Progress Diary

[Blue Dude]

13.05.06 - Saturday, 21:05 - Day 1

This is a daily/weekly/monthly/whatever diary I'll be holding updated on my progress to becoming a DJ. I wouldn't describe my self as AFC cuz I'm over that point. So I am something like DJIM. Don Juan In Making

A bit of history of what I have been thru.
- I have had oneities for my bestfriend for like 1 year or something. Dont remember.
- Then I have had this fet ugly chick as a fcuk buddy for a month or two in the following summer.
- Then after that I got my first GF.
- I dumpt my GF after 8-9 months and then found this site.
- Started practicing this shait on girls and got me self another girl. (hot hot)
- Then after 8-9 months again I dumped her cuz I wantet to complete conversion from AFC TO DJ! Becouse I fell like I am somewhere in the middle atm.
- Now a week after I dumped her I am back here and ready to put shait into practice.

Before I start. I want to appologise for all the spelling mistakes I make since I am from Norway, Oslo and my english is not that fcuking good

So, lets get it on:
Last night I got out to my regular pub. Played a bit pool and so cute chick sitting at the bar. So I go over there to buy beer and started talking to her.
Now I don't remeber entire conversation but I was proud of my self how I handled it and she seemed to be into me. The only thing I regrett was the end. As I was finished talking I stood up and hold up my glass in like "cheers" way. So she did the cheers thingy and I went back to pool. I could probably me better of without it. But it didnt bother me that much.
But when I came back I started thinking what I could have done better and I analysed whole situation and came to conclusion that I am a d|ck! why? whell, I had a cute chick sitting next to me, having good conversation, fluent, she was laughing and having a good time. And what do I do when I am on top? I walk away. So mental note for next time would be "DONT GO AWAY WHY YOU ARE TALKING TO A CHICK THAT IS INTO YOU"!!
I dont know why am I doing that. I belive I have done the same thing before. Perhaps becouse I dont want it to end bad.

Anyways, I met some friends at the pub and we went downtown to pick up some chicks. I talked to some girls, but it was nothing. No big conversations. No nothing. But then in the last club we ware in, 2 cute chicks sat next to us and I started talking to them. They seemed very open and villing to sociolize. I dont know why but I wasnt in that good mood. I tried my best but it was all superficial. It was like, so what are you doing here?, been here before?, what do you like?, do you like the music? and that shait. To make short story shorter, after a while they got up and started dancing and I was thinking, should I join them? and decided not to. And as soon as song was over they vare gone. Got a bit sad about that one. I think on a better day, I'd be making out with one of them. So night ended and I ended home alone.

Day after (today), I woke up and wached some David DeAngelo seminar DVD's. I got realy mentaly set to meet chicks and to get week 1 and 2 of OceanWindRiders's BC done but shait didn't go as planed. As soon as I dresses and got out of my building there was this cute chick sitting on the wall and waiting for somebody or something and as I was walking by I was like "say hi say hi say hi" and as I walked past her I was like "damn I'm a loser". Right then and there I relized that I wouldnt get those 50 hi and 15 conversations needed to complete week 1 and 2. So I gave up.

I went next to my mother and she lives outside of the city. So I ate good pizza and on my way back at a buss stop there was this cute chick standing and waiting. So I was like "you" and she turn around and I asked her about what time it it. As soon as she told me a car pulled by, she sat in and was gone. A minut after that another even cuteer chick came to the bus stop and again I was like "hei" but this time I made a small pause. So she says "hei" back and gives me a smile. I smile back wait a sec and asked her what time it is. She ansvers and smiles again and I say "thanks".
We wait, buss comes and I go in first. Bus is empty so I sit realativly long back. She comes in the buss, pays and sits in seat in front of me on the opposite side. But just before she sits down, she gives me a smile again. So there we sit and all I was thinking was "say something stupid". But I don't say anything and the 5 min buss ride ends and we both go off. But just as we are to get off she again gives me a smile. Anyway, she gets in another buss and I walk away.
I should have talked to her, but I chickend out. And she seemed to like me. And I KNOW I liked her

Now I sit here write this shait. I have printed out "Wapons Of Mass Seduction" so now i'll be of to my place for some reading before I get out again tonite. I have decided that I will punish my self for not saying enough hi's and not making a conversations with the last girl, by denying my self to play pool or to drink tonite. Not drinking I think will be good for me cuz I need practice in talking to woman sober. Pool I allmost can't live without so that part will be hard :cuss:

