Army Strong
Don Juan
Sorry for the long read.
About two weeks before prom I fell for a girl who wasn't necessarily my "type" (I know that because when I look at similar-looking girls, I almost gag), although she is a really nice girl. I have never been in a relationship with a girl before or ever kissed one for that matter (however, I am not a virgin. Thank you booze.) We had been friends for months before that. I asked her to prom and she said yes, but seeing as I was completely blinded by love, I misinterpreted her "yes" as chance to be more than just friends. I realize now that that wasn't the case. She indeed wanted to go as just friends.
Prom was rather awkward. We went with her friends and none of my f*ck-up friends were eligible for prom, so I was alone most of the time. In addition to that, I was really shy for some reason and didn't get the chance to tell her how I felt that night, as I originally planned. I did however, gather up the courage to ask her to dance.
The following Monday, in school, I told her how I felt. She rejected me as I expected, giving me the old "I'm not looking for a relationship right now" speech. I knew it was my pus$y little timid self that ruined my chances. We stopped talking even though I sit side by side with her in three different classes. Graduation came and I really wanted to say bye to this girl because I knew I wasn't ever going to see her again. I texted her the day after, asking if I can say farewell to her in person. She never replied.
That was three days ago. I can't stop thinking about her. I have never teared up until now. I have this constant feeling in my gut and head. Other girls who I know are much better than her, are not. It really does feel that my life is over and that I have no more purpose. Sh1t, I even joined the Army because of this.
Since this is the first time I have ever felt like this, I wanna ask you guys for advice. How long is this going to last? How do I deal with it? How do I fall for someone that will actually give me a chance?
I really don't care for sex. I just want a nice girl that I can be with and love passionately, and who will feel the same towards me.
Thank you for your time.
About two weeks before prom I fell for a girl who wasn't necessarily my "type" (I know that because when I look at similar-looking girls, I almost gag), although she is a really nice girl. I have never been in a relationship with a girl before or ever kissed one for that matter (however, I am not a virgin. Thank you booze.) We had been friends for months before that. I asked her to prom and she said yes, but seeing as I was completely blinded by love, I misinterpreted her "yes" as chance to be more than just friends. I realize now that that wasn't the case. She indeed wanted to go as just friends.
Prom was rather awkward. We went with her friends and none of my f*ck-up friends were eligible for prom, so I was alone most of the time. In addition to that, I was really shy for some reason and didn't get the chance to tell her how I felt that night, as I originally planned. I did however, gather up the courage to ask her to dance.
The following Monday, in school, I told her how I felt. She rejected me as I expected, giving me the old "I'm not looking for a relationship right now" speech. I knew it was my pus$y little timid self that ruined my chances. We stopped talking even though I sit side by side with her in three different classes. Graduation came and I really wanted to say bye to this girl because I knew I wasn't ever going to see her again. I texted her the day after, asking if I can say farewell to her in person. She never replied.
That was three days ago. I can't stop thinking about her. I have never teared up until now. I have this constant feeling in my gut and head. Other girls who I know are much better than her, are not. It really does feel that my life is over and that I have no more purpose. Sh1t, I even joined the Army because of this.
Since this is the first time I have ever felt like this, I wanna ask you guys for advice. How long is this going to last? How do I deal with it? How do I fall for someone that will actually give me a chance?
I really don't care for sex. I just want a nice girl that I can be with and love passionately, and who will feel the same towards me.
Thank you for your time.
