My relentless journal for 2014

[narcissist]

Today's actions that positively benefited my goals:

- I kept my house clean
- I worked out abs when i got home from school
- I did my assignment
- I ate a lot of food
- Talked to a sh*t load of tinder girls


Today's actions the negatively impacted my goals:


- I drank coffee
- At school I did not take down notes
- I was kind of rude to someone i lived with today, but she was being extremely intrusive. Regardless i want to approach situations with positivity



Today is not going to be a huge post seeing as i am very tired, and I had a massive migraine last night, and i can still feel its effects. I just want to thank everyone who is tuning into my journal and anyone who sends me positive motivation! I really appreciate it and believe me it goes along way! Love you guys like brothers. You guys are essentially my online brothers, and youve helped me come a very long way!



My goals for tomorrow:

- Go to dentist - talk about tooth sensitivity
- Eat a big breakfast
- Do not drink any coffee
- drink enough water
- Go to the gym
- Read chapter from "The Power of Habit"
- Read rest of psychology chapter for school
- start reading and making notes for sociology class
- stay positive - RESEARCH ONLINE TIPS FOR LIVING POSITIVELY
- clean up my house - even though its very clean - tidy up a bit
- write a larger post in my journal tomorrow
- create a thread on positivity


I have to start flossing at least once a day and brushing my teeth 3 times a day, no questions asked! lol

 

[narcissist]

Revelations - I

As I sit here, drinking my green tea and listening intently to some chilled out ambient mix on YouTube I have come to a couple of major realizations that I would most definitely like to share in my journal.

These realizations that I have come to have been lingering around in my soul for the past couple weeks but just now have they solidified themselves into something that I can actually write down.

So before I state my realizations I would like to explain something first.

What I am about to tell you about myself may come as a surprise and it may not. I would probably bet money that most if not ALL of us on this forum can in some way relate to this inherent truth about me, seeing as it is an inherent truth AMONG all men.

I need to explain to you all that I have come to a conclusion that everything that I do and have done in the past, all of my actions, all of my behaviour, and my drives, and emotions, all of my goals and aspirations, the things i say, the looks i give, everything down to my idiosyncratic movements are directly or indirectly caused and driven by THE VAG.

Working out, getting physically fit, attaining the utmost grades, eating healthy, "becoming the best man i can"... everything. It has been indirectly caused by my addiction to pvssy. Think about it. Why do we work to get money? to impress the ladies. Why do we work out? to get the ladies to stare.

Well this has been the main drive for me personally.

up until now.


Revelation 1 - I will consciously STOP gauging my actions whether they get me pvssy or not

Revelation 2 - I will gauge my actions on whether it will help me leave behind a legacy or not

Revelation 3 - I will make a concerted effort to strip my self of the BIOLOGICAL NEED of sexual desire




I have realized that THE VAG has me completely and utterly distracted from what really matters. I have realized that I am letting this vice get in the way of me living my life. It is slowly but surely occupying my every thought. I do not want to live my life a slave to the vag, I would rather make a concerted effort to be a boss FOR ME and gain an education FOR ME and work out FOR ME and become the best damn fvcking person i can FOR ME.

I think a lot of people on here live their lives letting the vag take over them and consume them. IT IS NOT A LIFE WORTH LIVING.

THE BEST LIFE IS MOULDING YOURSELF. THE BEST LIFE IS CONTRIBUTING TO SOCIETY TO MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE, HELP THE WORLD OUT. THE BEST LIFE IS LIVING LIFE FREE, FREE TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO. LIVING LIFE FOR A BIGGER AND BETTER CAUSE.

For one. I am fvcking DONE living my life for pvssy. FVCK THAT.

I am going to never ever ever stop bettering myself. ever. But now i want to do it for a bigger and better cause. I want to help the world out, i want to make the place we live a better place. I dont give a sh!t if i dont change the world. If i change one person thats all the matters. I want to make our planet more positive.

So, now that i have said it I will continue with my goals and I will continue with my journal.

