My sad story and why i want to be a DJ.

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hello fellow DJ'ers and aspiring DJ wanna be's.

this is my mini introduction.

I just got off from a mini relationship, my first one ever (YAY?). It can never be too late lol.

So anyway, met this chick in february, hit it off, got closer, lost my virginity to her (YAY again?), it can never be too late (i'm 21 BTW)

then she had to go on vacation and met some guy there WHO SHE GOT ENGAGED TO IN A MATTER OF 2 WEEKS, WTF, so i got into a fight with her and told her to go **** herself (YAY FOR ME AGAIN?).

Since i got too close AND attached to her, i was devastated which brings me to this point here that **** relationships and all that crap, i want girls and lots of them.

I am not attractive by any means, on 1-10 scale, i'm maybe a 6, ya so anyways, i NEXTED this girl and now 2 weeks into NC with her and have no intentions of getting back into contact with her, though i do miss her for some reason, she cried, blah blah "i'm your friend and you shouldn't do this, blah blah blah", i just told her to **** off.

Anyways, i have started on the DJ bible and reading some inner game stuff because that's what i lack the most, very shy guy, low confident and low esteem, and insecure as well.

I am sick and tired of this AFC crap and being a nice guy, i know what i have to work on and am giving myself 2 months to read materials and go out and apply what i learn on the field.

The point of this whole thing is and the reason as to why i am joining the community is that i want to find who i am, as of right now, i dont know, i have no hobbies but i just signed up for the gym and MMA, i ditched the people i normally hang out with most because the chick is also good friends with people i know so and i dont want to hear anything about her so basically i am starting from scratch.

I hope i can reach my goals because i want to be a better person, i know i have the potential but not until i do something about it i will never reach it. So today is where my training starts.

wish me luck guys

 

[Desdinova]

then she had to go on vacation and met some guy there WHO SHE GOT ENGAGED TO IN A MATTER OF 2 WEEKS, WTF,

LOL! Women do the dumbest 5hit when they're purely following their emotions. Did I ever tell you about the woman I caught lying to me about birth control? She had a very good reason for doing it! That reason escapes me at this time because it wasn't a very fvcking good reason.

I am not attractive by any means, on 1-10 scale, i'm maybe a 6,

Well I've got some good news for you... A woman won't necessarily turn you down because you're physically unattractive. If you can show her a good time, make her emotions jump around like happy school children, she'll stick to you like peanut butter and won't give a damn if you're not that 'dark and handsome' bull5hit women say they want.

Take the things women say with a grain of salt. And don't be so goddam hard on your physical appearance. Besides, do you REALLY know what a sexy man looks like? Your expertise should be on what sexy women look like, so quit judging yourself on your looks.

she cried, blah blah "i'm your friend and you shouldn't do this, blah blah blah", i just told her to **** off.

Good job on not falling for her crap and kicking her dumb ass out of your life. Most other guys would try to 'win her back' by keeping her as friends or buying her flowers. You did the right thing.

The point of this whole thing is and the reason as to why i am joining the community is that i want to find who i am,

You'll do better than that... you'll refine who you are and make yourself a better person. You already know who you are and what you want to change:

very shy guy, low confident and low esteem, and insecure as well.

You're already well on your journey. You know what you need to fix. Now the task is to start fixing it.

wish me luck guys

You have my luck, and you're getting a rep point for a fantastic first post.

 

[DJVladdy]

This place has become a fvcken joke, you will be better off getting some direction elsewhere. It's funny and sad to me at the same time because this site helped me change my life and perspective.. but now its embarassing to even look at some of the post titles. Now its total sh!t.

 

[daygameguy]

You sound like you are going the right way. Your head seems to be in the right direction. Best of luck.

Not to discourage you, but this is a fact, this site is more like a pass-time activity, with very few solid posts here and there.

Nonetheless, coming here once a while, will expand your perspective on handling women.

 

[DrD77]

I would expect someone's first post on this site to be really clueless about what it means to be an DJ, but you seem to have a good idea.