There was a girl that I dated for a very short time while I was in my home country. After I won the DV lottery I moved to USA.
Our relationship was promising at the begininng (No sex, no jealousy, no chasing, no rush). Then she started to testing me like doesn't replied my messages intentionally (I was really inexperienced back then as I couldnt handle it properly).
I went rage and NC totally. She begged 10 days after. Never got back to her because of my moving to USA. Well in that time she got another BF then I deleted her completely from my circles. 4 months ago I decided to unblock her from FB but she also blocked me in that time.
Anyways time passed, I moved LA. 2 weeks later a girl from Slovakia hit me very hard, wanted to sex but couldnt because of my chicken altitude! (I was weak and insecure because of loss of frame, personal problems, moving to a different country, trust issues since past 6 months etc.). I was shocked and couldnt handled properly. Now she is not talking with me and become almost oneitis. Didn't chased her, went NC, now she is giving me cold hi's... I kept my distance everytime I see her. Past mistakes learnt me too much! Still feels oneitis but no! I know what todo. In time will heal...
The other EX situation. Last week when I was checking my facebook I find out my EX unblocked me. I didn't bothered to message or tried to contact her because I didn't want any other drama. After I read alot of material about failure of LDR stuff I kept myself.
But I still wonder if I should try the undiscovered waters (by my point of view of course) for more experience (and possibly hurtings in the end) by trying to contact her and see what happens next...
Of course I am not willing to drop the spinning plates (There is currently one but a very low potential for now)
I've never been in a timeframe in my life (last 2 years) that I was really tried to push my boundaries against the women.
Suggestions and sharing past experiences appreciated!
Our relationship was promising at the begininng (No sex, no jealousy, no chasing, no rush). Then she started to testing me like doesn't replied my messages intentionally (I was really inexperienced back then as I couldnt handle it properly).
I went rage and NC totally. She begged 10 days after. Never got back to her because of my moving to USA. Well in that time she got another BF then I deleted her completely from my circles. 4 months ago I decided to unblock her from FB but she also blocked me in that time.
Anyways time passed, I moved LA. 2 weeks later a girl from Slovakia hit me very hard, wanted to sex but couldnt because of my chicken altitude! (I was weak and insecure because of loss of frame, personal problems, moving to a different country, trust issues since past 6 months etc.). I was shocked and couldnt handled properly. Now she is not talking with me and become almost oneitis. Didn't chased her, went NC, now she is giving me cold hi's... I kept my distance everytime I see her. Past mistakes learnt me too much! Still feels oneitis but no! I know what todo. In time will heal...
The other EX situation. Last week when I was checking my facebook I find out my EX unblocked me. I didn't bothered to message or tried to contact her because I didn't want any other drama. After I read alot of material about failure of LDR stuff I kept myself.
But I still wonder if I should try the undiscovered waters (by my point of view of course) for more experience (and possibly hurtings in the end) by trying to contact her and see what happens next...
Of course I am not willing to drop the spinning plates (There is currently one but a very low potential for now)
I've never been in a timeframe in my life (last 2 years) that I was really tried to push my boundaries against the women.
Suggestions and sharing past experiences appreciated!