Goal number one: Attain a 4.0 GPA and apply for Psych specialist
- I will be going for a Psychology PhD

Goal number two: Workout like an absolute monster - weigh 180lbs 6% BF by june 2015

Goal number three: Read 1 book a month minimum
- vastly expand my knowledge on the world and the things around me and become the smartest person that I can possibly become

Goal number four: Lead a positive life.



Im just want to let you guys know that I dont see myself giving a fvck about getting girls anymore. I go out and i can get them easily. Since ive been on this site and i broke up with my ex ive slept with 5 different women and done other sexual sh*t with many MANY different girls. I just dont care anymore. Its affecting me too much and becoming WAY to much of a distraction for the BIGGER more IMPORTANT things in life. I was to transcend my biological needs and urges for sexual desire because my life could easily turn to sh*t if i let it control my life. ON TOP OF THAT, women in todays day and age are FVCKED psychologically. And Obviously i know how to work my way around that, but they are like nazi's with their perpetual gauging tactics. And its getting too tiring bruhs. I would rather become a fvcking doctor and work on myself to reach MY POTENTIAL. If a girl wants to sleep with me and im down then i will, but im not putting in ANY WORK AT ALL.


this is just what has been on my mind for the past couple months, and ive fully realized what i need to do.

Please, you guys, dont let pvssy ruin your life! lift up above you biological need to fvck and transcend it. You guys are better than that and i know you guys can do it..

become the best damn man you can, become a fvcking boss, and make a difference, or fvcking die trying. Fvck woman, they are a waste of time in my opinion. Life is short, spend it on the IMPORTANT THINGS.

till next time.

peace bruhs

 

[narcissist]

I am going to try meditation tomorrow as well.

30 minutes.

Ill tell you bros how it goes.

 

[narcissist]

Today in my journal I will be creating an organized daily routine for each of my goals. This makes it so I have to attend to each activity and it will help me achieve my goals respectively, instead of waking up and accomplishing them blindly, which obviously would still have some effects but they would be miniscule compared to the achievements I would encounter if my plan was organized.

Diet and exercise

For this I actually already have a diet and exercise plan but it’s on the first page so I will copy and paste it right after this post. I haven’t been extremely diligent with my workouts, such as documenting everything so I will post a workout update EACH WEEK on Sunday in my journal. The first one starting today. Everything that it includes will be in my next post.

Hygiene

- every morning/night cleanse face and moisturize
- every morning, afternoon, and night brush teeth and rinse w/Listerine
- every night floss teeth
- keep nails trimmed and clean
- wash hands before, after eating, and after using the washroom
- keep a clean haircut
- keep clothes clean and smelling good

School/education

- on the days that I am off from school study for 5 hours minimum. Timed.
- keep notes organized
- never be late to class/go to every class
- read all the readings
- ask TA’s for help on assignments
- read a new book every month - read for 15-30 mins before bed

Positivity

- meditate
- listen to chilled out music
- avoid negative influences


I know that ive done this on this journal like a good 10 times, but i need to jam it into my psyche. This stuff needs to get done in my life and if I continue to do these things in 6 months I will be a much different person! So it is tedious and Nazi-like BUT I have to do it, because it helps me.

I am also going to be doing a full post tomorrow on POSITIVITY.

 

[narcissist]

Okay this is my workout plan for the next 12 weeks, and i might implement it for a further 12 weeks if the gains are there.

Monday - LEGS

1. Squats - 5 x 6 reps
2. Leg press - 3 x 8 reps
3. Leg curl - 3 x 8 reps
4. Lunges - 2 x 8 reps
5. Calf raises - 3 x 15 reps

Wednesday - SHOULDERS/BICEPS

1. Shoulder press - 3 x 8
2. Dumbbell side laterals - 3 x 8
3. Bent over Dumbbell raise - 2 x 8
4. Standing military press - 3 x 8
5. Standing barbell curl - 3 x 8
6. Hammer curl - 2 x 8
7. incline bench curl - 2 x 8

