*victorious trumpet music playing*
first successful number close today! and it couldnt have come at a better time. i was walking to class, n saw this cute islander girl (kambodian, filipino, they all look similiar). striked up a convo, cant remember what i started talking about but somehow it shifted to my part time job then went to careers/majors, then i shifted it back to her. this went on for a lil while, then i realized she made me late for class. i told her i had to go, n it was ncie talking to her. as i started to turn away i stopped, n said "hey, let me give u a call sometime, wats ur #?" i saw her once towards the end of the day, she saw me, gave me a big smile n waved, then went in whatever room she was going to.
now, as i mentioned before, this couldnt have happened on a better day. my ex oneitis was hanging around my friends (this makes me mad soemtimes). they think their pimping her since she talks to them, but w/e. maybe she does it to get at me, i dunno. anyway, one of my friends was like "wheres your new bf?" she said hes around, then my other friend got all excited n was asking what he looked like. (my friends sound like djs, no? *insert sarcasm*). anyway, never in my life would i have thought this would bother me, but it did. i didnt feel like hanging around, n as i was leaving she was like "so, did you have fun..." she probably heard about me staying in this girls dorm kinda late, but she stopped n i just said yeah n left. i was pretty pissed that i wasnt completely over her, that wasnt somehting a dj woudl have gone through, and i honestly thought i had moved on. i was angry because i shouldnt have feelings for her, ive been with 2 girls since.
this died down as the day progressed, but for some reason it feltl ike a sick blow to the stomach. she was probably the best gf ive ever had, were together for almost a year and she was my "first" so ya. getting this number today helped, in fact that kinda gave me the extra motivation i needed to close. but i was still angry with myself, i thought id beaten down those ugly emotions. luckily some friends noticed i wasnt myself n cheered me up, one girl in my class tickled me til i begged her to stop (im so ticklish it isnt funny).
thats it for today, im exhausted since ive been running/working out to get my anger out of my system. til next time
oh, and i realized that some of my friends arent being good homies. im meeting new people, so ill be making new friends as i go as well. it goes beyond them just flocking around my ex, but today made me realize that. my true buddies will always be there for me, but still, have a lotta people i probably shouldnt be hanging out with.
first successful number close today! and it couldnt have come at a better time. i was walking to class, n saw this cute islander girl (kambodian, filipino, they all look similiar). striked up a convo, cant remember what i started talking about but somehow it shifted to my part time job then went to careers/majors, then i shifted it back to her. this went on for a lil while, then i realized she made me late for class. i told her i had to go, n it was ncie talking to her. as i started to turn away i stopped, n said "hey, let me give u a call sometime, wats ur #?" i saw her once towards the end of the day, she saw me, gave me a big smile n waved, then went in whatever room she was going to.
now, as i mentioned before, this couldnt have happened on a better day. my ex oneitis was hanging around my friends (this makes me mad soemtimes). they think their pimping her since she talks to them, but w/e. maybe she does it to get at me, i dunno. anyway, one of my friends was like "wheres your new bf?" she said hes around, then my other friend got all excited n was asking what he looked like. (my friends sound like djs, no? *insert sarcasm*). anyway, never in my life would i have thought this would bother me, but it did. i didnt feel like hanging around, n as i was leaving she was like "so, did you have fun..." she probably heard about me staying in this girls dorm kinda late, but she stopped n i just said yeah n left. i was pretty pissed that i wasnt completely over her, that wasnt somehting a dj woudl have gone through, and i honestly thought i had moved on. i was angry because i shouldnt have feelings for her, ive been with 2 girls since.
this died down as the day progressed, but for some reason it feltl ike a sick blow to the stomach. she was probably the best gf ive ever had, were together for almost a year and she was my "first" so ya. getting this number today helped, in fact that kinda gave me the extra motivation i needed to close. but i was still angry with myself, i thought id beaten down those ugly emotions. luckily some friends noticed i wasnt myself n cheered me up, one girl in my class tickled me til i begged her to stop (im so ticklish it isnt funny).
thats it for today, im exhausted since ive been running/working out to get my anger out of my system. til next time
oh, and i realized that some of my friends arent being good homies. im meeting new people, so ill be making new friends as i go as well. it goes beyond them just flocking around my ex, but today made me realize that. my true buddies will always be there for me, but still, have a lotta people i probably shouldnt be hanging out with.