backbreaker
Master Don Juan
I'm having a pretty fvcked up day. so i 'm just as much talking to myself as much as I'm talking to you guys.
While my day.. really my week, is pretty bad, it's nothing I can't and won't handle. I will be stronger for it in the end.
I like pain. I don't like going through pain. But I have come to understand that a certain amount of pain is needed to become hardend, and I have to be molded to become the man I ultimately want to be. I'm not going to become that man reading blogs and ****
Whenever I have a rough patch in life I think about to my business I started years ago. In general, we got used to dealing with hardships the first 3 years. The old boostrap stories, eating rooman noodles and pizzas, sleeping on the floor, working out of the garage. We got used to that stuff.
But there was one week in particular, really actually 2 weeks, in the beginning of 2004, I want to say the end of January, no it was the middle to the end of January, that damn near broke me. Everything from everyone was going to hell and for the first time I honestly asked myself would this work or not. I mean, hell. Our Rent was behind, the company who processed our orders was holding our money for some bull**** and we couldn't get paid to pay our rent, we had no money to spend on marketing, we had very little food. We kept getting declined by other banks to process orders. What made the entire situtation so screwed up was that we sold custom computers, we had already shipped the orders out and couldn't get paid for them. So we had no pc's to sale either lol. The problem was that they were international orders.. no it was ONE international order in a batch of like 10 orders and they were holding all 10 of them for the one. we were trying to say look we will ****ing eat the 1 order just give us the 9 and they wouldn't even do that.
I had about hit my emotional tipping point. Anyone who starts a business and has never thought seriously about quitting I can't take seriously because they are playing around. I had pored my YOUNG 3 years.. i was 18 when we started and at this time I was just 20 years old. I could have been (Trying to at least) get laid lol. I could have been playing video games and all that, but here I was broke, hungry, tired, very tired, drained. No family, no money no nothing. On a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being I 'm ready toq uit I was at a solid.. 7 or 8. had one more thing happened on top of all this I probably would have quit honeslty. I just could not take it.
I remember it like it was yesterday. My partner and I lived together and we had different rooms but our living room was setup as our office, we each had a computer. It was a tuesday morning and I got up and I was grumpy and I was working and he was working and he said something to me and I didn't like his tone and I snapped and we got into this arguement and he looked at me and he said backbreaker, i know how you feel I feel it too. But we are right there, you know it, i know it. just a little further. We've come too far to quit, let's get old school, roll up our sleeves and make some **** happen.
So we went to kroger scraped together 20 bucks and we got our go juice (cinimion apple sauce) and a pizza from pizza hut and we stayed up all night long, literally did not sleep, filling out merchant applications for banks we hadn't even heard of. high risk, out of the country, We had to submit 40 or so applications. I decided to put some computers (we sold a specific type of custom computer) in the newspaper and on ebay to generate some type of revenue. Alot more ****, but we started to seriously fight back. They were still holding our money. now that i think about it, we never got that **** lol. it was like 13 grand too. back then that was a LOT of money. we were living off the profits so there was like 1500-2000 grand of profit in that in all.
We had a slew of problems. Rent, we talked to the landlord worked out something. My car was screwed up beyond repair, we got that fixed. we bought a month's wroth of groceries so that we would never be that hungry again. it took a few weeks/ a month but by the end of February we were doing okay. We weren't balling but our heads were above water again.
We finally got approved for a different merchant account and then another then another and a few weeks later we had like 10 merchant accounts lol.
But more than anything, more than the money, more than having food or any of that. What I always took out of that entire ordeal is that.. I can. I can do anything I put my mind to. That situation when I was in it, was unsavagable. it was very painful. I could see everyone laughing at me saying they were right, you don't know what you are doing, you are going to fail. And we came out on top. YOu couldn't tell me ****. you still can't tell me **** lol.
