loving's fiield reports

[loving]

Hey guys its my first post here and I wanna say right now my problem is ive got trouble approaching. As such you may see a lack of depth to my posts until I get over that, heh.

Looking forward to all your guys advice , I hope you enjoy these experiences just as much as me!

Oct 8, 08:
So today I smoke - theres something about smoking that just makes me feel good and thats why I do it.. as it relates to this the girls seem to feel me when I do it. And theres this girl at the bus stop who has this twinkle in her eyes.. Shes watching me back and just making eye contact every time I do. So we get on the same bus home and I sit down and she says "Dont tell me hes gonna come on this bus and sit right there because I'm just gonna look at him the whole time." I laughed and then shut off the rest of the way home as was my intention before - meditate while high = feels great. I'm getting kinda curious as to how great itll feel to be with them instead... Still haven't approached a girl.

always,
loving

 

[loving]

See this is the continuing trend guys.. Lots of attraction and interest but I cant find it in myself to take action..

 

[loving]

im not embarasses that i did this man

i have bad patterns in me and you must understand there was a time when you too and in fact all people were stuck with women and rather than insulting me you could even try to help.

you could start by telling me how that was an insult? from my perspective it seemed like a very powerful IOI her saying that in a bus

On the one side there's this side of me that knows so much and has learned so much in the realm of happiness and love and pickup.. But then theres the other side.. the dominant side im ashamed to say.. that just will not act on it. I dont say doesn't wana act on it because I do sooo much.

i also wanted to note that just 2 days ago I saw proximity in effect as i was sitting at the bus stop and this girl came and stood there for like 10 minutes, then glanced at me, i got the "missed your chance vibe" and she crossed the street.

what am I hoping to do by posting my experiences? like any other field report, i want to know where im going wrong and how to improve there. unlike any other field report, i still have a paralyzng fear of approaching, and so there is not much dialogue to be posted by me until i get over it - i want to change but i do not want to lie.
so far after all the help ive saught after for this nothing has increased the attraction signs ive gotten from women better than "feel good" which has also coincidentally made my life pretty damn great-feeling as well. but just great-feeling, feeling better than I ever have before hasnt prompted me to take any action, not yet at least. then again i dont want to limit the advice i get so please, post your opinions. i know logically if i have warm signs before approaching im better off than 90% of the people who even approach - which in my city honestly ive seen maybe 5 diff guys actually going up and meeting new girls, 4 of which failed and 1 of which was a pair of guys who are always at the bus station doing there thing. anyway, i still cant get up the nerve even though i can feel she likes me and i like her too

 

[chinwaggler]

that was hardly a field report

 

[loving]

she did it playfully.. this stuff keeps happening to me man. im telling u guys ive got this problem where i cant approach..

Oct 9/08
so im on the bus again today and this girl comes on and sits across from me.. then gets up and sits on the two-seater in front of me .. but the way we were sitting it was like she was besid eme.. so i get all freaked out again and just start thinking ok stop thinking about her just relax if your not gonna approach just stop thinking and zone out.. then about 5 mins later i noticed her looking at me in the window and her finger was on her cheek like to kiss her there.. and she kept it there the whole ride until about 35 mins later when some hot blonde came and sat beside her and she kinda poouted and i felt some attraction slip from me

sorry if some of this sounds out of wack im not good at my field exp. report format yet

bare with me guys im coming home!

 

[loving]

I also wanna use this thread to highlight posts I make and get your guys' input on things.

post a pic of u I can say I look like brad pitt man

i find that if your handsome women like to look at you.. personally how i see it is it doesnt matter if they show signs of submission before u want signs of attraction.. thus u are probably intimidating and not attractive.. light eyes with dark rings around them (an effect multiplied by thick eyebrows like some of us euros have) tend to do that to people so that isnt to say you arent genetically blessed but you are intimidating them. when i see a girl who approaches me (please read my field report for more info on this, i do need some help) she cant help but stare every moment and opportunity she gets, and loves it when i look back because i appreciate every fiber of her being. it feels wonderful for me too -Me

Is there something im doing right.wrong?