I've gotten into the DJ mindset a few times (mostly unconsciously, I didn't know about this site until a year and a half ago) and had some success, but I've been an AFC most of my life. I've slept with about 25 women at age 31, by no means a huge number but still, my point is that I am not completely clueless...
Yesterday right before falling asleep I started thinking and realized one fact: there's only been ONE girl with whom I actually wanted to stay in bed with me after sex, kiss and cuddle with. She was not that special, I know... There are millions like her, I get it.
I have to be happy with myself, only I matter! and women are just a plus (when they're not being c*unts), I understand this. I have a masters degree in Engineering, speak 3 languages, I am no millionaire but I have a good salary, a nice apartment, I like my life. Will a woman make it complete and make me feel like nothing is missing? Probably not, but damn it I can't deny it felt so good finally sharing that bed with someone whom you actually wanted to be there!
Through this site I've gotten very solid advice about dealing with a break up, but this is not about that anymore. Plenty of other girls will come my way, but thanks to my personality and perhaps unrealistic expectations I might never want to share the bed with anyone again... Will I ever get this thought out of my head?
Yesterday right before falling asleep I started thinking and realized one fact: there's only been ONE girl with whom I actually wanted to stay in bed with me after sex, kiss and cuddle with. She was not that special, I know... There are millions like her, I get it.
I have to be happy with myself, only I matter! and women are just a plus (when they're not being c*unts), I understand this. I have a masters degree in Engineering, speak 3 languages, I am no millionaire but I have a good salary, a nice apartment, I like my life. Will a woman make it complete and make me feel like nothing is missing? Probably not, but damn it I can't deny it felt so good finally sharing that bed with someone whom you actually wanted to be there!
Through this site I've gotten very solid advice about dealing with a break up, but this is not about that anymore. Plenty of other girls will come my way, but thanks to my personality and perhaps unrealistic expectations I might never want to share the bed with anyone again... Will I ever get this thought out of my head?