Friday - CHEST/TRICEPS

1. Barbell incline press - 3 x 6
2. Dumbbell chest press - 3 x 6
3. Dumbbell incline flies - 3 x 6
4. Push ups - 3 x 12
5. Dips - 3 x 8
6. Close Grip Bench press - 3 x 8
7. Overhead extensions - 2 x 8
8. Push downs - 2 x 8

Saturday - BACK/BICEPS

1. Deadlifts - 3 x 8
2. Seated rows - 3 x 8
3. Lat pulldowns - 3 x 8
4. Wide grip pull ups - 2 x 8
5. Standing barbell curl - 3 x 8
6. Hammer curl - 2 x 8
7. Preacher curl - 2 x 8


and as for my diet it will go something like this:

Protein intake - 230g/day
Carb intake - 375g/day
Fat intake - 60g/day
Caloric intake - 3400 cal/day

Meal 1:
weight gain shake

Meal 2:
Salmon/tuna
veggies
perogies

Meal 3:
2 scoops whey + skim milk
2 pb and j sandwhiches with 12 grain whole wheat bread
banana

Meal 4:
Beef
veggies
potatoes/perogies/pasta

Meal 5:
chicken
veggies
rice/sweet potatoes

Meal 6:
beef
veggies

going to keep the diet very simplistic because this is what has ben messing up my gains for the past year of working out. i havent had a proper diet to gain mass and i need to pack on muscle and the only way to do that is a mutually exclusive regiment of diet and workout so as long as i hit my macros i should be good.

also for supliments ill be taking

creatine
multivitamin
fishoil pills
and xtend - which is batched chained amino acids - helps with muscle recover

 

[narcissist]

foods high in protein
- chicken breast
- eggs
- egg whites
- whey protein
- greek yogurt
- whole milk
- chocolate milk
- ground beef
- ground turkey
- turkey bacon
- tuna
- salmon
- cottage cheese

Food high in carbohydrates

- pasta
- perogies
- potatoes
- sweet potatoes
- whole wheat bread
- brown rice
- bananas
- bagels
- oats***
- milk

Foods high in good fats
- peanut butter
- almond butter
- avacado
- flax seed oil

ONE MORE THING: i am actually going to be dirty bulking because it is extremely hard for me to gain weight and clean bulking would take me an eternity to put on 1 lb. SO i will be dirty bulking, as i have seen the best results for me on dirty bulks. obviously im not going to be scarfing down mcdonalds but i wont be eating chicken rice and broccoli 6 times a day if u catch my drift.

 

[narcissist]

MY WORKOUT PROGRESS:

Date: Saturday, March 1st, 2014

Weight: 152 lbs

Days I ate caloric surplus this past week
monday: yes
tuesday: yes
wednesday: yes
thursday: no
friday: no
saturday: yes
sunday: TBD

Ill document these each week as they are the fundemental basis of my workouts:

bench: 185 lbs
deadlift: 225 lbs
squat: 185 lbs
shoulderpress (dumb bell): 60's


i will also be getting a workout journal to document it at home too. Tedious but it works. At least until ive BUILT the habits.

 

[narcissist]

Getting back on this journal on thursday when I am done exams.

I have a lot to update on. Been spinning 2 plates who i am sleeping with, and another plate whom im going to sleep with after exams.

A lot of dates and sh*t.

Will update everything on thursday after exams, just a lot of studying and sh*t.

 

[Ronaldo7]

Very good progress. Reading always expands the mind and provides you with knowledge and enlightenment.

One thing though. You mentioned how you had the narcissist complex as well in the other thread. I can't help but notice that you do not exhibit this in any way, shape or form. Even the way you write or even in the interactions with people that you've posted.

In regards to the gym, you should be eating quality protein/carbs. It isn't about eating a chicken wrap. It's about eating 8 or more of chicken, white/brown rice depending when and a good salad with no dressing. That's what differentiates between how much of a quality bulk you'll attain. How many times a day do you drink the protein shake? Are you currently taking a Mass Gainer or simple protein? Are you taking vitamins?

