Right, first things first. Im fvcking ugly (Like the bloke out of this english comedy "League of gentlemen":
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y117/rebelyell123/_859894_league150.jpg ,) so all the techniques and stuff on here don't work for me, and believe me, its not for the want of trying (Bootcamp, FS.com, Maniac High, sumagora, WoMS, DYD, you name it, I've tried it and failed at it)
Basically, the only place for me to be able to meet girls is over the internet. So I signed up to www.okcupid.com and met someone in the states, who seemed really nice and sweet.
We talked almost every night and it ended up with her asking me to marry her. I know, it sounds odd, but believe me when I say that, someone asking you to marry you, especially when you look like me, is an absolute godsend. I thought, thats it, i'd cracked it.
We got to e-mailing loads and loads, and she sends me pics, a lot of them quite risque (Although I havn;t been so stupid as to send any like that of me), she even sent me a card through the post.
Then things went downhill massively. We didnt speak for a week. When your confidence is as shot as mine is, then you need a little bit of reassurance.
1 week turned into 2 weeks, which then turned into 3. Over this 3 week period, I spoke to her once for 20 minutes over the net. She made no effort to call me, and all I got were the occasional 1 line e-mails saying "Sorry, I can't chat tonight: Insert bull$hit excuse here"
One of my friends committed suicide during this period, and I got an e-mail from her saying "Sorry about your friend, by the way I can't chat tonight"
Her excuse for this 3 week period is that she got fired and spent 3 weeks moving from job to job, looking for work, yet she keeps a blog, and from this, I see that she's spend her time doing a whole lot of nothing.
Sunday came along and I laid it on the line with her, either she makes more of an effort or its over. Fine she says, I'll make a concerted effort to speak to you more than twice a week.
And lo and behold, 14 days later and same situation. She's now expecting me to believe some excuse that her friend tried to kill her husband and how she broke his jaw or some nonsence.
she e-mails me and says she'll be on at certain times of the day, and she never materialises. She never e-mails me, she won't call me on the phone.
So what exactly should I do? I know your all going to say "Dump her" but before you do, think about it. Im so fvcking ugly, I get spat at in the street by people, I can't even go out round town anymore, simply because I know I'll just end up being miserable. This girl has given me a glimmer of hope, but even if it is a lie, is it worth giving up, simply because if I leave her, then I'm on my own again.
Im at university, final year, I have depression and am on Lustral 100mgs, if that has any relevance
http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y117/rebelyell123/_859894_league150.jpg ,) so all the techniques and stuff on here don't work for me, and believe me, its not for the want of trying (Bootcamp, FS.com, Maniac High, sumagora, WoMS, DYD, you name it, I've tried it and failed at it)
Basically, the only place for me to be able to meet girls is over the internet. So I signed up to www.okcupid.com and met someone in the states, who seemed really nice and sweet.
We talked almost every night and it ended up with her asking me to marry her. I know, it sounds odd, but believe me when I say that, someone asking you to marry you, especially when you look like me, is an absolute godsend. I thought, thats it, i'd cracked it.
We got to e-mailing loads and loads, and she sends me pics, a lot of them quite risque (Although I havn;t been so stupid as to send any like that of me), she even sent me a card through the post.
Then things went downhill massively. We didnt speak for a week. When your confidence is as shot as mine is, then you need a little bit of reassurance.
1 week turned into 2 weeks, which then turned into 3. Over this 3 week period, I spoke to her once for 20 minutes over the net. She made no effort to call me, and all I got were the occasional 1 line e-mails saying "Sorry, I can't chat tonight: Insert bull$hit excuse here"
One of my friends committed suicide during this period, and I got an e-mail from her saying "Sorry about your friend, by the way I can't chat tonight"
Her excuse for this 3 week period is that she got fired and spent 3 weeks moving from job to job, looking for work, yet she keeps a blog, and from this, I see that she's spend her time doing a whole lot of nothing.
Sunday came along and I laid it on the line with her, either she makes more of an effort or its over. Fine she says, I'll make a concerted effort to speak to you more than twice a week.
And lo and behold, 14 days later and same situation. She's now expecting me to believe some excuse that her friend tried to kill her husband and how she broke his jaw or some nonsence.
she e-mails me and says she'll be on at certain times of the day, and she never materialises. She never e-mails me, she won't call me on the phone.
So what exactly should I do? I know your all going to say "Dump her" but before you do, think about it. Im so fvcking ugly, I get spat at in the street by people, I can't even go out round town anymore, simply because I know I'll just end up being miserable. This girl has given me a glimmer of hope, but even if it is a lie, is it worth giving up, simply because if I leave her, then I'm on my own again.
Im at university, final year, I have depression and am on Lustral 100mgs, if that has any relevance