Blue

 

[Blue Dude]

13.05.06 - Sunday, 16:45 - Day 2

Last night was a bummer! The very first thing I did last night was to buy a beer and play some pool. I just ain't good at punishing my self. Anyway, night started kinda slow. Nothing happend, then there came alot of chicks with whom I never spoke to. There was this one tho. But I knew her from way back. We played pool twice, and I won both times and after that we played on the same team twice and won both time. We had some good convo going but nothing more than that. I was beating my self for that one last night cuz she was very friendly and open for thing. I could have maybe tried some stuff on her but I never got that far. Maybe i'll see her again som time. Anyway, she was cute. I'd bang her if I had the chance

Half hour ago, while I was sitting here in the comp lab, this hot hot asian chick sat 2-3 pc's away from me. Damn she was hot! Yea, you know I didn't do anything. But you know I wanted to!

 

[Blue Dude]

17.05.06 - Wedensday, 16:45 - Day 6

Today is national day in Norway or something like that so most people don't work and are haveing a huge fcking party. Literaly. But not me, I had to work. It dosent pay of working in the kitchen. Anyways I didnt come here to talk about that but about last night.

It got so that on Monday I was surfing the net and came upon profile of this chick that I have been asking for like a year ago to come out with me but she didn't want to. So suddenly there she was and I asked her on the spot to chat with me on MSN. So we did and I was in a very good mood so the fist thing I ask is to get togather again. Now you must understand that all I wanted is to talk to her, cuz I belived there was no way this chick would meet me after all the rejection from last time. Anyways, she told me that on Tuesday she would go out with some friends and I instantly gave her my digits and told her to call me when she gets out. Another thing you must understand is that I was feeling very powerfull and full of confidence while talking to her on MSN. Useing shait like "Type Faster!" and "You brain stoped working" from David DeAngelos tips. Shait worked better than I expected. Anyways, I was certain she would call, and she did. But she called me way early and I told her to go back to partying and drinking and call me some hours after that. So she did as I told her and I went to meet her at this place called "red card". Very young public kinda place.

I don't know why but I was feeling in an exeptionaly good mood. I was smilyling and shait for no reason. Before I went over there I was in my regular pub (Blue Monk) and played some pool. I was feeling like a million dollars. And the BEST PART of it. I wasn't drinking. I was heving Cola whole night. So when I came there I met up with her and she looked.. ehm.. promising :yes: I met some of her frinds and we talked and danced a bit and made out a bit but she didn't go home with me cuz her friends starting haveing this big argue about some dude giving one of her friends more attantion then the other one and the other one had a cruch on her. Annoying situation. I would liked to spank that trouble maker! grrr :trouble:
So in the end, some of her frinds left and she told me that she would go with some other friends and I went out thinking she is right behind me and we could walk a street or two togather since we are going in the same direction but when I came out she didn't follow. So after about 30 sec I get back and she is sitting and still drinking, so I sat next to her and asked her if she is gonna go, and she is like "as soon as I finish my drink". So I told her "ok, see you some other time", gave her a hug and got out of there.

A good part of the evning I was proud of my self. I was proud becouse I wasn't drinking whole night and becouse I was able to keep such a good mood for so long time. I was proud of how I interacted with the chick and how I make some of my moves. But what I wasn't proud of is that often I would go empty for the conversations topics. I allways thought I could talk day and night with someone, but this was eye-opener. So I know I need to pratice my conversation skills a bit more. Shait her az looked mighty good there and then! :woo:

I want to see her again. See that little az of hers. And tap it! So I am most certanly gonna send her a text messange saying something like "come to blue monk. I need entertainment" :rock:
Yea, I know that I souldn't message her, and let her take the first contact with me, but I am kinda feeling so horny Hahaha, yea seriusly Anyways, as Devid DeAngelo says, "Attraction is not a choice". So if she is attracted to me, she will be even if I scru up a few times. Now I just hope she realy IS attracted to me...

