Second day no contact haha.
It's been off and on for 2 months.
More than anything just very disappointed and feel betrayed to give so much time and be fantastic to her and her kid and not be appreciated when it comes down to it. I feel Appreciation is displayed through actions not words. My fault tho, i have to take responsibility knowing she is bipolar and has princess syndrome, a spoiled brat as this girl can be down right mean. I am not mean natured to women as i have 3 sisters i am very close to, even fighting and playings sports violently all my life, i can separate the emotions and am composed where a woman who is bipolar or emotionally unstable can not.
I figured the problem some of us have not getting rid of a bipolar gf when we know we should and the reason is we really are very close in connection to them, really best friends on top of a gf. When they flip and then come back they are very open and show strength to get things back on track and are very loving and affectionate, well until the next time in a few days when the roller coaster resumes.
Its tough to cut off somebody u care for after 3 years even when u know its the best.
Though that is what I am doing as the bipolar episodes just did not stop. Wonderful and loving and normal for days to a week or two then BAM out of no where emotionally unstable flipping out over literally nothing, or something so little just to ask or talk. It is unreal what I put up with.
Once we went to Subway to eat and she had a subway prepaid card she received as a gift and was going to use it, the credit card machine was down, I only had 10 bucks and my cards, so only 10 bucks, so I asked her if she wanted for us to just split something, go 4 miles down the road to the next subway where we could use our cards or to another place to eat, she said just get what i want and she will figure it out, so I got a steak sub and we went outside and I asked what she wanted to do, she said nothing she wasnt hungry... I said lets go somewhere and get you something to eat, she said "no and dont ask me again" like a *****, I said ok, drove home and she goes in my room at 530pm and says she is going to bed for the night...I am thinking WTF? 45 mins goes by and she gets up and says she is going to her house, all in a frenzy mad and pissed.. I cant get a word in and just kind of stand back away from the fire ( my sis is bipolar so growing up if she had episodes as a kid i just left the room or house to get away from them) anyways she calls on her way home yelling at me telling me she has never dated a guy who didnt buy her dinner WTF?? I said, ugh, the card machine was down all i had was 10 bucks, offered us to split a footlong, go to the next subway or out to dinner elsewhere....( i always paid for dinners we were tog about a year when this happened but she had the giftcard and wanted to just use it) Anyways she was flipping and hung up on me. I went nc for like two days until she figured it out...
Anyways I think I just told this story to remind myself I am doing the right thing, I have probably 25 stories like this in nearly 3 years...
This time I can not feel bad or sad or care for her in any way, hard to let someone go even if they are crazy as shiiit and feel like a best friend but my God no one deserves this unstable abusive treatment...
It's been off and on for 2 months.
More than anything just very disappointed and feel betrayed to give so much time and be fantastic to her and her kid and not be appreciated when it comes down to it. I feel Appreciation is displayed through actions not words. My fault tho, i have to take responsibility knowing she is bipolar and has princess syndrome, a spoiled brat as this girl can be down right mean. I am not mean natured to women as i have 3 sisters i am very close to, even fighting and playings sports violently all my life, i can separate the emotions and am composed where a woman who is bipolar or emotionally unstable can not.
I figured the problem some of us have not getting rid of a bipolar gf when we know we should and the reason is we really are very close in connection to them, really best friends on top of a gf. When they flip and then come back they are very open and show strength to get things back on track and are very loving and affectionate, well until the next time in a few days when the roller coaster resumes.
Its tough to cut off somebody u care for after 3 years even when u know its the best.
Though that is what I am doing as the bipolar episodes just did not stop. Wonderful and loving and normal for days to a week or two then BAM out of no where emotionally unstable flipping out over literally nothing, or something so little just to ask or talk. It is unreal what I put up with.
Once we went to Subway to eat and she had a subway prepaid card she received as a gift and was going to use it, the credit card machine was down, I only had 10 bucks and my cards, so only 10 bucks, so I asked her if she wanted for us to just split something, go 4 miles down the road to the next subway where we could use our cards or to another place to eat, she said just get what i want and she will figure it out, so I got a steak sub and we went outside and I asked what she wanted to do, she said nothing she wasnt hungry... I said lets go somewhere and get you something to eat, she said "no and dont ask me again" like a *****, I said ok, drove home and she goes in my room at 530pm and says she is going to bed for the night...I am thinking WTF? 45 mins goes by and she gets up and says she is going to her house, all in a frenzy mad and pissed.. I cant get a word in and just kind of stand back away from the fire ( my sis is bipolar so growing up if she had episodes as a kid i just left the room or house to get away from them) anyways she calls on her way home yelling at me telling me she has never dated a guy who didnt buy her dinner WTF?? I said, ugh, the card machine was down all i had was 10 bucks, offered us to split a footlong, go to the next subway or out to dinner elsewhere....( i always paid for dinners we were tog about a year when this happened but she had the giftcard and wanted to just use it) Anyways she was flipping and hung up on me. I went nc for like two days until she figured it out...
Anyways I think I just told this story to remind myself I am doing the right thing, I have probably 25 stories like this in nearly 3 years...
This time I can not feel bad or sad or care for her in any way, hard to let someone go even if they are crazy as shiiit and feel like a best friend but my God no one deserves this unstable abusive treatment...