Self Relfection - TMM

[TheManMasenko]

I wake up, again and again. I wake up...walking in circles. I know to talk to girls I found attractive, I don't. I know I need to put action, I don't. I'm upset at myself and the situation. I lost multiple girlfriends for being too needy. I lost multiple women from excessive lying. I expect things to be easy and go my way. I want things to be easy and go my way. They do. Sometimes.

Though I see easy comes, easy goes.

My soul is crying to my heart to be as brave as it can be. I'm currently 21 years old and single. I feel ashamed of myself, I've been here too many times. I feel guilty for downplaying my desires. I don't want to regret this when I'm an old man. I don't want to miss opportunities because of my own lack of self-love. How can I be a man If I don't express my desire for women? How? How? How? How?

I lost too many due to this. I'm shameful.

I can choose not to care, I can choose to cross the line. Maybe, I'm overthinking when I should just be approaching (ding ding ding). My thoughts are choking please me, I don't need help. This is my battle. Go away.

 

[TheManMasenko]

This is just a deep thought I was writing. I didn't want to delete it so I posted it. I'm good. But you can see how I think when I dig deep into my thoughts with women/relationships.

Edit: This **** is kinda cringy lmao

 

[member160292]

It’s good OP, sometimes you need an outlet. You’re young and if you to get anything off the chest, share away.
Just minimize the thread creation please.