Dude

 

[Blue Dude]

20.05.06 - Saturday, 18:30 - Day 9

Shait goes slow. Last night I was out and once I came to my pub, I acted like rambo. I was full of confidence and shait. So I get in there and see few people I know, so at once I go and saying hello and shait and this one dude I have known for some time, I called him "handsome". Cuz he allways talks like he the shait. So everytime I see him, I'm like "Hello there handsome!". Anyway, there ware these girls sitting and plying pool and one of them in particular cought my attension. And at once I entered the pool area I got a look from her and I gave her a look back and smiley and kinda looked at her several times, and she noticed me vell. So I put a chip on the pool table and lean agains the wall waiting for my turn and chick come over and is about to ask me something when i interupted her sayin:

me: "are you playing?"
her: "yea"
me: "with that dude?"
her: "no with that one"

And there it stoped. She went on playing and I was still chilling and watching how she played why I waited for my turn at the other table. So once she is finished she comes over again and ask's me, "are you homoseksual?" And I am thinking like, what? So I say "yea, thats right" in a ironic way, with the biggest smile on my face and just walkes away from her to the other side of the room. A bit later she and her friends went but before that time she was still giving me looks and shait.

So, to wrap up, I come, play it cool, get a chick to come over to me, and what do I do? Fcuk it up. How? By walking away! I KNOW why she asked me that. Becouse I was calling my friend handsome, and only reason beside that was to get a conversation going with me, but I was playing it maybe Too Cool, and wanted to apear superior and walked away. Like "no way is some chick looking at me as some homo and gets away with it". On one side, I'm glad that I walked away, cuz I prove to my self every time that I can walk away no mater what a chick looks like, but on the other side, I didn't get no az from her so... bummer. But there are lots of girls. I can still walk away from a million girls and there will still be a million girls waiting to offer me some az.

Today is saturday, so this happend last night, but night before that, on thursday I was at the same pud and there was this DAMN cute chick playing pool with a friend of hers. Now, she had extremely Cute face, and had only somekinda west over her bra so her tits ware for display for everyone. Dont wanna say nothing about her black jeans and black snikers. Anyway, I liked her az and I started staring at her from second ONE! And she gave me looks back whole night! But not once did I approach to speak to her. Later on, came her boyfriend and STILL she ware giving me those looks and allways flashing her body and moving towards me. So night goes on and we end up playing togather but still no fcking words are comeing out of my mouth! Needless to say, I went home alone, once again!

Today I will try to do a bit of experiment. I have stopped drinking week or two ago becouse I relized that approaching girls in drunk-state dosen't make you any better at approaching woman when you are not drunk. So I told my self I would drink no more and try to mack on girls that way. Today, beside not driking I will have several things in my mind that i HOPE will loosen me up a bit and get me past that anxiaty about approaching girls. First, I'll try to remember the quote; "Courage is not lack of fear, it is acting in spite of it." ~ Mark Twain. This quote hits some of my most basic insticts and I get all fired up. Next thing I will try to concetrate about is, when I see a girl i wanna approach, my initial agenda, or whatever you wanna call it will be; "I am just going over there to find out how big her intrest level in me is". That way I will not be thinking "oh, I have to get laid" or "damn, why does she not smilying" or whatever. So those two are the two basic things I will try doing tonight. And see how far I go. Yea, i'll do one more thing before I go out. I will shine my shoes. Yea, mothafcker! Shine em! I have white snickers that are all dirty and shait and look more brown then white, but later I will shine em soooo goooood. Anyways, everything helps.


Dude

 

[Blackdragon5095]

Good luck man

 

[Blue Dude]

21.05.06 - Sunday, 13:28 - Day 10

Last night. Yea. Last night. damn. Last night. Shait. It's allways last night ffs! Fist of all, NOT drinking has it's good sides and bad sided. Good are; you dont need to go pee every 5 min, you can play better pool, and if you are lucky to talk to chicks you can realy think about what you are saying. Bad sides are; when you don't drink, it's a lot harder to approach ladies. and.. yea.. thats it :rock:

Anyways, again, last night, I got to my regular pub, played some pool and somewhere in the night I get to bar and sit my az down and look around. And what do I see? A good looking chick on the other end giving me the looks and smiles. So I give back and we have a nice time giving each other smiles. To make long story short, insted of walking to talk to her, I walk back to pool area and dont do a shait. A bit later the same thing happens, I get to bar, and she is still on the other end giving me smile and looks and I still dont approach. So for the third time, the same thing happens over again and a bit later she is gone.

But I still think, there are planty of girls left and I am right. Cuz 10 min later this cute chick enters the pool area and started talking to some friends of hers. So I give her the look and smile and she smiles back. This happens a couple of times but I still don't approach. Needless to say, a while later she is gone too and I am left with no cute az of hers!

