I know certain chick for a longer while, we know each other for 4 or 5 months, the goal is obvious, I wanna take her virginity (she's 22). Starting from begining. I knew her for about a month and she invited me to her house in her home town(she study in another city), it was pretty clear how it would turn out... well unfortunately it didnt... as a virgit she got scared just before i was about to do the job, managed to only finger her after that. I tried all i could and it didnt work, gladly im not beating myself up for that (I did for a while as i thought it was my fault). After that things went quite bad, as I didnt know my way around women, i thought if i show her that im interested in relationship with her, we would repeat the thing. Unfortunately she didnt like it, she didnt want to repeat it since she was afraid im falling in love with her (she didnt want relationship with me). For a long while I didnt know that. I just kept doing it. So after some time we meet again. She didnt even want to kiss, although i menaged to atleast play with her tits, she couldnt resist after all. But that was all, she didnt let me do anything more. So i was confused and told her i want to be with her. Well as expected she said somehing about "not being ready" and want to stay as friends <sick>. I was even more confused, friend but im still turning her on? wth, so out of all this I just cut the contact with her for a short while. I still hoped for a relationship (I was in love). Didnt work well for a longer while, I spoke to her (I know I know, I shouldnt, I just want to **** her). Things went well, weird. She was acting like she wants to be with me, for example. said she is dumb and sorry for setting up a date with someone else, and similar things. I thought she wants relationship after all, but well, I was wrong and **** went rly bad again. I was so pissed off at her, hell im supposed to know what she wants. So i just left until I could say I no longer desire a relationship. I came back and after some short time I confronted her. I told her what I want, I want to repeat waht was at the begining, said some stuff about falling in love since i thought she wanted a man (taht was bit longer and far more deeper), anyway it worked better than I expected. We meet again, we spent 2 days together, kissing all the time and at last day, I went for boobs, was playing with her, sucking them, she was saying im doing it real good, so i moved on to her pants and started fingering her, she was moaning pretty nicely, then I moved her hand to my pants, she well stripped my pants off, but then she said, "but I wont blow u" i didnt say anything just let her jerk me off (didnt explode, thats too weak for me) and that was it, she didnt want more. She didnt want to go to her house (we were doing all this stuff in park). Well honestly after all the **** I was doing, it still wasnt bad, but honestly I want more. I know im very physicaly attractive to her (wet as waterfall). I just dont know what to do now. Btw. she doesnt date neither kiss//hug any other man besides me (she is pretty hot, but with low self-esteen). She got some attention, but I told her im not interested in her dating stuff and she never mentioned it again.
Now i seek your advice or opinion. What im supposed to do? Be patient and wait for another meeting or is there any possibility that she doesnt want to do anything more with me. Basicaly how do I move to another step? What if I tell her I want to repeat "our first night" ofc by saying "how about watching movies in your house(thats what we did at first), with bit push to let her know what i want".
PS. (I got another chick getting rdy, not making mistackes i did with this one)
Now i seek your advice or opinion. What im supposed to do? Be patient and wait for another meeting or is there any possibility that she doesnt want to do anything more with me. Basicaly how do I move to another step? What if I tell her I want to repeat "our first night" ofc by saying "how about watching movies in your house(thats what we did at first), with bit push to let her know what i want".
PS. (I got another chick getting rdy, not making mistackes i did with this one)