 

[narcissist]

Very good progress. Reading always expands the mind and provides you with knowledge and enlightenment.

One thing though. You mentioned how you had the narcissist complex as well in the other thread. I can't help but notice that you do not exhibit this in any way, shape or form. Even the way you write or even in the interactions with people that you've posted.

In regards to the gym, you should be eating quality protein/carbs. It isn't about eating a chicken wrap. It's about eating 8 or more of chicken, white/brown rice depending when and a good salad with no dressing. That's what differentiates between how much of a quality bulk you'll attain. How many times a day do you drink the protein shake? Are you currently taking a Mass Gainer or simple protein? Are you taking vitamins?

hey thanks bro for the support.

I am clinically diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder. But I am also on my way to becoming a clinical psychologist so I do realize that these diagnosis's can be placed on people who dont actually have the disorder. In fact medicalization sort of backs up my arguement and mental illness is extremely hard to come to a wide consensus about in terms of diagnosing, so I am not sure if i take that label too seriously.

It is not causing me maladaptive behaviours, so I dont really worry about it. But to clarify, not that im trying to conform to the label that has been placed upon me, even though it is ironic that i say that cus of my username, but I love myself to probably an unhealthy degree and I do consider myself way greater than the majority of people on this earth in terms of my intellectual capacity, my attractiveness, my perspective on life (perpetual betterment), my work ethic, literally everything except maybe race or gender but then again it creeps in sometimes. Beyond that my self esteem is vastly offended/injured when others dont agree with me. I can feel very rejected at times.

I can hide my narcissism very well though, because i've known about my own narcissism for a while and have come up with social tactics to disguise it.




Beyond that, my diet is pretty good actually, I have it down to a science.

Macros:
Protein intake - 230g/day
Carb intake - 375g/day
Fat intake - 60g/day
Caloric intake - 3400 cal/day

Supplements:
creatine
multivitamin
fishoil pills
and xtend

Weight gain shake
- 1 cup of oats
- litre of whole milk
- two bananas
- half cup of blueberries
- 2 scoops of whey protein
- table spoon of peanut butter

if you go to my first page my workout schedule is there.

5 days a week - usually 3 sets for each specific workout and 6-8 reps, try to do max weight

and I focus around deadlifts, squats, incline chest press and military press as those are the best workouts for mass. Obviously on different days, when im working out different muscle groups accordingly. But i also incorporate many other workouts. Check it out if you want. its on the first page.



only problem i have is achieving my macros so i dirty bulk, and get subway sandwiches and shawarmas and sh*t. NEVER mcdonalds or fast food chains

 

[Ronaldo7]

No problem. That's what we are here for. Improving one another and becoming the best version of ourselves that we can be.

I love myself to probably an unhealthy degree and I do consider myself way greater than the majority of people on this earth in terms of my intellectual capacity, my attractiveness, my perspective on life (perpetual betterment), my work ethic, literally everything except maybe race or gender but then again it creeps in sometimes. Beyond that my self esteem is vastly offended/injured when others dont agree with me. I can feel very rejected at times.

I feel like i'm talking to myself here. It's incredible how you pinpointed the exact words. Everything you said is literally like staring back at the mirror. My reflection. I'm inclined to believe that we would be very good friends.

If you don't mind me asking, what tactics do you apply?

Well done. You figured out the numbers, which is very important. What's your current weight and height? Have you tried post workout supplements? Amino acids is also something you might want to look into. That's a very good shake. Do you drink it after working out or before? If before, what do you take after working out? Dirty bulking is logical if you are using milk in your shake.
3 sets and 6-8 reps each time? You might want to do a warm up set with a high number of reps with lower weight first. This sets you up to be pumped for the real sets. You might also want to try doing 15-20 reps, 12-15, 10-12, 8-10, 6-8. Doing 6-8 reps is your max and almost going to failure. That builds strength. High reps build muscle. Example: When doing alternate curls, you might want to go with 15 reps on each arm.
Hm. Deadlifts builds a lot of strength, but it can be costly due to propensity to injury. It is an exercise that builds everything. It would something like 10 in 1.

