Wys...
Remeber that the english version of what I say come out a little different than my in my native language. The tone of the "love at first sight" statement as you call it was not that but instead. "Hey, I did find out something good about you... I am just checking if that is true... if not then too bad... if yes, then we can talk." As in she must prove herself. It's really hard to translate that part into good english. We use entirely different wordings and sentence structure.
I did however fvck up with that conversation. I find it hard to connect when there is very loud music and very much competition and the pick-up atmosphere. So I say the wrong things, I was probably stressed and a little unedged because of my friends comments the past hours. Valuable lesson to learn every time I do this.
There is nothing wrong with my self confidence, you are wrong there. I feel my limitation, and my looks keep my success down. You can't play Unreal tournament on a 286 because it is not good enough for that. You must upgrade, and that's what I'm gonna do. I will not play a role where I say I am beautiful, because I am not, and I will not cover up something I am disappointed at with a lie.
Take my seat for a moment, I know you have some weak spot, we all do... how would you feel if someone just kept hiting that spot, time after time after time... At some times you are gonna feel blue, and that's what I did yesterday. It has nothing to do with self esteem or self confidence but instead of human psyche. When people rack down on my looks the past come haunting back into my mind. So it's techniqualy not the rejection that bring me down. It's just that some of these might fire off very strong emotionall anqour.
Pecker...
That is true and I'm on that. Tomorrow I will get my ass to the gym and try the skinny guy stuff, and then start to look for people who are similar to me. These are hard to find, my personality is very unique I am afraid.
DJZ
Ohh yea... that seems alot of fun... I would really like to try it, alone it is not fun and my friends are chickens... I have however done stuff like this before, I am cold when I approach, no fear at all. Did one night where I got rejected over 40 times at one night, and heck I didn't care. Stuff like that are no problem, I have no fear, I don't give a ****... I am just not compatible to the bar environment I have found out.
L|feForc£
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"Here you would most likely find a lot of very insightful quotes"
Remeber that the english version of what I say come out a little different than my in my native language. The tone of the "love at first sight" statement as you call it was not that but instead. "Hey, I did find out something good about you... I am just checking if that is true... if not then too bad... if yes, then we can talk." As in she must prove herself. It's really hard to translate that part into good english. We use entirely different wordings and sentence structure.
I did however fvck up with that conversation. I find it hard to connect when there is very loud music and very much competition and the pick-up atmosphere. So I say the wrong things, I was probably stressed and a little unedged because of my friends comments the past hours. Valuable lesson to learn every time I do this.
There is nothing wrong with my self confidence, you are wrong there. I feel my limitation, and my looks keep my success down. You can't play Unreal tournament on a 286 because it is not good enough for that. You must upgrade, and that's what I'm gonna do. I will not play a role where I say I am beautiful, because I am not, and I will not cover up something I am disappointed at with a lie.
Take my seat for a moment, I know you have some weak spot, we all do... how would you feel if someone just kept hiting that spot, time after time after time... At some times you are gonna feel blue, and that's what I did yesterday. It has nothing to do with self esteem or self confidence but instead of human psyche. When people rack down on my looks the past come haunting back into my mind. So it's techniqualy not the rejection that bring me down. It's just that some of these might fire off very strong emotionall anqour.
Pecker...
That is true and I'm on that. Tomorrow I will get my ass to the gym and try the skinny guy stuff, and then start to look for people who are similar to me. These are hard to find, my personality is very unique I am afraid.
DJZ
Ohh yea... that seems alot of fun... I would really like to try it, alone it is not fun and my friends are chickens... I have however done stuff like this before, I am cold when I approach, no fear at all. Did one night where I got rejected over 40 times at one night, and heck I didn't care. Stuff like that are no problem, I have no fear, I don't give a ****... I am just not compatible to the bar environment I have found out.
L|feForc£
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"Here you would most likely find a lot of very insightful quotes"
