amazingswayze
Master Don Juan
I found something I wrote a couple months ago. It's amazing how much I've changed. I'll share it with you guys.
Note to Self (6.6.15)
"Let me keep it real with myself. First off, I am good enough. I don't need validation from anyone else. Second, I need to stop chasing girls. I am the common denominator in all of my failures. Why am I in such a rush? I need to put things into perspective. I'm tired of stressing pointless issues.
From now on, I will focus my energy on that which I HAVE control over. I can't waste away hoping that a girl likes me, no matter how pretty. I know what I want in this life. I'm going to be all that I can be. I want to be a good, Christian man.
Part of me wants to say, "**** IT!" to all the things that frustrate me. The other part of me wants to confront these issues. I'm on a journey. I like J. Cole's lyric, "Don't let the bridges you cross turn into bridges you burn." I need to accept my struggles and learn to live with regret.
This is the beginning of my life. I finally discovered myself halfway through senior year. Better late than never. What I yearn for is wisdom. I want my past experiences to help me make decisions in the future. I make mistakes all the time and although it pains me, I will learn from them..."
This was my mindset two months ago. A few things have changed. I don't go to church anymore. I've become lazy with that. I lost my faith somewhat. I started going to church and youth group because I met a very cute ginger christian girl. After that didn't work out, I got bored of the whole thing. Yes, I became Christian for a girl. Very funny, right?
Also, I've gotten much more experience since I wrote this. I am less desperate and more outcome independent. I'm getting stronger mentally. I give less fuks now. I've grown a lot in these past two months.
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LIFE GOAL SHEET (6.6.15)
Personality
Never be shy again.
Make friends that benefit me.
Exude confidence.
Remain alpha.
Walk with the Holy Spirit at all times.
Career
Obtain my nursing degree from Farmingdale.
Finish summer CNA Course (check).
Find work and boost resume.
Become the best nurse I can possibly be.
Seek higher learning after my BSN.
Education
Never stop seeking wisdom.
Life lessons.
Teach myself how to be truly independent.
Get the certifications I need to work in a hospital (exam tomorrow).
Work harder in college than I ever did in High School.
Financial
Save up for a house.
Save up for retirement.
Ball on a budget.
No frivolous spending.
Buy things I truly desire.
Physical
Hit the gym for the rest of my life.
Work towards a six-pack (slowly). :crackup:
Keep a fresh cut, facial hair, and body hair.
Braces off, straight white smile. (check)
Be sexy, handsome, and full of charisma.
Pleasure
Indulge once in a blue moon.
Have passionate sex. (not yet) :crackup:
Take pride in my car.
Stay sober (drink at parties).
Feel like a real man at all times.
Public Service
Give back via Nursing, Rap.
Show extra respect to my elders.
Serve God (missions).
Make other lives better.
Contribute something meaningful to the world.
ACTION PLANS
1. Hit the gym
2. Mack more girls on the regular.
3. Take care of my body.
4. Invest in my studies.
5. Always practice my rap.
6. Keep my faith in God.
7. Respect my Father and Mother.
8. Pray more often.
9. Become the man I want to be.
SCHEDULE
Hit the gym as often as possible.
Go to church every Sunday.
Youth group every Wednesday.
Chill with friends during downtime.
Get out of the house!
TO DO LISTS
Write one note to self everyday.
ACTIVITY LOGS
Write, or at least take mental note of daily activities.
In Conclusion:
I've fallen off track with some of my goals but for the most part, I'm doing good. I'm sticking to the things that matter most to me. I have no real explanation as to why I've become less religious. I just stopped caring. Besides that, I'm doing what I can. This post is a trip for me. I forgot that I even wrote these things. I was walking around with this in my wallet for two months, haha. Now, they'll be on the internet forever! :crackup:
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Note to Self (6.6.15)
"Let me keep it real with myself. First off, I am good enough. I don't need validation from anyone else. Second, I need to stop chasing girls. I am the common denominator in all of my failures. Why am I in such a rush? I need to put things into perspective. I'm tired of stressing pointless issues.
From now on, I will focus my energy on that which I HAVE control over. I can't waste away hoping that a girl likes me, no matter how pretty. I know what I want in this life. I'm going to be all that I can be. I want to be a good, Christian man.
Part of me wants to say, "**** IT!" to all the things that frustrate me. The other part of me wants to confront these issues. I'm on a journey. I like J. Cole's lyric, "Don't let the bridges you cross turn into bridges you burn." I need to accept my struggles and learn to live with regret.
This is the beginning of my life. I finally discovered myself halfway through senior year. Better late than never. What I yearn for is wisdom. I want my past experiences to help me make decisions in the future. I make mistakes all the time and although it pains me, I will learn from them..."
This was my mindset two months ago. A few things have changed. I don't go to church anymore. I've become lazy with that. I lost my faith somewhat. I started going to church and youth group because I met a very cute ginger christian girl. After that didn't work out, I got bored of the whole thing. Yes, I became Christian for a girl. Very funny, right?
Also, I've gotten much more experience since I wrote this. I am less desperate and more outcome independent. I'm getting stronger mentally. I give less fuks now. I've grown a lot in these past two months.
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LIFE GOAL SHEET (6.6.15)
Personality
Never be shy again.
Make friends that benefit me.
Exude confidence.
Remain alpha.
Walk with the Holy Spirit at all times.
Career
Obtain my nursing degree from Farmingdale.
Finish summer CNA Course (check).
Find work and boost resume.
Become the best nurse I can possibly be.
Seek higher learning after my BSN.
Education
Never stop seeking wisdom.
Life lessons.
Teach myself how to be truly independent.
Get the certifications I need to work in a hospital (exam tomorrow).
Work harder in college than I ever did in High School.
Financial
Save up for a house.
Save up for retirement.
Ball on a budget.
No frivolous spending.
Buy things I truly desire.
Physical
Hit the gym for the rest of my life.
Work towards a six-pack (slowly). :crackup:
Keep a fresh cut, facial hair, and body hair.
Braces off, straight white smile. (check)
Be sexy, handsome, and full of charisma.
Pleasure
Indulge once in a blue moon.
Have passionate sex. (not yet) :crackup:
Take pride in my car.
Stay sober (drink at parties).
Feel like a real man at all times.
Public Service
Give back via Nursing, Rap.
Show extra respect to my elders.
Serve God (missions).
Make other lives better.
Contribute something meaningful to the world.
ACTION PLANS
1. Hit the gym
2. Mack more girls on the regular.
3. Take care of my body.
4. Invest in my studies.
5. Always practice my rap.
6. Keep my faith in God.
7. Respect my Father and Mother.
8. Pray more often.
9. Become the man I want to be.
SCHEDULE
Hit the gym as often as possible.
Go to church every Sunday.
Youth group every Wednesday.
Chill with friends during downtime.
Get out of the house!
TO DO LISTS
Write one note to self everyday.
ACTIVITY LOGS
Write, or at least take mental note of daily activities.
In Conclusion:
I've fallen off track with some of my goals but for the most part, I'm doing good. I'm sticking to the things that matter most to me. I have no real explanation as to why I've become less religious. I just stopped caring. Besides that, I'm doing what I can. This post is a trip for me. I forgot that I even wrote these things. I was walking around with this in my wallet for two months, haha. Now, they'll be on the internet forever! :crackup:
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