Problems arise, situations tumble, life starts to crumble. What we take as reality gets skewed, altered, twisted. Sometimes we take an alternate path. Fog, braches, and cliffs around. Each reaching out. Begging to make you think a little harder, deeper, wonder. You take a step back and breathe. What is going on?
Life tosses objects at you, wondering what you'll do. Swing and miss, or hit it back. Life is your bat. Situations are your baseballs. Take a look in the mirror. What do you see? Hair, skin, eyes. A person. That is the outside. A battle rages inside. Storms rage. Damage ensures. Sickness, guts wrenched. You know something is up, but what is it?
Life. You know the end is near (as it always is for anything.) No matter what though, things will continue going on. In a different pattern? Don't know, because you can't see how things would have been before. We all make mistakes, take chances, fail. That leads to learning, achieving, growing. Sometimes you grow beyond what you know. You enter uncharted waters. You are scared, merely treding along, hoping for an answer. People look at you like you have five heads.
The answer is clear inside you. Not on the surface and not just there. You have to gaze deep in you. Past your thoughts, emotions, instincts. Back in the inner crevice of your body, your mind, your very soul, lies something beyond your control. You can learn from this. This one thing gives you greater power. What goes on, who you trust, what you know. All becomes second knowledge. How you act becomes seconds place. What you are becomes first.
"To each thier own." This is a well known expression. Each person creates a situation, but no matter the outcome, everyone else has an answer for you. What is the best option? The one you took. That little ball of knowledge in your brain will guide you. Show you the way. No one knows what goes on inside you. Even you don't at times. People can warn you, give you insight, tell you what to do.
"'Cause I'm breaking the habit." Habits form, life alters, time flies. You need to set it up, knock it down. Repeat it again. Since day 1, we are taught to listen to people around us, but never to ourselves. Why is that? I don't know. Do you know? Maybe you do.
'Everyday is a new day." Ah, POD. Payable on Death. That is what the action leads to. We pay our knowledge on death, forever leaving it behind. We don't need it anymore. Grab a book, a computer, a tv. Study, inhale knowledge, learn all you can. It will come in handy one day.
"How the hell 'd we wind up like this." Go us. We don't even know how we became something. Maybe we are born with it. Maybe we aquire it throughout life. Maybe we take things too much for granted. Who knows. Does life every really make sense? Even "reality" tv shows don't make sense, and they are "real." Yeah, as real as "The Truman Show." Maybe if we each videotaped our lives, we'd see a pattern. Or a lot of wasted film.
The world is a harsh reality. People like shielding themselves, taking back the pain. Easing it. Why? Too much to handle. Humans like hiding. I like hiding. I am coming out of hiding. I am not "crazykid" anymore. I am beyond that. I am better. I am...Eternal. I started off life as Joey. Heartbreak, anger, pain. I became crazykid. Less heartbreak, more anger, more pain, more realizations. Eternal is forever. Forever. That is a long time. Maybe too long.
I take a look at the past for a minute and wonder how life has passed so fast. 7,055 days. I have been alive that long. Yet I haven't really begun to live. Friends, lovers, family, crushes. Come and gone. Still around. Forever. Never leaving. Not wanting to go. Not wanting to let go. How often is time wasted?
To often we sit back and wait for things to come. Too long. Time gets wasted. Life cut shorter by the day. The hour. The minute. Look outside and see the grass grow. Go and grow with it. Read a book. Take a course. Do something. Don't fall into a rut and have to dig yourself out like I have.
I was buried long ago. Told that I am dead. I climbed out and prevailed once. Twice. Third time in the making? Yes. However, I am not myself. I am now better. I have been given a kick in the ass. A test. Last year has creeped back up, trying to catch up. Only I am smarter now and turned my back on it. Not letting it get to me. I can not escape as what I was. Therefore, I have to become what I am. Times change, people change, things go on.
As of this line, I no longer write as "crazykid." I am now better, stronger, faster, bigger. I have more knowledge. More intuity. I have reached a new pinnacle.
*Grabs shovel*
With this shovel, I hold power. A piece of metal and wood becomes more.
*Starts digging*
This hole is where the past will lie.
*Takes off mask, throws it in.*
"Here lies crazykid. He was there for me in the past. He will always be there in the future, reminding me that I have come this far and to not give up. May it rest in piece."
*Covers hole*
Crazykid is no more. Instead, something better is about to come. Welcome all, to a new birth. A new day.
