Here's the situation ...
There's two different plates I'm going hooking up with. The first one, let's call her H, I've been with for the past 9 months. I took her virginity 6 months into the 9 months and haven't had sex since because she said the month after that was her worst experience ever due to fearing prego. We still hang out but recently she's been complaining that all I'm interested in is getting some and that I lied when I said I loved her because I still got with other girls.
There's the second girl, let's call her M, who I met about 3 months ago. She doesn't have the personality of H, but we have good sex every time we're together. I know M is attached and I think I'm going doing it because she has a banging body and I like the power trip or some sh!t. She's on birth control but it didn't make a difference before when she wasn't, she let me raw dog that **** anyway.
I don't get why I'm more attracted to H, who I can honestly say I'd wife and end this silly game. M is whatever, it's fun, but it's still whatever. I'm confused by my own feelings and emotions. I don't do dates, but I'm planning on taking H out. I could NEVER see myself taking M out, she's just not worthy of that kind of attention from me, at least that's how I think I see it. I'm trying to be completely honest here so someone can help me figure out what the fk I'm thinking, because I really don't understand the situation.
I think M became dependent on me without me trying, and in such a short time. H has been around longer and I actually try with her, so what's with that? Any contribution is appreciated. I'm really lost. I think I'm getting oneitis for H too, and it doesn't make sense at all because I have other girls that will give it up. I'm in college and hook ups there happen but don't mean anything and I wish it was H.
TL;DR - I confuse myself by my emotions
There's two different plates I'm going hooking up with. The first one, let's call her H, I've been with for the past 9 months. I took her virginity 6 months into the 9 months and haven't had sex since because she said the month after that was her worst experience ever due to fearing prego. We still hang out but recently she's been complaining that all I'm interested in is getting some and that I lied when I said I loved her because I still got with other girls.
There's the second girl, let's call her M, who I met about 3 months ago. She doesn't have the personality of H, but we have good sex every time we're together. I know M is attached and I think I'm going doing it because she has a banging body and I like the power trip or some sh!t. She's on birth control but it didn't make a difference before when she wasn't, she let me raw dog that **** anyway.
I don't get why I'm more attracted to H, who I can honestly say I'd wife and end this silly game. M is whatever, it's fun, but it's still whatever. I'm confused by my own feelings and emotions. I don't do dates, but I'm planning on taking H out. I could NEVER see myself taking M out, she's just not worthy of that kind of attention from me, at least that's how I think I see it. I'm trying to be completely honest here so someone can help me figure out what the fk I'm thinking, because I really don't understand the situation.
I think M became dependent on me without me trying, and in such a short time. H has been around longer and I actually try with her, so what's with that? Any contribution is appreciated. I'm really lost. I think I'm getting oneitis for H too, and it doesn't make sense at all because I have other girls that will give it up. I'm in college and hook ups there happen but don't mean anything and I wish it was H.
TL;DR - I confuse myself by my emotions