I am still thinking there are lot of chicks out there and right I am, this time too. Half hour before closing time, this spanish girl, looks kinda wild, a bit large az, but I dont mind startes to hang around pool area and I can see in the way she moves and acted that she wants somebody to talk to or flirt with. So I am sitting like 3 meters away and thinking, go ask her to dance, go ask her to dance, go ask her to dance, but do I do it? Nah, like the 2 before she splits and once again there is no az for me!

So in the end, once again I am to go home alone, but a lesson is learned this time too. To not drink, if you dont have guts, gets you no az! If you want az, you either have to have the gutz and not to drink, or to drink and take your shot at every girl in the bar with a line like "come here sugar! lets make out!"

Anyway, to approach a girl in a bar or on the street is the same. Its the same fear and anxiaty in me. So, maybe I'll start concetrating on just talking to girls anywhere. Someday I must start getting good at it. Whenever that may be.

That shait about "Courage is not lack of fear, it is acting in spite of it" and about "finding girls interst level in me" didn't work all that whell last night. I think I forgot about it at some point. Anyway, I'm still young and happy So there will be enough chances for me to toss away :rock:


Dude

 

[Blackdragon5095]

Remember man. If you don't apporach you won't learn.

It isn't all that easy for me to apporach too bro. I got a cold shoulder last night.

Tell yourself a quote you will remember.

Try this 1

"Do not be too timid or unsure about your actions. All life is an experiment." --
Emerson

Also here a tip:
Don't take apporaching women so seriously.
Come on man they are harmless human begins. With very low confidence ( thats why women are too sacred to apporach men )

Ketp at it man

 

[Blue Dude]

"Do not be too timid or unsure about your actions. All life is an experiment." --
Emerson

I'll try to remember that one!

22.05.06 - Monday, 23:05 - Day 11

So, today there was nothing happenin. I went to work, got home and fell asleep. Now that I can't sleep any more, (it's gonna be hell to get to work tommorro) I decided to get out a bit. But first I wantet to get to university (where I studied last term) and use a pc to check whats new. So I get on the .. shait later

 

[Blue Dude]

Got interupted last time. Anyway, just wanted to say that I sat next to a cute chick on the tram on my way to the university and didnt't say a shait.

Anyway, forward to yesterday.

24.05.06 - Wednesday, 13:15 - Day 13

Yesterday I went to work and then got home and fell asleep. When I woke up I relized I wasn't going to work the next morning becouse of an holiday in Norway and decided to get out. But this time I wanted to drink and see what diffrence does it makes. Cuz those last two weeks or three or whatever, didn't go all that whell. Everytime I would go out or try to talk to chicks I would freeze. This time, I told my self, I would drink, alot and see if I can get a chick when I am not thinking about other people around.

So I had some Vodka at home and mixed it with sprite. I played some good music on my stereo and just chilled watching tv, drinking and listening to music. After I started to get that warm feeling I knew it was the time to hit the clubs.

So first place I go to is my regular pub. There I meet some friends of mine and I am feeling like the center of the world. I am talking to everybody, even the cute new bartender they got there. And shait is going whell. Then I notice this chick playing pool at the other table and I am like without thinking walking over there and starting a convo with her. We talked for some time. Found out she was from US, Michigan or whatever and is in Norway to visit a "friend" of hers and she points at him, who is a dude I know. Anyway, long story short, we chat for a good while, she goes to toilet, I talk to the dude and found out they were fcking each outer before but it's all finished now. So when she comes back I ask her about him and shait and was to tell her how I dumped my ex, and she is all like "I don't wanna talk about dumping girls". So that pretty much killed the convo and I was like "whell, that killed the conversation" and she said, "yea", and then I just walked away. All in all it boosted my confidence by talking to her and walking away part.

So I took another beer and played pool a while more and then got out of there. Nobody wanted to come with me but I didn't mind. I knew where I was going and what I wanted to do. Have fun. I knew once I steped out of the door from my block, earlier that evening, that this night is gonna be good night. Cuz when I went out I waited for the tram, and when it arrived this cute chick went off, looked at me twice and gave me a smile as she was walking out by my side. I don't know why but I remember telling my self, "you dog! you gonna get p_ssy tonight!"

So I get out of the pub and head down to this great place where they play regge/soul music every wednesday. And its packed every time. So I come there around 1 AM and guess what, it's full! There ware a bunch of dudes and girls wanting to come in but the door guards ware like, "sorry its full. no more people tonight". And I was like trying to talk to them and tell them I knew the manager and that I was there like every wednesday but no luck. But I dont mind so cuz there is another nightclub open just down the street called Tiger Tiger.

