My Journal

[black jesus]

This is my journal it is for me and i do not expect you guys to comment that was not the goal. it is designed for me to see my progression and for me to get things out of my head. if you do comment that would be great and will benefit me in my road to success.
these are my problems and my goals and for everyday of the week i will focus on one and will keep a journal on what i did to fix it and the outcome

1) need to smile more
- Spend half of my time being goofy and all
_ Always think of something that makes me smile

2) need to look people in the eye
- Everybody that looks at me in the train must look away first
- look at everybody i ever see in the eye

3) need to overcome AA
- Everyday i msut meet one new person no matter how quickly
- Do things that other people will find outrageous

4) need to stop getting angry all the time
- notice when people get me mad and then smile
- have a slow paced life of not rushing

5) need to spend more time interacting with people
- cannot come straight home from school
- Need to chill wit people at least once every 3 days
- never come home and turn on my computer or video game unless for school related work (only for the computer)

Hopefully this will help me stay on track to self improvement

 

[black jesus]

12/28/11

Today was a boring day. nothing much happened. I was supposed to go to the mall wit a chick friend of mine but she didnt show. her excuse was she had to visit family but to me thats bullshvt. if u diddnt show, you flaked end of story. Like an idiot i didnt have a plan b and going to the mall by urself sucks even if you do pick up a feww digits so i didnt go. Now im starting to regret that. so i just stayed home all day sleeping what a waste. to at least make up for that im trying to game this chick i met on fb. now this is not even a good learning enviroment but hey it beats doing nothing. but ina positive note ive learned something today which is to always have a plan b no matter what

Signing out
Black jesus

 

[LearningSlowly]

12/12/11

Today was a boring day. nothing much happened. I was supposed to go to the mall wit a chick friend of mine but she didnt show. her excuse was she had to visit family but to me thats bullshvt. if u diddnt show, you flaked end of story. Like an idiot i didnt have a plan b and going to the mall by urself sucks even if you do pick up a feww digits so i didnt go. Now im starting to regret that. so i just stayed home all day sleeping what a waste. to at least make up for that im trying to game this chick i met on fb. now this is not even a good learning enviroment but hey it beats doing nothing. but ina positive note ive learned something today which is to always have a plan b no matter what

Signing out
Black jesus

Wanna hear the BEST quote I heard today? Blew my mind when the guy said it.

He said that the best way you can teach yourself something, is just to be a motivation coach. All you gotta do is be your own cheerleader and just say "Go go go!" and you'll always get better.

Next time, maybe you should say "Go go go!" on the mall opportunities. Even if it is just a number or two, that one number could be your first for a lot of things. I don't do mall day game, but I could, so I can't really criticize if you don't, just throwing it out there.

 

[black jesus]

12/29/11
did go to them mall today but nothing happened. i feel like adults now run the place. barely any chicks come to the mall anymore (the ones that are interesting any way). so i just chilled. later on this girl that i barely know hit me up of fb. i didnt reply so she hit me up again and again and again. then when i didnt reply still she inboxed me her digits and told me to text her. i did but feel like i kinda fvcked up in my phone game -__- but fvck it. im gonna try to improve that though. i feel like theres nothing interesting for me to do around my neigbhorhood. im gonna need to find more interesting places to be. but im 15 so thats gonna be a problem lol. i have a question though. theres this girl thats pretty cute, i dont talk to her cuz shes nowhere near my social circle. but on some occasions we bump into each other and she smiles a whole lot on what i say even when its not funny. i know this might be an IOI but i dont want to waste my time on something that MIGHT be. any opinions on this?

signing out
black jesus

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Far the **** out. It is. If you think it is, it is. You're not wasting your time, what would you do with it, post in this journal? No. Go get laid.

Oh, unless you spend that time learning to spell. You type like a facebook message.

 

[black jesus]

umm OK?

Far the **** out. It is. If you think it is, it is. You're not wasting your time, what would you do with it, post in this journal? No. Go get laid.

Oh, unless you spend that time learning to spell. You type like a facebook message.

well i dont know what my typing has to do with anything but whatever:rock: and what do you mean by far the **** out? i dont understand and i only write my journal at night when everything is done and im about to hit the sack.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Nothing man. It's just that the question you asked is asked a lot, by a lot of people.

Basically, you have nothing to lose, go for it. That is in fact the answer to most.

 

[black jesus]

Thanks JW well I've decided to start working out. I've never really given it much thought because i am one of those average health (not too fat or skinny) but I've been inspired i feel that working out and eating right will really improve my focus and energy which is positive.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

well i dont know what my typing has to do with anything but whatever

If your writing and spacing sucks, I wont bother to read properly.