i don't post a lot but i have been going through things lately. I haven't been on the computer a lot lately because i started to believe the only help is self help. I believe you can only comprehend things if you experience them to some extent. like andre of outkast said, "speeches only reach those who already know about it". It's sort of like when you have a test in school, you can memorize everything and pass the test, but when it comes time to apply the information, you never really knew what the hell it was you were memorizing. Don't get me wrong, everything in the dj bible is true, but come on now, it is only saying things that you already knew to some extent. "Don't be afraid to approach her" one thread might say, and you will read it and be like "yes this is true" but man, you already knew this.
I started improving when i stopped thinking positive and started thinking real. One day at work, i was so mad and depressed. I usually just don't give a **** when i feel like this and stay to myself. But this time (about a month ago) something in my head said **** it be mad. I started thinking about all the things i didn't like about my life, from childhood on up, going through all the negative things that affected me to this day. I was even thinking, "man your such a *****, feeling sorry for yourself" but i kept thinking of all the bad about me, i was dam near on the verge of tears, but everything i was thinking was true, I was getting out all of the negative **** that was in my head, just being real with my self. After i got everything out i felt like i was a lunatic. I felt kind of numb. I was thinking to myself, "okay, it can't get anyworse than this." I couldn't think of anything else bad.
Then i started thinking about all of the things in my life without distinguishing positive from negative. I then started to realize there were a lot positive things in my past and there were a lot of blessings in my life that i didn't even recognize. There were a lot of things about my self that were tight. I wasn't trying to think positive or negative, i was just being real with myself. I wasn't trying to be happy. While i was thinking i was emotionally numb. And without any emotions (anger, happiness, etc.) hindering my thoughts, everything i was saying was real. When i though something negative, i was think, "dam that hurts, but it's true, oh well" and it made me happy because i wasn't lying to myself.
I started coming up with answers with all types of questions in my head, questions i usually avoided because i was afraid of the answer. I don't know if yall are understanding what i'm saying, but this all is one hundred percent from the heart. I just had to share this with someone. Most of these tips are good on this board, but it's hard to follow something someone else says if it doesn't come from you. Even what i'm writing is a tip, so you might not understand it 100 percent.
Just be real with yourself. Ask yourself detailed questions. Listen to yourself, and do what you say. If not you will hate yourself because then you have lied to yourself by not doing what you know you should do.
I just needed to get this out in the open.
I started improving when i stopped thinking positive and started thinking real. One day at work, i was so mad and depressed. I usually just don't give a **** when i feel like this and stay to myself. But this time (about a month ago) something in my head said **** it be mad. I started thinking about all the things i didn't like about my life, from childhood on up, going through all the negative things that affected me to this day. I was even thinking, "man your such a *****, feeling sorry for yourself" but i kept thinking of all the bad about me, i was dam near on the verge of tears, but everything i was thinking was true, I was getting out all of the negative **** that was in my head, just being real with my self. After i got everything out i felt like i was a lunatic. I felt kind of numb. I was thinking to myself, "okay, it can't get anyworse than this." I couldn't think of anything else bad.
Then i started thinking about all of the things in my life without distinguishing positive from negative. I then started to realize there were a lot positive things in my past and there were a lot of blessings in my life that i didn't even recognize. There were a lot of things about my self that were tight. I wasn't trying to think positive or negative, i was just being real with myself. I wasn't trying to be happy. While i was thinking i was emotionally numb. And without any emotions (anger, happiness, etc.) hindering my thoughts, everything i was saying was real. When i though something negative, i was think, "dam that hurts, but it's true, oh well" and it made me happy because i wasn't lying to myself.
I started coming up with answers with all types of questions in my head, questions i usually avoided because i was afraid of the answer. I don't know if yall are understanding what i'm saying, but this all is one hundred percent from the heart. I just had to share this with someone. Most of these tips are good on this board, but it's hard to follow something someone else says if it doesn't come from you. Even what i'm writing is a tip, so you might not understand it 100 percent.
Just be real with yourself. Ask yourself detailed questions. Listen to yourself, and do what you say. If not you will hate yourself because then you have lied to yourself by not doing what you know you should do.
I just needed to get this out in the open.