So I get down, looks like there is a good party going on. I get in, make a smalltalk with the girl who takes money at the entrence and then I'm in! Now, whole this time, I am feeling great. Smilying, talking to everybody who goes by and all that shait drunk people do. Only I wasnt that drunk and were pretty much very cool all in all. So inside at the bar I get a beer, say something to the bartender and he laughs and I knew he was gonna remember me. So I wouldn't need to wait that long for a beer next time.

I turn around and see a dude sitting on a bed (there is this large bed there with fake tiger skin close to dancing floor), and I walk over and sat next and started a convo. Found out he's friends left, so we talked for a bit and I am still smilying and haveing great time.

I see these chicks at this table close by so I just head over there, make the one move over and make room for me. So I start a convo with em and then calls this dude I met to join us. But chicks look like they are in search of something else so they leave. Then I see these two girls lieing on that bed and I head over there. I just jump on and started to talk to this one. But before I said like 3 words I allready had my hands all over her. So there were some making out and shait and then they left to buy a beer or something. Don't remember. Anyway, this dude, from sweden, comes over and we chat for a bit and then hit the dance floor togather. And as soon as I got on, i started to flirt with this girl next to me, and before you could say "karamba" she had her az all over my crouch!

So we dance for a bit and then we go to get another beer, me and the swede dude. Anyway, to jump over all the small flirts and that kinda stuff, I walk back in the club and see 2 chicks. So I just jump over the one and sit next to her. She is writing a txt message to her boyfriend and she shows it to me "i love you, you so beautiful etc etc", then I say something and get over to this other dead cute chick! I start the convo and then I take her out to the dance floor. But as soon as we get there another friend of hers comes where we were sitting and she wanted her to join us and I am like "hell no, we dont need her" and was trying to pull her back in a playfull way. But she didn't want to. So I thought, fck her and moved on.

Some time goes by, I talk to that swede again, dance to the same chick on the dance floor and she is all over me. I flirt with a couple more chicks and then head over back to that dead cute chick. Now she is on the floor dancing with that friend of hers and I am like. Fck it, I am going in! So I get from behind and tap her shoulder. Now, I was thinking she is gonna just blow me of, and turn around or give me a cold shoulder or what ever, but the thing is, as soon as she turned around and saw me, she was all over me, huging me and shait, and then she said something about a friend of hers like, she is with her for some reason or something. Didn't quite get that but I thought of DeAngelo and his "if you notice girl is giving you that, 'whell you know, ehm, ah... ' shait, then move on". So I was playing it cool, didn't care and just walked slowly away from them even thou that cute chick was like "oh, come back" and giving me that sad look.

Anyway, I flirted some more with some chicks and then as I walk by those 2-3 chicks I tryed to talk to one of them but she didn't even wanted to say hi to me. So I said "cu_t" to her and am about to walk away when her friend comes over and is like "hey you, come with me". Like if! So her friend goes upstairs and I know I am about to be kicked out soon. So I talk to that swede dude again and tell him how this chick is gonna get me throun out. Now this swede dude is very cool, so I give him my number so we can hook up another time and go out to clubs togather. And then, as I expected, 2 large door guards comes towards me and are like "you are coming with us". I dont wanna discuss it with em, I don't wanna argue with that chick, so I just stand up, look at the guard, put my beer down and walk out. No fuss no nothing. Just walk out and home. Usualy I would been like "but I just said "cu_t" nothing more. its her foult for beeing one" and try to convince the guard that it wasn't my foult. But this time I thought, fck him, and fck that girl. I had a great time, and now I am leaving.

So all in all I did had a great night. In fact I had a fantastic night. And this is what happens when I drink. This night was just an experiment in what I can become if I stop thinking of what other people think of me. Cuz last night, I didn't see other people. I just saw that swede dude, and all those girls I talked and danced with. The place was packed but I didn't care about what other guys were doing, whom other girls were checking out and shait like that. I did what I wanted to do whole night and what did I get out of it? I had a LONG conversation with 1 chick, I danced thight with 2 chicks, I were kissing and grabing 1 chick, I flirted with like 10-15 chicks and I met a cool dude. Thats a good night. It could have been better if I wasn't throung out. Cuz I was in there for like 45min before they thru me out. Anyway, to be honest, even if I was to get a chick with me home that night, I wouldn't be abel to do a shait in bed. Don't know why but when I am drunk, my d_ck stops working. :cuss: So, next time, I need to try to not drink and do EXACTLY the same thing I did last night. Cuz damn, it works!

