My biggest problem

[piri]

Alright. I didn't post this on the questions forum because it is not really a
question. It's more like an opinion.

So here it goes: a brief story. I tried to tell everything as it is, even the parts
that I'm ashamed of.

Please don't answare if you really don't have nothing to add. Thanks.

Ok. I have a girlfriend for about 4 years now. She's a HB9, and she's completly
obcessed by me. She never had anyone else. She even wants to marry me and stay with me for the rest of her life.
The thing is, 3 years ago I started studying all this DJ stuff that changed my whole life. I grew up so much with it. It's part of me now, but I'm still growing up (I'm 20 by the way).

My problem is that, with all this DJ stuff I learned, I feel like I'm missing my
life. We only have one life right? Might as well live it.
Even thought I love my girl, (I want to marry with her too. She's perfect for me) I have betrayed her with more than 10 girls, several times with each one (Yes I know. too many! I'm REALLY ashamed of it, but I was a real jerk back then. Don't need to mock me for it. I already payed my price). Still, it's completly natural to feel things for other women. I now have something like 6 girls wanting me, and I feel like I'm loosing my youth. Because that's what means being young: living your life while you can without being attached to any chains.

I don't want to betray my girl again. I'll NEVER do it again. Ever!
But I still want to live my life. It's the only one I have. Still, shes the girl I
want to marry with.

What do you think I should do?
Stick with the girl and marry her (never forget that the future NEVER happens as you imagine. If it goes wrong, ... youth wasted!)

Or DJ. Living youth but risking a future without the girl you want to marry with.

Simply put:
Girl or DJ?

Thanks a lot for your answares. This question haunts me for a long time. Hope I can figure out something with your help.
I'm being really serious about this.

(sorry for some bad english.)

 

[SharinganUser]

Just break up with her. It'll be better for both of you in the long run.

 

[tick37]

This decision is up to you. I'm thinking you don't love her as much as you say you do or this wouldn't be a hard decision. 20 is way to young to get married these days anyway. Soon as you marry her, she'll probably lose interest in you. Keep living like you are, and she'll probably stick around and marry you when you're ready.

 

[MacAvoy]

DJ because your both too young to commit to another person for the rest of your life. If she marries you now, when she's in her mid to late 20's, she'll regret missing her youth and start to wander like your already doing. You yourself are proof that your not ready to commit.

If your going to keep her in the picture, start being SUPER CAREFUL when having sex, including always using condoms, don't believe in I'm on the pill BS, cuz if she's that infatuated with you and you don't marry her, she'll try tie you down by getting prego. And I'm not one of these guys that is super paranoid about chicks getting prego like many guys around here.

 

[piri]

You're right.
I wouldn't even question myself about this if I was completly in love with her.


It will be hard.
I'm still afraid of losing her forever. But life without hard decisions wouldn't be fun.
Thanks a lot guys.

Hope it's for the best

 

[Wiesman44]

You're only 20. You don't know if she's the one for you. but sounds like you still really like her and you want to mess around w/ other girls.

Do the oldest trick in the book, say u want to date other people. thats the only way u might be able to keep her and do what u want.