I am living abroad for six months , and whilst here, have started seeing (in a mutually consensual f-buddy) way, another English girl. She is 25 and I am 22.
Anyway, to avoid the details, things so far have been quite good- she is certainly a good performer, and I'm having a good time, and certainly not make any use or even reference to the L word.
However, being morally corrupt as I am, I read her diary the other day. I found out that she had been to bed with, but not slept with another guy here a few weeks back, and that her reason for not sleeping with him was me!!! There is a load of nice stuff about me, as well as a few lines to the effect that she though that we were just using one another for some fun, but now that she thinks that she might actually feel something for me. She also make reference to a time when she accidentally called me her boyfriend, which she reckoned in the diary to be a bit freudian. I for the record just pretended not to hear it.
So my question is this- where do I go from here? I can't say I'm overly pleased that she went to bed with another bloke, but all things being equal, its not as though I have ever staked any claim to her, and therefore don't really have much to be annoyed about (ego no doubt). Secondly, do I let this woman fall for me, or do I push her away- there is no way that I am prepared for a relationship- particularly given the fact that we are both going to be leaving the country in a few months to go back home to separate places.
I'm kind of inclined just to enjoy the ride so to speak- we both knew what we were getting into, and if she is going to actually fall for me, then that is her problem. However, I don't intentionally want to hurt her, and so don't really know what to do. Any advice gratefuly received.
Anyway, to avoid the details, things so far have been quite good- she is certainly a good performer, and I'm having a good time, and certainly not make any use or even reference to the L word.
However, being morally corrupt as I am, I read her diary the other day. I found out that she had been to bed with, but not slept with another guy here a few weeks back, and that her reason for not sleeping with him was me!!! There is a load of nice stuff about me, as well as a few lines to the effect that she though that we were just using one another for some fun, but now that she thinks that she might actually feel something for me. She also make reference to a time when she accidentally called me her boyfriend, which she reckoned in the diary to be a bit freudian. I for the record just pretended not to hear it.
So my question is this- where do I go from here? I can't say I'm overly pleased that she went to bed with another bloke, but all things being equal, its not as though I have ever staked any claim to her, and therefore don't really have much to be annoyed about (ego no doubt). Secondly, do I let this woman fall for me, or do I push her away- there is no way that I am prepared for a relationship- particularly given the fact that we are both going to be leaving the country in a few months to go back home to separate places.
I'm kind of inclined just to enjoy the ride so to speak- we both knew what we were getting into, and if she is going to actually fall for me, then that is her problem. However, I don't intentionally want to hurt her, and so don't really know what to do. Any advice gratefuly received.