This is my last post as "crazykid." A new me emerges soon.
See you all on the other side.
Crazykid: 1985-2004
Life tosses objects at you, wondering what you'll do. Swing and miss, or hit it back. Life is your bat. Situations are your baseballs. Take a look in the mirror. What do you see? Hair, skin, eyes. A person. That is the outside. A battle rages inside. Storms rage. Damage ensures. Sickness, guts wrenched. You know something is up, but what is it?
Life. You know the end is near (as it always is for anything.) No matter what though, things will continue going on. In a different pattern? Don't know, because you can't see how things would have been before. We all make mistakes, take chances, fail. That leads to learning, achieving, growing. Sometimes you grow beyond what you know. You enter uncharted waters. You are scared, merely treding along, hoping for an answer. People look at you like you have five heads.
The answer is clear inside you. Not on the surface and not just there. You have to gaze deep in you. Past your thoughts, emotions, instincts. Back in the inner crevice of your body, your mind, your very soul, lies something beyond your control. You can learn from this. This one thing gives you greater power. What goes on, who you trust, what you know. All becomes second knowledge. How you act becomes seconds place. What you are becomes first.
"To each thier own." This is a well known expression. Each person creates a situation, but no matter the outcome, everyone else has an answer for you. What is the best option? The one you took. That little ball of knowledge in your brain will guide you. Show you the way. No one knows what goes on inside you. Even you don't at times. People can warn you, give you insight, tell you what to do.
"'Cause I'm breaking the habit." Habits form, life alters, time flies. You need to set it up, knock it down. Repeat it again. Since day 1, we are taught to listen to people around us, but never to ourselves. Why is that? I don't know. Do you know? Maybe you do.
'Everyday is a new day." Ah, POD. Payable on Death. That is what the action leads to. We pay our knowledge on death, forever leaving it behind. We don't need it anymore. Grab a book, a computer, a tv. Study, inhale knowledge, learn all you can. It will come in handy one day.
"How the hell 'd we wind up like this." Go us. We don't even know how we became something. Maybe we are born with it. Maybe we aquire it throughout life. Maybe we take things too much for granted. Who knows. Does life every really make sense? Even "reality" tv shows don't make sense, and they are "real." Yeah, as real as "The Truman Show." Maybe if we each videotaped our lives, we'd see a pattern. Or a lot of wasted film.
The world is a harsh reality. People like shielding themselves, taking back the pain. Easing it. Why? Too much to handle. Humans like hiding. I like hiding. I am coming out of hiding. I am not "crazykid" anymore. I am beyond that. I am better. I am...Eternal. I started off life as Joey. Heartbreak, anger, pain. I became crazykid. Less heartbreak, more anger, more pain, more realizations. Eternal is forever. Forever. That is a long time. Maybe too long.
I take a look at the past for a minute and wonder how life has passed so fast. 7,055 days. I have been alive that long. Yet I haven't really begun to live. Friends, lovers, family, crushes. Come and gone. Still around. Forever. Never leaving. Not wanting to go. Not wanting to let go. How often is time wasted?
To often we sit back and wait for things to come. Too long. Time gets wasted. Life cut shorter by the day. The hour. The minute. Look outside and see the grass grow. Go and grow with it. Read a book. Take a course. Do something. Don't fall into a rut and have to dig yourself out like I have.
I was buried long ago. Told that I am dead. I climbed out and prevailed once. Twice. Third time in the making? Yes. However, I am not myself. I am now better. I have been given a kick in the ass. A test. Last year has creeped back up, trying to catch up. Only I am smarter now and turned my back on it. Not letting it get to me. I can not escape as what I was. Therefore, I have to become what I am. Times change, people change, things go on.
As of this line, I no longer write as "crazykid." I am now better, stronger, faster, bigger. I have more knowledge. More intuity. I have reached a new pinnacle.
*Grabs shovel*
With this shovel, I hold power. A piece of metal and wood becomes more.
*Starts digging*
This hole is where the past will lie.
*Takes off mask, throws it in.*
"Here lies crazykid. He was there for me in the past. He will always be there in the future, reminding me that I have come this far and to not give up. May it rest in piece."
*Covers hole*
Crazykid is no more. Instead, something better is about to come. Welcome all, to a new birth. A new day.
This is my last post as "crazykid." A new me emerges soon.
See you all on the other side.
Crazykid: 1985-2004
