NHY's Boot Camp: Week 2 Response Thread ( and Explanation )

[NHY]

NHY's Boot Camp: An Explanation from NHY

Hello all again,

I guess I owe you all an explanation.

I have not exactly being at my best mentally the past few days, I've being thinking rather negatively about myself and guess what happened? UGH! Talk about an AFC all over again! Although, the enviorment at home has never being exactly the best for me, I feel as if literally NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME! They didn't even TRY to guide me through adolsense without driving me to suicidal thoughts! That was a few years ago, though.

Needless to say, I have learned something over the past few days, I really shouldn't give up, no matter how many times I got shot down but seriously, it gets REALLY annoying if your shot down EVERY FRICKING TIME YOU TRY! It normally doesn't get to me but I just let it get to me this weekend. So the lesson, DON'T GIVE UP.

I also need to take up a more physical hobby, like Karate. As i can tell, after seeing so many JERKS getting girls this last night ( saturday ) , I felt like punching someone! Anger is a bad thing if its not controlled!

Ok, first things first, remember when I said 7 / 50? I lied, its more like 2 / 50. I was just desperate, just to clear that up like A MAN.

At least I'm after owing up to the responsibility instead of going AWOL for a few weeks like I planned to!

 

[ethnomethodologist]

This is probably a good thread to say sorry? teehee bad question

Change the name of this thread... there's already a week two response thread... PS I got my 50 approaches smiles and hi's plus 10+ two minute conversations. Cha Ching!! Last night was the motherload of approaches, completely blew my mind. I HAD to be fun and interesting to be able to grab people's attention. Meeting new people is a rush and there should be NO fear or bad feelings involved whatsoever.


Still looking for a way to define the reasons to hellp you guys.

My life has flipped turned upside down. I've been through your problem already. I had friends dropping themselves like flies. Slit throat, shotgun to the head, hanging themselves in closets(literally kicking a bucket)... I hjad suicidal thoughts going through my mind far more times than I care to share. I still can't bring myself to laugh about it, so I haven't learned my lesson yet. Suicide is still a big part of my regular conversations with people, I see it all of the time... LOL I can laugh at the fact of how many times I've turned a girl who's crying into a come hoe. Being helpful and preventing death and making people happy is one of my biggest goals in life. I don't want to see anybody die.

I know how impersonal the internet is. I want to learn how to speak to you as if you were right there with me. I don't ever go back and track over my words, the only thing I do is stop to check dictionary.com for thesaurus words since my definitions are so off kilter. I want to be able to help you. That's the reason I even talked to you in the first place, I could sense your pain.

AWOL means absent(without leave) you don't want to do that. You can go off the wall though, give yourself thrusts in several directions. Create momentum with your conversations, that is what I did last night.

I threw regular habits out the window. I'd leave people without saying goodbye just to talk to em again later to hear them ask where I ran off to. People probably thought I was like one of those little squirrels that just can't stop talking. People kept asking if I was drunk before I even had one drink, after I did get the drinks though, I amazingly calmed down and cemented myself near the dancefloor. Created my aura and extended it to everybody who was around. I got mad kino while I was there, right in the line of fire, everybody who wanted to get past HAD to talk to me. I held some STRANGE conversations last night. I expelled my DJ knowledge to everybody in terms that wouldn't be offending nor condescending, I established rapport immediately and showed signs in ever girl that I was interested. People actually started to confront me with drinks and jokes and invites to dance. Gay straight bi guys and girls were asking me to dance. This is my rant There is NO wrong way to speak with people, the only time it ever goes sour is when they sense you are not being forthcoming.

Now back to you.

Don't get ruthless, get ruthful, get compassionate, they are all the same thing, check it in the dictionary. Start to care, care just a little bit too much and people will notice. You can confront people with the essence of being a friend and wanting to help any way you can and people give you mad props just for talking to them. Help people have fun, help people game chicks, throw out innuendo in conversations that are dying, make crass comments just to see how people respond. Stir up the water, boil the tempest out of your teapot. Turn up the temperature and nothing will stop you. Only death is the end of any relationship, you cannot say it ends, it's only not active, or negative.

I still want to know what your problems are. I haven't encountered anybody with your stylings yet on this board. You are unique, and your problem is reminiscent of so many of my closest friends.

You've got to become nicer, nicer than nice.

 

[Microphone Fiend]

at least you came forward man... just to clear your conscience, thats what its about... People think that just because I've been hear a while I am supposed to be a lot better and such, but I struggle with things just like everyone else, and i hate having to uphold an image of myself over the internet in a place where i look for advice...

remember you aint gotta prove anything to anyone... no one hear knows you or can judge you properly. its all about you