself and only had one other friend who was just as bad off as I was. Took a part-time job in a resturaunt and the waitresses would say that I was such a nice boy. None would go out with me. At this point in my life I felt like killing myself. I had no need to live anymore. Took up running to ease the lonliness and pain I was going through. Was still very nice to everyone and had those feminine traits about me.
When I left college and started working I had to do something about my social life. Took a job with a trucking company and noticed a girl there that I liked. Finally had eneough nerve to talk to her. I asked her out and she told me she was not interested in me that way. Mr. Nice guy does it again. I was in so much emotional pain while working there that I left. Moved to another part of town and took on another job. All this time I was still very quiet and kept to myself. Many times when I would walk home from work people in their cars would laugh at me and whstle because of the way I walked. I was constantly being called gay.
To sum this up I am stil a very quiet man. Was married once and that is because the woman liked submissive, weak men. She found me and we maried. She thought she would be able to change me. That did not happen and we ended up getting divorced. As I was saying I am still a very quiet man, living alone and not saying much to anyone. My neighbors do not even talk to me. I am here becasue I want to better myself and to become a real man. I ask you men that have experience and are older, do I have a chance? I've been nice and a sissy almost all my life, is there any hope in reversing this? I've read the DJ bible countless times and all the other ebooks that are out there. I also work out in the gym but never gain any muscle mass. So my question is, do I remain a sissy boy or is it possible to become an Alpha Male? Thanks. Please be kind in responding
I am a sissy boy. Not going to lie to you. I've been feminine most of my life and wonder if I even should have been born a male. No I'm not gay, I love women. Ever since I was a little child I had feminine traits about myself. The way I walked, gestured and even talked you would have thought I was a girl. Was always a follower whenever playing with my male friends. They made the decsions and I followed. Did not play with dolls or anything like that, I still played boy stuff, you know all army men, cowboys and indians, cops and robbers. My passive nature was a big henderence in meeting girls or even talking with them for that matter. A very quiet person. Always was teased by girls and boys for being so quiet.
When I was a teen my passive nature increased and all throughout high school I did not have even one girlfriend at all. Yeah I had friends but even they did not want much to do with me since I was so quiet. This is the time when I started really questioning about my gender and if I really was suppose to be a boy or a girl. Grew my hair long at this time and many people would think I was a girl. They would come up to me and say "excuse miss". All through my high school years I was Mr. Nice guy with people I met. Always agreeing with whatever they said. I was brought up to be nice to everyone. There was not a bad bone in me. I even babysat the neighbors kids because I had no social life.
I managed to get through high school and attended college. In college I met one girl and ended up blowing it with her. I was too nice to her and she said we could be friends. During college I kept to myself and only had one other friend who was just as bad off as I was. Took a part-time job in a resturaunt and the waitresses would say that I was such a nice boy. None would go out with me. At this point in my life I felt like killing myself. I had no need to live anymore. Took up running to ease the lonliness and pain I was going through. Was still very nice to everyone and had those feminine traits about me.
When I left college and started working I had to do something about my social life. Took a job with a trucking company and noticed a girl there that I liked. Finally had eneough nerve to talk to her. I asked her out and she told me she was not interested in me that way. Mr. Nice guy does it again. I was in so much emotional pain while working there that I left. Moved to another part of town and took on another job. All this time I was still very quiet and kept to myself. Many times when I would walk home from work people in their cars would laugh at me and whstle because of the way I walked. I was constantly being called gay.
To sum this up I am stil a very quiet man. Was married once and that is because the woman liked submissive, weak men. She found me and we maried. She thought she would be able to change me. That did not happen and we ended up getting divorced. As I was saying I am still a very quiet man, living alone and not saying much to anyone. My neighbors do not even talk to me. I am here becasue I want to better myself and to become a real man. I ask you men that have experience and are older, do I have a chance? I've been nice and a sissy almost all my life, is there any hope in reversing this? I've read the DJ bible countless times and all the other ebooks that are out there. I also work out in the gym but never gain any muscle mass. So my question is, do I remain a sissy boy or is it possible to become an Alpha Male? Thanks. Please be kind in responding