affliction
Don Juan
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This is in regards to the 39 year old MILF I've been fvcking regularly (once a week or so) for the past several months. It's pretty ridiculous when I think about it. I honestly don't want anything to do with this woman (aside from casual sex). She's 39 years old, dumber than you can imagine, boring as all hell to talk to, and to top it all off, she's not even attractive. Actually she's pretty much a total failure.
I've only been fvcking her because I have nothing else available to me and--because I didn't lose my virginity until I was 22 (to her, no less)--I was willing to bite the bullet and embrace any kind of experience I could get under my belt. She is my mother's friend and she would usually spend the night over my house after they went out on the weekends. I would come home after drinking, wake her up (she would sleep on the couch) and bring her into my room for a good pounding.
Ready for the punch line? For the past week she has started hanging out with this new guy her own age and every time I see him my fvcking blood boils. WHY!? It's ridiculous. I try to rationalize it and I understand that it makes no sense. I don't care for this woman and it was just sex. Why am I so angry?
Is it a territorial thing? A pride thing? Maybe both? Who knows, but it's irritating. The funny thing is that, despite the fact that I realize how silly the whole thing is, I still act on my emotion. Last night she got into a fight with her room mate and had to leave the house. She called me up and asked if I would give her a ride back over there so she could get her daughter out of the house for the night. I told her no.
Does that make me an irrational assh*le? Probably, but man did it feel great. The problem is that she's always really nice to me.
Oh well. Fvck her. She's wasted my time anyway. A source of easy puss made me way too complacent. I lost my motivation to meet new women. I need to pick up my balls and find a girl my age now.
Thanks for listening. I had to get this out.
I've only been fvcking her because I have nothing else available to me and--because I didn't lose my virginity until I was 22 (to her, no less)--I was willing to bite the bullet and embrace any kind of experience I could get under my belt. She is my mother's friend and she would usually spend the night over my house after they went out on the weekends. I would come home after drinking, wake her up (she would sleep on the couch) and bring her into my room for a good pounding.
Ready for the punch line? For the past week she has started hanging out with this new guy her own age and every time I see him my fvcking blood boils. WHY!? It's ridiculous. I try to rationalize it and I understand that it makes no sense. I don't care for this woman and it was just sex. Why am I so angry?
Is it a territorial thing? A pride thing? Maybe both? Who knows, but it's irritating. The funny thing is that, despite the fact that I realize how silly the whole thing is, I still act on my emotion. Last night she got into a fight with her room mate and had to leave the house. She called me up and asked if I would give her a ride back over there so she could get her daughter out of the house for the night. I told her no.
Does that make me an irrational assh*le? Probably, but man did it feel great. The problem is that she's always really nice to me.
Oh well. Fvck her. She's wasted my time anyway. A source of easy puss made me way too complacent. I lost my motivation to meet new women. I need to pick up my balls and find a girl my age now.
Thanks for listening. I had to get this out.