skinny9892
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I am 21 and she is 20. Well we met in Augusta at a family sweet birthday. Well we dance all night together. It was more just flirting there. Later in the night I found out her age and family relation. She is 3 or 4 cousin. But we keep talking to each other and both decide to be boyfriend and girl friend. Well that time i did not have a car because Car won't turn on. We hung out 5 time's in total but there we full days. We went ice skating then later was the beach and sun was going down. Yep. We just friends but one day for me It just all change from liker her to loving her a lot. Because i did not waiting for what happened. Made out in front of aunt house. And all asudin she sit on top of me and start making out with her. My birthday is September 8 and they left the 7 of September to united states. So i decide to spend time with from 5 of September to the 6. Because the hole week i was busy. Well we keep t talking but it was less and less everyday. Because she has school and a lot to do. Vs me i got university and got practice. On 20 of September i get a text saying i completely lost feelings for you and we can be friends only. So yes i was devastated. I knew i had falling in lover with her since that text. we did not talk until the 7 of October. She seas it was confusing time and now she knows what she wants. We kept talking but it was the same. talk one in away. Then no walk at all for about 2 weeks at all. I decide to talk to her mom. Mom sead She can't have one because If dad found out. he would have a hefer. She is the last daughter in the house. Well I seed i am find with that. And i will wait for her 3 years. A couple days later i get the we got to talk call. She sead your the only distraction in my life at the moment. And I don't know why i was able to pass everything will you we distraction me the hole time that's why i was avoiding you. I just seed I was worried. Well her words after that was I like you but i did not know how to say to you that i don't anymore. Then after that. I was ok because i knew something is going to happen. The hole time since September until the we have to talk call. I had a felling something will happen but my heart was saying stay there and fight and don;t give up. It's bin 2 weeks no talk. Then on Tuesday the 4 of November i sent a text saying i am sorry and you got a cousin 24/7 and if something bad happens My house door will be open for you. Then i get a text saying Hi. That's when all the feelings I have for her comes back. But after that no talk. I got to respect her wish because she told me she does not want a boy friend yet. Because she want's to considerate on her study's. And me i really lover her. I bin trying to forget about her ,but i can't at all. I know by the last text she want's to keep talking to me because what i seed in the text. I have no Idea what to do. I know i have to keep it as friend and cousin only, but the hole entire time since September 20 is telling me wait. After all this it's still telling me to wait for her. Help!!! also i we will be seeing each other agian for February because she is going to celebrate her 21 birthday in Puerto rico. Then we started speaking again then it was the same thing again. then i get a text. after that there was almost no talk and then around I send a text saying happy thanksgiving and i get bad 4 days alter hey looser. Yea. Then 2 days later i get on my Facebook and decide to look at her face, and that when i see status update, in relationship. so ye. Finally on the 13 of January i get a video saying he, at work, you know you want it and it has her and her coworker in it. I have been getting better but in the morning or at night since December 5 i can't stop thinking about her. But i have notice it has been getting less. What do you understand. She just wants to use me as a puppet or she just plain board, or just want's to keep me interested or she still does but does not want to admit it?