I'm guessing you are lanky/skinny if you are going with the dirty bulk. Just remember that the dirty bulk accumulates a lot of fat and some people end up bulking for life. If you must get Subway or shawarmas, do get them in wheat bread. Also, no dressing or sauce. Add plenty of veggies. Cucumbers, lettuce, tomatoes, green peppers, onions, black olives, spinach. Turkey is the best protein you can get at Subway.

 

[narcissist]

Okay so I just finished my exams yesterday and I believe I did very good on them.

I have only gotten one grade back which was an 87%. Not my best, but it is still good for being at the #1 school in canada.

After I got home yesterday from my exams I went to one of my plates houses and smoked some shisha and drank a celebratory beer (I dont usually drink ever) and we proceeded to have passionate sex in her aunts bed hahaha.

She is 18, very beautiful in the face, but maybe 10 pounds over weight. Overall i would say she is a 7/10

She is 1 out of 3 plates that i am spinning right now.


I have to admit now that i follow plate theory, how integral it is in terms of not being a desperate pandering phaggot. the fact that I am literally have sex with 3 girls right now is liberating. I dont feel the need to keep them around and could care less if i never see them again, and they can sense it, which makes them WAY more attracted and attached to me.


So i mid as well update with the plates that i am spinning.

plate number 1: hbMMM

This is the girl i stated up above.

She is middle eastern, with blue eyes, and around 5'8, 135lbs. A little overweight which is kind of eh. she could be a 8.5 if she dropped like 10-15 pounds. but whatever.

She obviously wants a relationship. I have only had sex with her twice.

after the first time she sent me this:

HBMMM text: "you basically know how i feel about you and i really wanna know what you wanna do cause if this isnt really going anywhere in the near future can you let me know and we can just be friends because i just dont wan to be wasting my time or yours. You are just so hard to read so i really do not know how you feel about me or anything"

I didnt want to be a beta b1tch so like 2 hours later sent her

my text: "my rule is i only talk in person about this. Ill call you when im free and we'll get together girl."

she texted me like 3-4 times after that

fvck exclusivity.

anyways saw her last night like i said, we didnt talk about it. and i dont plan to. but we fvcked. and it was pretty good

question: what do i say if she brings it up in person? i want to say something that will allow me to continue sleeping with her

plate # 2: HB-alanna

This is my favorite plate right now. She is my type exactly. She is extremely cute and has only had sex with one other guy. but she is dirty in bed.

shes like 7.5/10

she goes to my school, ill be meeting up with her next friday which is when she has her last exam and were going to her house after and im gunna rail the fvck ot of her.


plate # 3 - hb michelle

she is like a 6. well a 7.5 in terms of looks, but she is so. fvcking. annoying.

gunna drop her soon.




okay well, im going to hit the hay. pretty tired. tomorrow i am going to do a more in depth post which is going to document my goals for the summer break.

 

[jurry]

Very interesting posts narcissist. Unlike Ronaldo, I think your name fits pretty well But I think it is pretty common for most people on the site and most people in general to be this way - myself certainly included. I'm not sure how anyone can be clinically diagnosed as "more narcissistic" than another, but that is a whole nother question.

I was particularly impressed by your post on 2/28 about not being sex-obsessed and working to make a difference in the world and trying meditation, which is something I regularly do. It's interesting because there is an unmistakable similarity between the practice of buddhism and meditation and the methods espoused here and elsewhere that are generally successful in attracting women (and people in general). It comes down to just being present in the moment and not all wrapped up in your mind and thoughts that will just distract us and make us suffer. If we are desperately grasping for women then that is when we are least successful. If we are preoccupied with all the thoughts and feelings and doubts going on in our mind, we are not present here and able to succeed at what we want to do.

