Recovering JERK

[Hellboy]

Hey guys,

I've been reading a lot of stuff on this site recently and realising how stupid I've been. I'm amazed at all the stories of how hard it is to find a nice, attractive, intelligent girl. Everyone here seems to have been burned, lied to cheaten on or generally treated like shyt at some point in their lives. And I kinda wish I was in that situation. At least you guys have comfort in the fact that you're not to blame for the outcome.

I have had the opposite experience. All the girls I have been involved with (3 in particular) have been the most amazing, devoted, smart, ambitious, beautiful, honest, loyal sexy women I could imagine being with. But when I'm with them I totally lose sight of that and drag them through the mud until they let go. I am so angry at myself it's unreal. I have basically broken each girl's heart in turn until they just can't take it any more and I have destroyed any love they had for me.

I would like to point out that I am not physically abusive, and am generally very loving and caring in all departments except fidelity. I can't seem to control myself. Kinda starting to realise I have cronic self-esteem issues and am addicted to the kick of pulling a new girl. When I'm with a relationship I always think "But what if it's not for me? What if there's a better girl out there?" And then I systematically destroy the relationship.

Afterwards when I find myself alone I profile exactly what I'm looking for and think: "****. I already had it. And now I've lost it." To make matters worse my friends took the side of the last girl and one of my best friends is now IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER.

I'm pretty much fyking alone now. Let this be a lesson to you all. I'm 25 and aint getting younger.

 

[dearsappho]

You now have the bonus of a fresh start...happy days!

 

[Hellboy]

I guess that is one way of looking at it.

I just can't help thinking that girls of that calibre aren't that easy to find, and how STUPID it was not to appreciate what I had when I had it. I don't want to settle for less. But what if I can't find it again? And worse, what if I blow it once I do?

What I'm feeling just now can only be described as terror.

 

[Royal Elite]

Originally posted by Hellboy
I guess that is one way of looking at it.

I just can't help thinking that girls of that calibre aren't that easy to find, and how STUPID it was not to appreciate what I had when I had it. I don't want to settle for less. But what if I can't find it again? And worse, what if I blow it once I do?

What I'm feeling just now can only be described as terror.

Homey there are 6 billion people on this planet, which makes it roughly about 2 billion available women in the world. Lets say at least 1 billion are worth getting. Dont worry there are plenty more where those 3 came from.

 

[Bussey]

Originally posted by Royal Elite
Homey there are 6 billion people on this planet, which makes it roughly about 2 billion available women in the world. Lets say at least 1 billion are worth getting. Dont worry there are plenty more where those 3 came from.

I don't like your math...

6 Billion People
roughly 3 Billion Women
1 Billion married/involved

2 Billion Free... BUT if hes 25, he likely wants someone between 19 and 30... so that leaves 500 M.
Then on a scale of 1-10, the higher you get, the less their are.

SOOOO theres roughly 100 Million girls worth dating that are over 7's....

Sorry... just ahd a math exam....