My Self Improvement Log

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I thought about just buying a notebook and keeping track of my progress but I figured it would be more fun to just post it on here, since telling other people what i want to do will give me more motivation to stick to my goals. The two main things I want to work on is to get a bad ass social life and to get my health back to normal.
Sometime in my late teens i developed an overeating disorder which has effected my life a lot. It's made me become depressed and anxious and pretty much wiped out a lot of my energy and motivation in life. I really need to get this taken care of since I'm positive it is the reason why my social life has decreased. I'm not overweight or look bad, but eating too much effects me in a way where it is difficult for me to live a full life. Basically, when I overeat I don't full good, which makes it hard to be social and fun.
Socially, I need to start putting myself out there more. I put up a shield where I don't let people get too close, which keeps me from building a social life. My life doesn't suck, but I know I have the potential to make it much better, which is what this thread is all about. When it comes to girls I find it easy to get them attracted to me but screw it up by just not caring enough to push things further. I blame this on my health and lack of energy/motivation. I will be updating this everyday until I get to the point where I am happy and satisfied with my life. I will try and keep things interesting by giving myself little goals to accomplish throughout this journey. Thanks.

 

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i also want to cut down on my internet time drastically. its a huge waste of time for me, but for some reason im always on it.

 

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been sick the past few days so didn't do much except sleep. ive noticed that i can stop overeating but its giving me some weird withdrawel symptoms. talked to a girl today even though i wasn't feeling completely good but still made something work. i dont find her hot at all but she might have hot friends so i tried to be friendly. need to get a job this week too. not having a car will make this difficult but im still gonna try since the buses here run all around town. ill have a more interesting update tomorrow.

 

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good luck man! ill be checkin in with ya

 

[Vice]

What kind of withdrawals are you having? I'm kicking caffeine/sodas/energy drinks for GOOD, and I get mild cravings for two weeks, then I'm fine for the rest of the time. Oh, and there's the headache I get about two or three days after my last caffeinated drink.

 

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headache, lethargy, mild depression. not that bad. i dont even want to call what i have a real addiction. it is just me being bored and miserable with the lame life ive created for myself and looking for happiness in food. time for me to fill the void with an awesome life instead of eating.

 

[Vice]

It's a mild addiction. I get the same things when I stop drinking energy drinks. Discipline alone should easily help you through this. And you already know the answer; replace eating with a more productive way of dealing with boredom.

That's why I sold my desktop and bought a laptop; I spend all day in a cafe in a busy area of the city, and it keeps me away from lethargy and boredom.

 

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had a good day. wanted to overeat a few times but fought it. since i made mature decisions i felt good and was able to be productive all day. still don't feel 100% yet. mild headache remains and my skin is starting to clear up. i've noticed my overeating was heavily related to my thinking. the more negative and cynical the more i wanted to eat, so ive been keeping my thoughts in check and remaining upbeat and positive. my updates are going to be a little boring for a few days as i get my health together but i will get to girls very soon. sadly i have bigger fish to fry first though. still having a little problem with the internet, but ive definitely cut back. new goal: start paying close attention in class. im sitting there so i might as well learn, instead of having to go home and study twice as hard to make up for what i missed in class.

 

[Vice]

Breakfast is the most important meal of the day; it sets the tone for the rest of your day. If you eat healthy in the morning, you will be more inclined to continue that momentum and eat healthy for the rest of the day.

As for the thinking, the more you think, the more those thoughts are etched and reinforced in your brain. The neural connections in your brain literally get stronger, and a chemical called mylenin will coat the connections and act as an insulator. This is why NLP uses the tool of interrupting thought patterns.

I think that "Personal Power II" by Anthony Robbins is a MUST if you want to get your sh*t together. You can download it for free at the usual places. And you're in a prime mental state to go through it too; check it out if you're serious about changing your life.

 

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ill download that today for sure. thanks.

 

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another good day. only ate three times today. im very glad i started this journal. I feel like it's not a coincidence that i have had the most productive few days ive had in a while since starting this. i think a good challenge tomorrow would be to see if i can eat a very small breakfast lunch and dinner. I will just eat a granola bar for each meal. Giving my digestive system a break is very necessary since i have been abusing it for so many years. If i can eat this light then I think I can get my health back to the point before my overeating started. i've tried this before and failed, but this time i feel i have the proper mental state to beat it. i also drastically cut down on my internet time the past few days. it feels good not to be checking facebook and messageboards every 20 minutes. although they have some benefits, those sites are just social masturbation.

Goals for tomorrow: Eat just a granola bar for each meal. Get a lead on a job. Approach 1 girl.

as i get a handle on my addiction and get my health back my goals will become more socially oriented (approaches, dates, making new friends etc) but I need to truly feel I have a handle on my food problem first. Making plans with someone then having to cancel because i overate and feel sick is something i have encountered too many times before. no more of that. ill listen to tony tomorrow morning to get motivation!

 

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had a slip up today. overate in the morning because i woke up with a headache. however, i didn't binge as much as i used to. the good news is even though i overate i didn't feel sick and was able to be productive the rest of the day which tells me the past few days of watching what i ate helped my health a lot. i was busy all day with a project for my advertising class and didn't have much time to job hunt and talk to girls. Tomorrow I have the whole day so I will get those done then.

Goals for tomorrow: Eat just three healthy meals. Only check websites once during the day. Approach 2 girls. Get closer to landing a job. Do something that is out of my comfort zone socially.

I've noticed this is a very all or nothing situation I am in. If I find myself browsing the internet aimlessly for a long time I start feeling low which makes me want to eat. Also, if I am not being social I feel low and want to eat. I am starting to realize a lot of my problems didn't come from my addiction, but rather my addiction came from me not knowing how to properly handle my problems. Therefore I have decided that getting rid of my addiction and getting girls/ a strong social life are going to go hand in hand rather than one after the other. I will have a good day and therefore a good update tomorrow!

 

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Alright, been gone for awhile cuz i had other stuff in my life to focus on other than girls. Time to get back in the game. Daily updates starting tomorrow.