The caveat here is how this ability is used. The analogy of a Jedi vs. the Dark Side from Star Wars always fit pretty well for me with this. When we gain this great power for ourselves to be present and comfortable and bend the world to our whims, what is it we are using it for? What is the "right" way to use it with women? If we spend our whole life obsessed with money, our looks, and banging as many girls as we can, is there any lasting value to this for ourselves and the world we live in? Is "spinning plates" necessary to keep us motivated and feeling good about ourselves, or is it just another way to fill the void of emptiness and distract us from how alone we really feel? I don't want to come across as judgmental here and this is an honest question that I have struggled with for some time.

 

[narcissist]

I was particularly impressed by your post on 2/28 about not being sex-obsessed and working to make a difference in the world and trying meditation, which is something I regularly do. It's interesting because there is an unmistakable similarity between the practice of buddhism and meditation and the methods espoused here and elsewhere that are generally successful in attracting women (and people in general). It comes down to just being present in the moment and not all wrapped up in your mind and thoughts that will just distract us and make us suffer. If we are desperately grasping for women then that is when we are least successful. If we are preoccupied with all the thoughts and feelings and doubts going on in our mind, we are not present here and able to succeed at what we want to do.

I agree with you wholeheartedly.

Attachment is the root of all suffering.

In my journey I have been trying to embody a zen like non-attachment to worldly things/possessions, because I realize that they are temporary and growing an attachment to these things will only lead to suffering when I am stripped away from them. Women included. Ironically, it helps me with women, because they tend to be more attracted to me when they see I occupy this air of non-attachment and non-affectivity. But I do not do it for them. I do it for myself and my own soul.

At the end of the day even if I get a girlfriend and she is the best girl ever and she never cheats and she loves me unconditionally, thats great and I will go through the experience. BUT I will die on day, and she will die one day. So I don't take it too too seriously, and realize that IT WILL END no matter what I do. Is that fvcked? maybe. But I truly believe in the life is suffering doctrine that buddha sets fourth, and so I try to rid myself of all suffering as best as I can by following some of his philosophies.

So yeah, that is essentially why I am not sex/obsessed even though it may seem like it on this site, but what people tend to forget is that I don't post everything about myself on this site, But my posts on this site are but a mere subsection of my brain - namely the sexual part. So yeah it may seem one-sided. But it IS a PUA site.

Regardless I still propagate my ideologies on how the best way to live life is to be in a perpetual state of perfectionism and betterment coupled with zen like non-attachment and non-affectivity.

It is almost paradoxical because one should not even be attached to oneself because we are merely sentient beings. Therefore, there is really no reason to better oneself. But I will continue to better myself because it adds meaning to my own life.

 

[narcissist]

Yesterday was pretty funny/fvcked.

I have realized that my journey of becoming a DJ has really started to show itself.

A-lot of the things that are accompanied by a DJ's personality is starting to become second nature to me, whereas 6 months ago I was forcing myself to do it.

Negging, keno, air of mysteriousness, perceived and actual confidence/value.

I noticed this when I found it extremely hard to turn it off in front of my cousins girlfriend at my families easter get together.

She was all over me, and I felt kind of like a sh1t head. Anyways, I made a full thread about this if you guys want to check it out in the main forum and add your thoughts. I would really appreciate it.


Today: Sunday, April 20, 2014

Okay, my plan for today is as followed:

[1] The first thing that I must do is meet up with my older brother for dinner, with him and my mama dukes. They want to celebrate easter. (i am not religious whatsoever) but I will still go and have a fantastic time!

[2] Then when I get back I want to go through my home library and pick our 10 BOOKS and lay them out in front of me. These are going to be the books that I am going to read throughout the summer. I might go to Indigo - which is a local book store - and buy like two or three books, not sure if it is opened today though, due to easter.

[3] Next I am going to set up my wall calendar in my room, and jot down everything I want to do for the upcoming month.

One thing that I want to do this summer is write down 5 things that I have NEVER done before in my life and go and do them with family/girls/friends whatever

So for instance

- skydiving
- paintballing
- white water rafting
- getting a tattoo
- start vlogging

Stuff like that. I haven't decided what I am going to do yet for the 5 things.

