next time? (self indulgent rant vent)

[angeles]

so couple weeks ago i posted about a girl whom i was interested in. i did well in keeping it cool...

so its been pretty intense. we havent had sex cause im a tease and have been abstinent for several years by choice. but we got really close which is a feat in itself cause i never let the girls get close. she was wanting me even more for being such a tease. anyways... so the last week or so ive started to express interest back to her... so i asked to see her midweek, and she totally blew me off. so i called her out because she was saying things that would be contrary to not seeing me. ie)when can i see you, i wanna see you...

anyways i call her out. and told her i dont like playing games or whatever... and she tried a reverse and told me that she was mad for thinking she was playing games. i didnt give a ****. cause to me she was.

well so i told her i think we should probably chill out. and never gave her absolution of when we would see each other next.

she even fricking asked when i was coming over TAHT night she blew me off... i totally shot that down immediately... what kind of **** is that?!?!??! WTF?

so im thinking this girls a player. or just really unsure of what she wants.

im a pissed off nice guy with a twist of ******* and independance... and i gotta lotta **** going on for myself.... in the public eye, so i have 'fans', moderately attractive... intelligent, ... have talents that others dont, and im increasing becoming a betterman. working out, social activities, pursuit of fame and fortune... interesting career path, spirituality, sensuality, etc etc.. so im confident in who i am.

oh yeah.. her excuse was... she needed to clean up the apt. she just moved in saturday. and she seems to have OCD about **** being in its proper place and clean. nevertheless with the **** shes been saying, she should wanna have fun with me, instead of cleaning.

anywyas. to not be totally pissed off and biased against girl. shes very cute. Funny. would be totally good in the sack. and we have mutual interests. and is at my level as far as religious stuff, and a comfortable level as far as intelligence.

so i want her. im a true lovin, all or nothin kinda dood. so...

did i over react by getting pissy? that she didnt want to see me? i didnt grovel. it took like 2 minutes on the phone. i told her id let her go to do her stuff cause i had other stuff to do. so later that evening she called and we talked about it.

well, it might not matter. she hasnt messaged me this morning like she usually does. so maybe shes nexted me?

but at least i feel like she wont find anyone anytime soon, that could ever live up to me. thats so ****y but ****... there seems to be alot of ****ing duds out there.

** ohh yeah... at first, something f-upped, she mentioned that she told her friend that i was her bf. it had only been like 2 weeks. and she dropped the term here and there, to see my reaction, which i was nonchalant. whats ups with that? ****

give me your opinions.

 

[NewMan]

we havent had sex cause im a tease and have been abstinent for several years by choice. but we got really close which is a feat in itself cause i never let the girls get close. she was wanting me even more for being such a tease. anyways...

A little bit of your own medicine was thrown back at ya eh?

she was playing games

so were you.

unsure of what she wants.

sounds like she wants to get laid.

 

[Tomb]

Originally posted by angeles
and have been abstinent for several years by choice.

suuuuure

 

[angeles]

haha. for real dood. i have some f-upped values that im starting to shed and reevaluate from my religious upbringing. im on second virginity. i suppose it stems from fear of commitment/intimacy, kid, disease, performance anxiety, and fear that once i give it up, the girl would become too attached... which goes back to fear of committment...

etc. etc. i know im not the norm. but im not a loser either. but probably, with todays societal values... im a weirdo.

so.... im getting the game played back to me eh?

isnt that what this site promotes? i mean, in the beginning i totally held back my feelings from her... and it was really hard, and sucked. besides that, im upfront about sex... i told her i wasnt ready. im not looking to get laid. if i was, i would just go find some easy lay on the internet dating sites. im only a tease cause they want it, and im unwilling to give it up. although im willing to do anything else to please them. and then some. so..

 

[NewMan]

getting laid with someone on the internet and having sex with a woman you enjoy spending time with and know very well are 2 different things.