My parents are divorced since i am 6/7 and i have lived for the most at my father's since i am 9. He left me to nature and basically only used me for drama. My mother, too, when i was at hers. When i started to more and more say what i want 3 years ago they would still run their patterns of laughing/ignoring/mocking it or w/e. They are both Cluster B ****s but seem to be able to control theirselves infront of other people. Child Abuse on the highest level.
Well. About half a year ago i started to swallow the pill. And exercise my boundaries with consequences and i am not accepting their bull****. I feel a lot better since then. My interactions with people in general are better and females in general like me more. Bad thing is when i have to talk to my parents i have to walk on Egg Shells. All while my mother has this gravitational sucking in like a Black Hole in which negative emotions are awaiting me and my father is always making subtle fun of my decisions and my interests while on the contrary he is not interested in me at all, even forgetting crucial things like allergies and putting me in situations where i am basically hurting myself by eating something i react to. He even repeatedly forced me when i say i cant, then accused me of acting out of place when i wanted to drop the topic or even raised my voice when he was trying to persuade me for minutes. At least my father is not threatening violence anymore and showing his physical dominance ever since i workout and put on 8 kg from underweight. He stepped up his workout when he saw my new body grow and grow; Narcissistic ****head. I refuse any invitations of him. Accepting both my parents "help" or "assistance" has cost me so much mental health and even my tonsils.
I am 21 and still in learning. I waited tables for a year while in school so when i decide to take on college the following or later semesters there is something i can look out to finance a little room/flat. If it wasn't for waiting tables between hot girls it would've taken years to overcome my anxiety of personal touch.
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Have any of you overcome situations with CLUSTER B PARENTS(Narcissitic, Borderline, Impulsive, Antisocial, Histrionic) or a mom that likes to manipulate into melancholia and a dad who tries to connect with gossip? Both have different types of guilt manipulation. I can't fight them with logic and their frames are over 40 years old and so manifested. I don't want to end like them.
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There are eggshells everywhere and censoring yourself to the point where you basically game yourself into bad situations is not healthy. Whenever i come out of a conversation with them i have those fights in my head where i yell and yell "no" and sometimes cuss around to get out of this self censorship and those conversation frames that always drift the ship into the cliffs.
The patterns i acquired from them are ****ing with my life in every aspect big time.
Well. About half a year ago i started to swallow the pill. And exercise my boundaries with consequences and i am not accepting their bull****. I feel a lot better since then. My interactions with people in general are better and females in general like me more. Bad thing is when i have to talk to my parents i have to walk on Egg Shells. All while my mother has this gravitational sucking in like a Black Hole in which negative emotions are awaiting me and my father is always making subtle fun of my decisions and my interests while on the contrary he is not interested in me at all, even forgetting crucial things like allergies and putting me in situations where i am basically hurting myself by eating something i react to. He even repeatedly forced me when i say i cant, then accused me of acting out of place when i wanted to drop the topic or even raised my voice when he was trying to persuade me for minutes. At least my father is not threatening violence anymore and showing his physical dominance ever since i workout and put on 8 kg from underweight. He stepped up his workout when he saw my new body grow and grow; Narcissistic ****head. I refuse any invitations of him. Accepting both my parents "help" or "assistance" has cost me so much mental health and even my tonsils.
I am 21 and still in learning. I waited tables for a year while in school so when i decide to take on college the following or later semesters there is something i can look out to finance a little room/flat. If it wasn't for waiting tables between hot girls it would've taken years to overcome my anxiety of personal touch.
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Have any of you overcome situations with CLUSTER B PARENTS(Narcissitic, Borderline, Impulsive, Antisocial, Histrionic) or a mom that likes to manipulate into melancholia and a dad who tries to connect with gossip? Both have different types of guilt manipulation. I can't fight them with logic and their frames are over 40 years old and so manifested. I don't want to end like them.
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There are eggshells everywhere and censoring yourself to the point where you basically game yourself into bad situations is not healthy. Whenever i come out of a conversation with them i have those fights in my head where i yell and yell "no" and sometimes cuss around to get out of this self censorship and those conversation frames that always drift the ship into the cliffs.
The patterns i acquired from them are ****ing with my life in every aspect big time.
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