But I am doing this so that my summer is at least filled with some exciting experiences, which will make it fulfilling.

[4] Then I am going to meditate. 20 minutes.

[5] After that I am free to just chill around my house and read some books, And I might post a thread on here about some things that I have been considering in terms of being a DJ.



UPDATE ON MY PLATES

------- {plate hbMMM}

When I was at my cousins last night she messaged me to see if I wanted to go out to a club with her and her girl cousin.

hbMMM text: you down to come to gravity tonight or naaaaaaah

me: Wont be able to reach tonight im a little busy with some things girl

( I could have told her i was at my cousins but I want to assume the air of mysteriousness that the forum always talks about )

hbMMM text: You mean busy with other girls ...

and I didn't reply.



------- {hb Michelle}

I basically stopped messaging her because I am going to drop her.

Ever since I stopped messaging her though she started sending me a lot of snap chats of her tits and a$$ lol.

Still going to drop though. She is too annoying for my wellbeing and peace of mind. And to me my peace of mind is more important.

I have to replace her though. Within the next 2 weeks.



------- {hb alanna}

Nothing really. Going to see her next friday. We dont really text a lot or contact when we arent in person. So I doubt we will talk until maybe the upcoming thursday.


GOALS FOR THIS WEEK

My goals for this week are going to be

(1) work out monday, tuesday, thursday, and saturday & eat caloric surplus

(2) hand out 25 resumes

(3) do taxes

(4) get 3-5 new prospects for plate replacement

(5) clean up house

(6) get haircut

(7) sleep with hb michelle one final time before dropping her

(8) meditate, play guitar and read everyday

(9) drink a lot of water


Cant think of anymore. If I do I will post.

Anyways peace out mufukkkkkas, have a fantastic day!

 

[narcissist]

My new anthem

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6fB-BO5XJs

 

[TheMonkeyKing]

My man, I like your idea of a journal and the regimen you are embracing. Inspirational. Am goanna start something similar myself, if a little more condensed....

Looking at one of your original lists, I just have a few comments:

1. Quit coffee
You can't quit everything. I try go for one coffee in the morning, one around three/four pm when I start to flag. Any more is a threat to a boner-fide time.

2. No fap/porn
Good. Something I need to look in to as well.

3. No alcohol/weed
See point 2.

4. Only drink water
Juices are good. But not from concentrate. Warm water is more readily absorbed by the body as heating cold water for absorption is an active process. Where warm water is already warm,therefore absorption is a passive process.

5. Start taking kale shakes
Meh. Just have a salad at lunch man. Vaguely more enjoyable. Forget most of the Hollywood fads.

6. Multivitamin and fish oils every day
Not every day. Every other/third day. Anything can poison you. Anything. Even too much water can 'clinically' drown you.

7. Always be early
Always be early for work/meetings. Don't be early to impress a girl. Ever. You can be half hour early for a date, but she'll be impressed for 30 seconds, if that.

8. Always have a clean room
When a girl comes round.

a. Wipe down desk and laptop everyday
You really do masturbate a lot don't you.

b. Change sheets once a week
And again if you have a birdie round.

c. Vacuum every other day
Excessive. But again, if a girl comes round. May be once a week otherwise.

d. Do one big clean up a month
Little and often. A good chef cleans up as he works.

9. Wash hands more
Don't become OCD dude. Wash if you are dirty/greasy/clammy. Douse wrists in cold water if you're sweating.

10. Make concerted effort to keep house clean
See 8(d).

a. Wash dishes when you see them
Yeah.But they can wait a day. Especially when you just cooked for the lady. Washing up does not follow oysters and champagne.

b. Empty garbage when its full
Common sense. Or when it starts to reek.

11. Don’t swear
Swear when life warrants it. Some chicks like cussing, it's fun. Life allows few avenues for cathartic release, especially in the world of work. You gain respect for saying no more than yes, but you have to be sure it's the right answer.

