Blacksheep
Master Don Juan
Get the idea that your parents never loved you. Living alone, cannot trust most of people.
Walking alone and the fear of failure.
The worst is the idealization that I wanted to be loved by my parents. The guilty I feel sometimes, the desire to turn all that off... It's hard guys.
Some know my story, some don't.
Sometimes I have some peace... But in the end I would like to feel loved in any way by someone sometimes. This is a needy thing by living with abusive parents.
In some ways, I wished to go to military and die somewhere really far away from here.
Sorry for spreading those words... It's not positive, but thats really a bad day for me. Just wanted to put this outside.
It's being hard, I'm trying to be strong... But that road is hard.
Walking alone and the fear of failure.
The worst is the idealization that I wanted to be loved by my parents. The guilty I feel sometimes, the desire to turn all that off... It's hard guys.
Some know my story, some don't.
Sometimes I have some peace... But in the end I would like to feel loved in any way by someone sometimes. This is a needy thing by living with abusive parents.
In some ways, I wished to go to military and die somewhere really far away from here.
Sorry for spreading those words... It's not positive, but thats really a bad day for me. Just wanted to put this outside.
It's being hard, I'm trying to be strong... But that road is hard.