You have made this SOOO much harder than it needs to be. She was as you say 'practically raping you' while there were other couples around making out. I've got to say dude that this is probably one of the EASIEST positions in existence with which to get with a girl.
You completely ballsed it up that night, there is absolutely no questioning that.
Good identification of the RED FLAGS, this means you are learning and you responded with the right sort of action 'treat her mean keep her keen'. Whether your implementation of this strategy was appropriate I'm not so sure. Online chatting can easily lead to miscomminications and misinterpretations and you may have overshot the mark her.
Whatever happens from here, you make efforts to attract her and she accepts or rejects you the important thing is you realise IF YOU DON'T SEIZE YOUR OPPORTUNITY WITH A GIRL YOU WILL NEED TO DO AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF WORK TO CAPTURE ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY.
Eminem said it best "If you had, one shot, one opportunity, would you capture it? or would you let it slip away?"
Let the pain of missing an obvious chance with a girl and the subsequent rejects serve to remind you of how important it is to HAVE THE BALLS to be a man and kiss her or whatever the situation requires.
I missed a kiss-close with a girl once and it cost me months and months of pure heartbreak, so now, I know if I get a chance with a girl I am BLOODY WELL taking it because I know when I go home no matter how many times I replay the situation in my head I can't change my actions.
You completely ballsed it up that night, there is absolutely no questioning that.
Good identification of the RED FLAGS, this means you are learning and you responded with the right sort of action 'treat her mean keep her keen'. Whether your implementation of this strategy was appropriate I'm not so sure. Online chatting can easily lead to miscomminications and misinterpretations and you may have overshot the mark her.
Whatever happens from here, you make efforts to attract her and she accepts or rejects you the important thing is you realise IF YOU DON'T SEIZE YOUR OPPORTUNITY WITH A GIRL YOU WILL NEED TO DO AN IMMENSE AMOUNT OF WORK TO CAPTURE ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY.
Eminem said it best "If you had, one shot, one opportunity, would you capture it? or would you let it slip away?"
Let the pain of missing an obvious chance with a girl and the subsequent rejects serve to remind you of how important it is to HAVE THE BALLS to be a man and kiss her or whatever the situation requires.
I missed a kiss-close with a girl once and it cost me months and months of pure heartbreak, so now, I know if I get a chance with a girl I am BLOODY WELL taking it because I know when I go home no matter how many times I replay the situation in my head I can't change my actions.