12. Eat plethora of fruits and veggies
Seconded.

13. Keep clothes clean and fresh
Seconded.

a. Always have hung up
b. Throw bounty sheets in closet and drawer
Excessive. Clean and hung is sufficient. You're a man, not a chick.

c. Keep lint roll in closet
De-lint for work. Are you gonna carry that roll on dates too?

d. Keep shoes tidy
Seconded.

14. Talk to more girls/ cold approach without mercy
Show mercy, but not fear. You are a warrior, not a kidnapper. (NB.listen to the words you use, even when describing your own lifestyle, s will translate, very quickly.

15. Brush teeth 3 times a day and floss before bed
Three is excessive. Gum and mints are good. Check gum line occassionally, before you talk to someone you fancy, for erroneous spinach!

16. Do not engage in arguments
See point 11. A friendly and well-time cuss can a) stem an argument entirely, and b) earns respect. You're a man. You're not gonna get detention/grounded for cussing anymore.

17. Be more chilled/energetic/happy/optimistic
Read The Promise/ Manosphere blogs/ all my comments. Knowledge is power. This list is largely superficial, but a good start. True happiness is intrinsic, not extrinsic.

18. Laugh and smile more
Seconded. Comedy is medicine. Especially live, laughing with others. Get to stand up shows.

19. Cleanse before bed
You gonna do that every night? I stink worse in the morning, so shower then. Brush your teeth before you get in bed with a chick, when you wake up before you kiss her in the morning. Done.

 

[TheMonkeyKing]

20. Cologne. More than one. But repeat the same one with chicks you had a good date with. Olfactory conditioning is most powerful. As the old saying goes, even vegetarians like the smell of bacon =D

 

[narcissist]

Alrighty boys!

Just got back from the gym. Took a shower. Meditated in the shower. Feel refreshed and unbelievably happy. Going to post really quick.

Aight so.

Couple things.

1] I want to reconnect with some of my good friends from highschool, so I am going to link them up this week and see if they wanna come to my gym for the time that they are back in town, for the summer. If not then Im gunna see if they wanna hit downtown and pick up some hunnies or just sit back and drink a couple brews.

2] I want to go out and cold approach once a week, all day. But I dont want to just do it by myself I want to go with one of my good friends who is also into game, So I will also link him up some time this week and tell him the plan.

3] I am getting a job at a local bingo place for the summer, going to go talk to the manager tomorrow. Some girl is hooking me up with he job. I will talk to every single girl there and try and smash. Im only going to have the job for 4 months so whatever.

4] I have to man up and talk to the hunnies at my gym. So many cute ones. They are always looking at me too. They want me to talk to them. I gotta man up. Approach anxiety is getting the better of me.



UPDATE ON CURRENT PLATES


HbAlanna

still havent talked to her. We have a plan to get together on friday after her exam and go to her house to watch a movie. We have already chilled 3 times. And everytime we fooled around a bit. Make out, touching, playing with each others hair. She's totally into me. I will escalate all the way this friday.


HbMMM

She is coming over tomorrow. Gunna slam obviously, seeing as we have already had sex twice. She is bringing shisha.


HbMichelle

Havent talked to her in a bit. Gunna shoot her a text thursday, for a meet up.


HbYas

New plate.

Met her off tinder.

Have a date with her saturday, she already told me she wants a kiss. Its in the bag fellas.


HbKatya

Another girl from tinder. Also set up a date with her on saturday. Don't know which one I'm going to flake on. Might just go see both lol.

The last two I wouldn't really consider plates as I haven't fvcked them yet.





Some thoughts I had today.


I really have to grab my balls and start cold approaching. This anxiety is getting the better of me. I know that if I cold approach and get over my anxiety I will literally have so much sex and girls lined up it isn't even funny. This is the biggest detriment to my success as a DJ. I HAVE TO get over my anxiety.

This is one of the biggest things I will be working on this summer.

 

[narcissist]

Oh I should probably stop using the girls' real names. So from here on out I am going to make up nicknames for the girls like I did with HbMMM