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Don Juan
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Hey,
I have gained a lot of knowledge through this forum (thanks everyone) and the post, "The Man" recently made me realize that a lot of being a DJ is about the mood you are in and the people you allow to be around you. Yesterday, I took some of this post into action, and a couple of my friends realized I was happier without me saying anything.
Now, onto the topic. I believe I have had OCD for the last ten years or so of my life. When I was younger, I would touch...my...head frequently.......(just realized something-will say in a moment). I would compulsively do that and think that everything and everyone will be safe and alive and that nothing bad is going to happen or what not. It got to the point that my mom noticed it when I was getting older and told me a few years ago that she thinks I had it-she also said that she has it and I could tell. She cleans a lot....and so do I. At first I believed it was genetic, but now I realize it was just the way I was raised. Anyways, before I go on, about the touching my head frequently thing, I just realized that I think I have 99% gotten over that (yea!). Last Summer, I took into reading about self-treatment and decided to say "Fvck you" to the OCD in my mind whenever a thought came to do it...apparently it worked-at least for that.
However, the other part of my OCD, which is keeping a lot of my gadgets and stuff clean, not taking as much risks, covering my face with my arm every time someone near me coughs or sneezes, and washing my hands very frequently (I need lotion to keep them close to normal skin color), is bothering me a lot lately. This is perhaps one of the final parts of my OCD I need to KILL. The whole keeping everything clean concept. I feel it might be interfering with my DJ thoughts and actions. Right now, it is the sick season, and I am worried during school and stuff that if someone coughs or whatever near me, that their "cough" will get into my eyes, nose, mouth or whatever and I will get sick. So, I cover myself with my arm-maybe stop breathing for a moment even. I look around and I don't see others doing that. I really want to stop this compulsion and I just don't know what to do. I don't want to get sick because if I get sick, I "can't" touch my gadgets or computer when I am sick because I will "infect" them and get sick again from them or get a friend sick. More importantly, I will be stuck at home and not be able to practice my emerging DJ skills.
I know this is not a mental help forum at all. However, I do know OCD is very common (just ranges in effect from person to person), and I want to get over it so I can totally focus on DJ improvement. My life would be more clearer and happier I believe.
Any suggestions?
I have gained a lot of knowledge through this forum (thanks everyone) and the post, "The Man" recently made me realize that a lot of being a DJ is about the mood you are in and the people you allow to be around you. Yesterday, I took some of this post into action, and a couple of my friends realized I was happier without me saying anything.
Now, onto the topic. I believe I have had OCD for the last ten years or so of my life. When I was younger, I would touch...my...head frequently.......(just realized something-will say in a moment). I would compulsively do that and think that everything and everyone will be safe and alive and that nothing bad is going to happen or what not. It got to the point that my mom noticed it when I was getting older and told me a few years ago that she thinks I had it-she also said that she has it and I could tell. She cleans a lot....and so do I. At first I believed it was genetic, but now I realize it was just the way I was raised. Anyways, before I go on, about the touching my head frequently thing, I just realized that I think I have 99% gotten over that (yea!). Last Summer, I took into reading about self-treatment and decided to say "Fvck you" to the OCD in my mind whenever a thought came to do it...apparently it worked-at least for that.
However, the other part of my OCD, which is keeping a lot of my gadgets and stuff clean, not taking as much risks, covering my face with my arm every time someone near me coughs or sneezes, and washing my hands very frequently (I need lotion to keep them close to normal skin color), is bothering me a lot lately. This is perhaps one of the final parts of my OCD I need to KILL. The whole keeping everything clean concept. I feel it might be interfering with my DJ thoughts and actions. Right now, it is the sick season, and I am worried during school and stuff that if someone coughs or whatever near me, that their "cough" will get into my eyes, nose, mouth or whatever and I will get sick. So, I cover myself with my arm-maybe stop breathing for a moment even. I look around and I don't see others doing that. I really want to stop this compulsion and I just don't know what to do. I don't want to get sick because if I get sick, I "can't" touch my gadgets or computer when I am sick because I will "infect" them and get sick again from them or get a friend sick. More importantly, I will be stuck at home and not be able to practice my emerging DJ skills.
I know this is not a mental help forum at all. However, I do know OCD is very common (just ranges in effect from person to person), and I want to get over it so I can totally focus on DJ improvement. My life would be more clearer and happier I believe.
Any suggestions?