So, what did I learn about my self? Whell, I learned that inside, deep deep inside I realy am good at macking on chicks. I learned that as soon as I get rid of that "I am embaresed for how it's gonna look if I try to talk to her and she don't wanna and I am gonna be like standing there like an az" I will be a DJ!

edit 1: Yea, I learned also that you should never call girl, a c_nt. Cuz maybe she is a biach to and is gonna get you kicked out of club. So next time, a simple, c_unt in spanish or russian will do.

edit 2: It's strange but some of dead cute chicks had nothing agains talking and flirting with me while this butt ugly, fet, girl I tried to be nice to, didn't want nothing to do with me. I mean, its not like she have so many fcking options there. you know?
Thats so fcking wierd.

 

[Blue Dude]

25.05.06 - Thursday, 02:54 - Day 15

Just got back from night out. What to say. Whell, first tonight I didn't drink. I got to my regular pub and started playing pool. Met some people I know and had a good time. Then this cute blond chick starts playing at the other table with some friends and I start giving her the look and she looks back but there is no smile. So I continue playing and I notice that she is cheking me out from time to time. I'm not a total retard, so I know when a girl is cheking me out and when a girl is just looking in my direction. But not long after they are finish playing pool, she and her friends leave the place and now it's mostly just guys around.

I'm in a good mood and I talk to guys around pool area. I don't know why I was in a good mood. Maybe becouse I got a pay check today or becouse I hadn't lost a game so far this evening. So then this punk dude is yelling "who wants to play for a 100 kroner?" Its like 15 dollars I think. Dunno, anyway, I say sure, and beats him without any problems. I head over to the bar and order new cola and then I see these 2 girls sitting at the table behind me, så I think, "fck it" and I get over there. I open with "can I join you" and before they even answerd I was allready sitting down. The one is blond and cute. But the other is like, friends material. You know. So, we chat for like 10 min and then I get up and say that it's mine turn to play pool again. I leave em with that and 5min later they leave the place.

So I play pool a bit more, then allmost everybody leaves and there is like 5 people in the place at most. So I sit at the bar and talk to this cute but a bit bicthy bartender girl. We know each other since I am there alot but we never talked like we did this evening. Anyway, after 20min or so, I get out of there and head downtown.

I get to my other place I like to call, regular. Sikamicanico or just Sika. I thought it was gonna be empty and were looking to just chill and hear some music and then head back home, but when I came there, it wasnt that empty. There were maybe 20 people there. Since that place is pretty small, it looked allright. So I sit at the bar, order a cola, and start chatting with this dude next to me. He's friend is DJ tonight so he came with some friends to listen to him. We talk for a bit and then his "good looking friends" comes over. These 2 cute chicks and a third one. I know for a fact that the cute one liked me, cuz as soon as she saw me, she gave me the look and a smile, and I returned it and we started chating. So we chat for a bit and then her friend join us and we chat, then they go dancing and comes back, and we chat for a bit and they are out to get a smoke and.. you know the drill. Anyways, after a while, I think she got shy or whatever becouse I was displaying a good deal of "i don't care what nobody thinks of me" -attitude.

There was another girl on the dance floor that were giving me looks from time to another but that didn't go no where. And a third hot hot hot that I HOPE, was cheking me out from time to time. But not sure about her tho. Anyways, I chat with the same dude a bit more, the cute chick is just dancing and waiting for me to make a move. Comes over and ask's me "how it's going" and dances some more. But I have noe that "you want me? then you must work to get me" -attitude. So I just sit back and look cool, and after a while, I got bored of beeing cool, so I take my jacked and head home. And just before I exit, the cute girl gives me that "are you leaveing" -look.

I think I did ok tonight. I am very glad that I managed to sit with those 2 chicks at my pub and just strike a convo with em. I am glad that I talked to barteder girl for so long. Nice convo too. I am glad that I looked and acted cool. I am glad that I initiated convo with that dude. But what I'm not glad about is that I didn't "go for it". I just sat back and waiting for shait to happen to me, instead to go and grab the shait. I belive I could have had a VERY good night if I acted otherwise. But but, what to say, whats been, has been and will no longer be. So look ahead and don't let it happen again!



