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Master Don Juan
There was a girl that for years and years in school i could never have. She was smart and Beautiful, with long light brown hair blue eyes and a smile, that could make any man weak. I would look down the corridor in envy of the guy who had her. She would come running in to his arms to embrace him, she loved him so much surely she would never leave him. I wished that i had her and that she would never leave me! I always blamed it on the fact that i was bullied,people would call me names, they would treat me like crap, surely this is why she did not want me! After moveing school the bullying mostly stopped, but my lack of self esteem was there and still meant that she could never be mine.
I Found sosuave, and for a while i belived i had her. I felt that C&F and neghits would raise my game above the rest and she would come running loveingly in to my arms. But it was all in my little head, she was never mine to have, despite the fact i thought she liked me which hurt like a knife through my heart.
Through out the months that followed i was in denial, i tryed aproaching girls that i did not know, it was very hard for me to do, it was makeing me physicaly sick and when i talked to them, i had no game, they only replied to be polite, i had'nt a clue what i was doiing, i told myself "things would not be this way if i had the girl", the one i have always wanted"
As i talked to many girls my only love and i got closer, sure i did not have her, but at least now she would give me the time of day!
My game was getting better, not much but sitll better, yet the girl was far from mine, 'whats my name again?'
I started to use pooks positive affirmations, i told myself she must like me and i was stupid for thinking she didnt, i was stupid for being nervous to talk with her. Nerver would i do something so stupid again!
I never had her, but i acted as if i did, and let me tell you we got a lot lot closser, i was becomeing more then 'that guy.' We started hanging out a lot. We would go out together, and sit around and talk for hours and hours, i felt that she was with in my grasp.
As more months passes we got even closser, as we got closser i seemed to get more freinds aswell, i was becomeing far more liked and respected.
Not so long ago at all, when i was out just me and her, we kissed, it did not matter that another guy had her, because it felt that i did now aswell! Regardless of this other guy, we caryed on getting closser over the last few months, extremly close if you get what i mean. She was no longer 'that girl', she was my girl.
Last week i left my freinds by there seats at the bar and with my girl, who is now mine as much as ever, we hit the dance floor. Together hand in hand we walked up to a HB and started danceing with her before moveing on to a second HB.
You may be wondering how i could dance with a HB when i am with my girl, well thats becaue my 'girls' name is confidence.
I Found sosuave, and for a while i belived i had her. I felt that C&F and neghits would raise my game above the rest and she would come running loveingly in to my arms. But it was all in my little head, she was never mine to have, despite the fact i thought she liked me which hurt like a knife through my heart.
Through out the months that followed i was in denial, i tryed aproaching girls that i did not know, it was very hard for me to do, it was makeing me physicaly sick and when i talked to them, i had no game, they only replied to be polite, i had'nt a clue what i was doiing, i told myself "things would not be this way if i had the girl", the one i have always wanted"
As i talked to many girls my only love and i got closer, sure i did not have her, but at least now she would give me the time of day!
My game was getting better, not much but sitll better, yet the girl was far from mine, 'whats my name again?'
I started to use pooks positive affirmations, i told myself she must like me and i was stupid for thinking she didnt, i was stupid for being nervous to talk with her. Nerver would i do something so stupid again!
I never had her, but i acted as if i did, and let me tell you we got a lot lot closser, i was becomeing more then 'that guy.' We started hanging out a lot. We would go out together, and sit around and talk for hours and hours, i felt that she was with in my grasp.
As more months passes we got even closser, as we got closser i seemed to get more freinds aswell, i was becomeing far more liked and respected.
Not so long ago at all, when i was out just me and her, we kissed, it did not matter that another guy had her, because it felt that i did now aswell! Regardless of this other guy, we caryed on getting closser over the last few months, extremly close if you get what i mean. She was no longer 'that girl', she was my girl.
Last week i left my freinds by there seats at the bar and with my girl, who is now mine as much as ever, we hit the dance floor. Together hand in hand we walked up to a HB and started danceing with her before moveing on to a second HB.
You may be wondering how i could dance with a HB when i am with my girl, well thats becaue my 'girls' name is confidence.
