I have a hard time being myself in groups. It's like, as soon as a third person hits the fray, my state just diminishes and my ego comes in and ruins it all. I end up becoming silent and restricted from expressing myself for the rest of my night and trapped in my mind. This has been going on forever. It's destroying my spirit.
I want to just let go and be myself in front of people. Even groups of kids that I don't know that well. I mean how else do you make friends? I don't masturbate anymore, been 2 and half weeks in. I've been working out at the gym for a month. Overall I feel really good when I'm by myself or around one other person. But I feel disconnected from everyone. Still. With this excess of energy flowing in my stomach.
It seems like everyone else can just go off on their own random tangents comfortably. I sometimes can but it's very rare. I think the internet has ruined my social skills. Reading seduction knowledge constantly all the time has just made me more over-analytical and I haven't been taking more steps in the right direction. I think the right move is to quit Facebook, quit sosuave, and go out and get a real life so I do have things worthy of talking about. Because as of now, I really don't except extreme nerd concepts lol.
I can't explain it. It's like I find most conversation be completely pointless and uninteresting and dull. I'm like a dead inside, I don't find anyone else interesting, I don't find myself interesting, or anything interesting. I guess maybe I just need to get off the internet for good, go out, get a job and get moving in the outside world. I've heard things like the computer ruining socialization skills if abused. Is there any merit to this?
I want to just let go and be myself in front of people. Even groups of kids that I don't know that well. I mean how else do you make friends? I don't masturbate anymore, been 2 and half weeks in. I've been working out at the gym for a month. Overall I feel really good when I'm by myself or around one other person. But I feel disconnected from everyone. Still. With this excess of energy flowing in my stomach.
It seems like everyone else can just go off on their own random tangents comfortably. I sometimes can but it's very rare. I think the internet has ruined my social skills. Reading seduction knowledge constantly all the time has just made me more over-analytical and I haven't been taking more steps in the right direction. I think the right move is to quit Facebook, quit sosuave, and go out and get a real life so I do have things worthy of talking about. Because as of now, I really don't except extreme nerd concepts lol.
I can't explain it. It's like I find most conversation be completely pointless and uninteresting and dull. I'm like a dead inside, I don't find anyone else interesting, I don't find myself interesting, or anything interesting. I guess maybe I just need to get off the internet for good, go out, get a job and get moving in the outside world. I've heard things like the computer ruining socialization skills if abused. Is there any merit to this?