Pain is a blessing. Pain molds alphas. Pain is the vehicle from where you are to where you want to be. People who live their lives in advoidicence of pain will never reach their full potential. they will alays be spectators from the sidelines
While my day.. really my week, is pretty bad, it's nothing I can't and won't handle. I will be stronger for it in the end.
I like pain. I don't like going through pain. But I have come to understand that a certain amount of pain is needed to become hardend, and I have to be molded to become the man I ultimately want to be. I'm not going to become that man reading blogs and ****
Whenever I have a rough patch in life I think about to my business I started years ago. In general, we got used to dealing with hardships the first 3 years. The old boostrap stories, eating rooman noodles and pizzas, sleeping on the floor, working out of the garage. We got used to that stuff.
But there was one week in particular, really actually 2 weeks, in the beginning of 2004, I want to say the end of January, no it was the middle to the end of January, that damn near broke me. Everything from everyone was going to hell and for the first time I honestly asked myself would this work or not. I mean, hell. Our Rent was behind, the company who processed our orders was holding our money for some bull**** and we couldn't get paid to pay our rent, we had no money to spend on marketing, we had very little food. We kept getting declined by other banks to process orders. What made the entire situtation so screwed up was that we sold custom computers, we had already shipped the orders out and couldn't get paid for them. So we had no pc's to sale either lol. The problem was that they were international orders.. no it was ONE international order in a batch of like 10 orders and they were holding all 10 of them for the one. we were trying to say look we will ****ing eat the 1 order just give us the 9 and they wouldn't even do that.
I had about hit my emotional tipping point. Anyone who starts a business and has never thought seriously about quitting I can't take seriously because they are playing around. I had pored my YOUNG 3 years.. i was 18 when we started and at this time I was just 20 years old. I could have been (Trying to at least) get laid lol. I could have been playing video games and all that, but here I was broke, hungry, tired, very tired, drained. No family, no money no nothing. On a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being I 'm ready toq uit I was at a solid.. 7 or 8. had one more thing happened on top of all this I probably would have quit honeslty. I just could not take it.
I remember it like it was yesterday. My partner and I lived together and we had different rooms but our living room was setup as our office, we each had a computer. It was a tuesday morning and I got up and I was grumpy and I was working and he was working and he said something to me and I didn't like his tone and I snapped and we got into this arguement and he looked at me and he said backbreaker, i know how you feel I feel it too. But we are right there, you know it, i know it. just a little further. We've come too far to quit, let's get old school, roll up our sleeves and make some **** happen.
So we went to kroger scraped together 20 bucks and we got our go juice (cinimion apple sauce) and a pizza from pizza hut and we stayed up all night long, literally did not sleep, filling out merchant applications for banks we hadn't even heard of. high risk, out of the country, We had to submit 40 or so applications. I decided to put some computers (we sold a specific type of custom computer) in the newspaper and on ebay to generate some type of revenue. Alot more ****, but we started to seriously fight back. They were still holding our money. now that i think about it, we never got that **** lol. it was like 13 grand too. back then that was a LOT of money. we were living off the profits so there was like 1500-2000 grand of profit in that in all.
We had a slew of problems. Rent, we talked to the landlord worked out something. My car was screwed up beyond repair, we got that fixed. we bought a month's wroth of groceries so that we would never be that hungry again. it took a few weeks/ a month but by the end of February we were doing okay. We weren't balling but our heads were above water again.
We finally got approved for a different merchant account and then another then another and a few weeks later we had like 10 merchant accounts lol.
But more than anything, more than the money, more than having food or any of that. What I always took out of that entire ordeal is that.. I can. I can do anything I put my mind to. That situation when I was in it, was unsavagable. it was very painful. I could see everyone laughing at me saying they were right, you don't know what you are doing, you are going to fail. And we came out on top. YOu couldn't tell me ****. you still can't tell me **** lol.
Pain is a blessing. Pain molds alphas. Pain is the vehicle from where you are to where you want to be. People who live their lives in advoidicence of pain will never reach their full potential. they will alays be spectators from the sidelines