28.05.06 - Sunday, 21:49 - Day 17

Yesterday, I went out to my regular pub. Played some pool, didn't drink and diddn't have any luck with the ladies. Perhaps becouse I didn't approach any. But I acted az an total afc last night. There was this girl I have seen before in the pub, come to pool area and gives me major looks and smiles. I return and she is telling out loud to her friend. "I want him" and looks as me. So I say, "You want me yea. Thats good" and continue playing pool. She hangs around for a while and I don't approach so after some time, she gets bored and goes to the bar. Needless to say, I didn't approach her whole night. I'm an az. I know it.

There was this other chick there too. Very good looking rock-chik. She was into me I think, becouse while I was sitting at the bar she approached me and we talked for a while. She had her boyfriend there and everything but we just had a realy great conversation.

Anyway, my inital plan was to hit the clubs downtown but I just wasn't in the mood so I was at my pub the whole time. After closing time, I went and got something to eat and started thinking about my ex. (3 weeks since we broke up) So I head over to her place and ask her to let me sleep over. I come in, we talk and end up fcking eachother. She wants me to take her back but I told her again that I can't. Anyway, I split as soon as we are "finished".

Then I started thinking about that verse from 'E-rotic' group, "Oh Max, don't have sex with your ex. That'll make your life more complax, oh Max". I dunno. I suppose it was wrong of me. I didn't go there with the ideea of fcking her. I just wanted to talk to a friendly face. And it happend. But she didn't mind.

Have been thinking alot of her since I stoped drinking 2 weeks ago. I belive it's becouse when I go out now, I don't get that much of "contact" with other chicks. Don't drinking = scared to approach, no booty for me. Before when I was drinking = approaching all ladies, talking dirty, getting some.

I hope everything will fix it self after a while. I hope I stop thinking of her soon.

Anyway, I decided to start training again. I will order 10kg whey gainer now, and that'll last me for a month. So I hope, with other food that I can go up atleast 5 kg to next month. I am 68kg and 184cm. You do the math. I'm just too skinny. I know that a good body wont get you chicks, you still need confidence. But a good body is a confidence booster.

In the end, I decided I will keep track of how many chick I talk to and other shait. So In the end of every post or once everyweek, I'll write some starts at the bottom. Start counting today

convos pubs/clubs: 1
convos street: 0
cold approach: 0
# closes: 0
contact with ex: 1
wheight: 68kg (i think, will check tonight)

 

[Blue Dude]

Progress diary is to hard to follow!

I don't know. I ain't that much on the net so I forget to write FR. But last night I think I overcame one of my obstacles!

I finaly dared to talk to chicks while not drinking. So, long story short, I come to my pub, she 2 HB's7 (18 years both), and I procede to the pool area, then I think to my self, "fck it". I figure out I'll go and just say, "so, what are you 2 waiting for?" and take it from there. So, all that fear inside of me is raging like a bull, my hands start to shake and I think of "Courage is not the lack of fear, it's acting in spite of it.". So I take my balls and go over to they's tabel. I take the chair, say "hei, can I sit here" and before they answer I am allready sitting down. But before I asked them the question I wanted to, both of them ware at once very excited to talk to me and started chating at once. So we chat for a bit and when shait is going good, I exuxe my self and go play pool. So after 5-10 min they come over and start playing pool with me. Major IOI's!! so, i act cool buy maybe too cool cuz I totaly start to ignore them after a while. Anyway, I didn't get nowhere with em, and after a while they left. Then there was 2 HB6/7 with some dude, at the other tabel. So I get over there and talk to HB6 cuz HB7 is with that dude making out. Some small chatting but is ends there. Later on I start talking to a girl at the bar. Her friends says to me that she likes vodka and battery, and I'm like "So do I!" Anyway, no IOI from her so I split. Then there was this punk chick at the table llong loong way back at the pub and I move over there and just start chatting with her. But no IOI's so I split. Next are these 2 HB6 at the bar but neither gave me IOI's so I split from them to. This happend over like 3 hours.

Even thou I didn't pull any of them, my biggist chances ware with the first 2 hobos. Anyway, I don't regret a shait from last night! Fck, this was the first time in my life I did something like that without drinking and for me, THIS WAS A CROSSING POINT!

Anyway guys, I'll stop this progress diary here and just write FR in new threads when something special happens. Like last night.

Dude